Eversince the i had my brithday dinner last sat night everything has been going downhill. I mean everything, the car was the happiest thing that i had got to earn and drive. I shared great memories with that car. that saturday night was also the happiest and saddest night of my life. i'm talking before the crash. i really don't feel like explaining ( Read more... )

I woke up in a dream today ( Read more... )

i am thankful.... what is there to be thankful for ... a curse that has been upon me that follows me where ever i go. whenever good or happiness comes into my life that it is ripped away with such force i'm left with a decayed, cold, black heart... when do i start to have pernament happiness in my life. when do i get what everyone else has... all i ( Read more... )

Seven black birds in a tree, count them and see what they be. One for sorrow, two for joy, three for a girl, four for a boy, five for silver, six for gold, seven is a secret thats never been told..... I died....

I think about suicide everyday, but then I realize that if there's nothing worth living for, then there's nothing worth dying for.

In all forms of nature there exists an equilibrium that will be maintained at all costs. So why is it that people must question the origins of evil, of pain, of corruption. They are the balance to what is good and just, and without them there is a polar disarray of emotion that would consume the world.

All people dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity. But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people, for they may act their dream with open eyes to make it possible.

ON tues i will be going on a long retreat called kairos. just let everyone know that i will be gone half of the week if anyone cares at all

I have accepted fear as a part of life - specifically the fear of change.... I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back.

I must be a mushroom because I'm always kept in the dark and fed bullshit.