i don't know whats wrong with me. i am just so depressed right now and my emotions are everywhere. Maybe it is because i had a long day at work i don't know. it just feels like sometimes people just don't appreciate what i am doing for them. i hardly ever complain to them about the kind of crap that i am doing. i hate that people make fun of me ( Read more... )

So i haven't updated in a while. i was going to yesturday but i got distracted. so whats new with Rachel, nothin really. i have been working alot just getting ready for the winter. i hear that Thunder Ridge is hopeing to open december 9th not sure. they made snow last night not that much. they were just seeing if the snow machines work. i love ( Read more... )

so i don't understand why john always has to work. everytime i ask him if he wants to hang out he is doing something. maybe it is a hint and i just don't want to face it. i really like him alot. he is a awesome guy i just want to know him better. i think my friend kayla is coming with me to lake compounce i hope it is alright with shannon and ( Read more... )

Yea so over the weekend i went to Oswego. It was fun, i was very happy to see Anthony. Yesturday i went to the jail. i was very nerous but got over it . this week is going to be long.... If anyone wants a job at thunder ridge just let me know. Employment night is tomorrow at 6:30.

GO CARMEL FIELD HOCKEY!!!! YOUR STILL NUMBER 1 IN MY BOOK. DON'T LET MAHOPAC GET YOU DOWN, THEY SUCK ANYWAY

So what has been new in the life of Rachel. Well i got johns home and cell number. i have called him at his home and he actually picks up which is good. i had our mock trial today in law and i ended up being a teacher who takes revenge on her students, which is alright to me. Thats why i am not going to be a teacher. Anyway, What else happened. ( Read more... )

The show last night was amazing. Tear the Sky was great. There was also another band that played before them who were just as good but everytime we would try and get their name the person who we were asking who leave the last part out or we couldn't hear them. O well.
Today is going to be a calm day i am going to the mall to get patty a birthday ( Read more... )

This is for the people who are going to the show tomorrow:

Take 312 all the way down past the railroad tracks to Rt. 22 and make a left. About 1/2 mile down on the right, make a right onto Doansburg Rd. Stay on Doansburg all the way to an intersection where you'll see the VFW parking lot right in front of you.

so i am sooo confused right now, i have no clue what to do. I don't know if i should call john to see if he got the message or not or just ash him in person in school. i wish it was much easier than it is to tell someone you want to be with them no matter where it is. if anyone has any suggestions let me know please

There i did it, i told John how i felt. I actually left a voice mail on his cell phone but the point got across. I am just nervous to see how he feels....