ok so my house us sad and lonely.

i hate my life and everything in it

every thing is just wrong

i miss my old life so much but its apparent it doesnt miss me- my job, my school, my friends, all gone

i am so sad and so lonely and i cant deal anymore

what did i do wrong to deserve this

this is not who i want to be

i just want to disappear

elys gone... i feel very empty and alone. like all i want to do is go and run on the tredmill but i dont becuase i dont have the energy. i need a new gym buddy. Hell i need someone thats going to make him a jealeous reck and hate him self for what he is doing to me but my usaul has a girlfriend and i really hate to admit this but he now has a ( Read more... )

So we finally talked, But i stood my ground. we had a very long talk and i told him i still want him to move out becuase i dont like the person he makes me and that our realationship is so serious that we can never just have fun together becuase thats not a realationship.he agree'd. so he is still moving out and we are going to date for a while so ( Read more... )

first of i wanna start by apologizing to louise - it wasnt at all fair to put u in the middle of all of that ( Read more... )

god i hate boys sometimes! so ely goes to benjis yesterday and doesnt get home till after i go to work - so i call him and am like, what do you want to do tonight? and he informs me he is going to get this "jasons - brothers - girl friends birthday...... HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW HER yet he blows off a night at that he will actually be a awake for ( Read more... )

RASFHPDFHRHPSEGHLMSHRSHML:RSHPSRHKS:LHKMSR HSRH ( Read more... )

so my weekends been pretty good i am loving the snow. Last night i worked until 8 then we went to kyles and hung out with him and jay then ely went to a concert with benj so me and kyle and jay hung out in the hot tub just chillen and talking. (Louise i really dont think you have anything to worry about). Wow he is so different from the last time ( Read more... )

so i am doing my school applications and am being grumpy becuase my mouth hurts like a biatch! starting to get ready for christmas which is a lil frusterating i dont know what i want! well i do but its not much and everyone keeps asking me and i am like BAHHHHH. i bought ely a 30gig ipod so he should be happy. its the only christmas present i have ( Read more... )

i LOVE LOVE LOVE storms and my new bed!