Fury. Sadness. Joy. Hope.

[irishyogini]

Fury

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[bodhifox]

I'm here, Princess. Always here. If you need anything.

[irishyogini]

Thanks Cap'n. I hope you're well and taking care.

[red_girl_42]

You posted! So good to hear from you again--and wow, big news.

I'm glad you're taking care of yourself. I'm trying to do that myself. I haven't quit drinking entirely but I cut way back. It was just obscuring the unhappy parts, not curing them.

Give me a holler on Yahoo if you ever get on anymore!

[irishyogini]

Hai! I did it! I posted! And actually, it felt wonderful. Like rereading a good book or sliding into bed after a long day

[irishyogini]

You know, I never wanted to go through divorce again. I never wanted to get here. But, here I am, and there's nothing for it. I cannot be happy unless I am out of this relationship. Oddly, since I've started making moves in that direction (I moved upstairs into my own room and full bathroom), the working stuff has been much easier. Much more positive. I suspected as much but was fairly relieved just the same. I don't know if he will be able to handle it long term, but it's good for now and that's enough.

I haven't caught up on your journal, so forgive me if I do not know all that's been going on with you. I am looking very, VERY forward to seeing you next month, and I would love the opportunity to spend loads of quality time catching up with you over coffee and tea and yummy deliciousness.

I think of you so very often. You're always in my heart, too.

How do you feel about writing letters or maybe even phone calls?

[hsaile]

Have I mentioned how proud I am of you? I know that this has not been an easy decision or a decision that you have taken lightly. So freakin' proud of you for choosing to take care of a beautiful, vibrant, creative woman.

[irishyogini]

Thank you. So much. ♥

[feministyogini]

We are newly friended but your resolve is inspiring. When you begin new healthy patterns, it's easier to see your unhealthy previous ones. I'm sure this is a difficult decision so my thoughts are with you as you figure out the transition.

[irishyogini]

The first changes are always the hardest. I have been reading in your journal a bit and I look forward to getting to know you.

[feministyogini]

I'm not sure if you're on my 'super secret' filter or not. I've talked a bit about my relationship there, which has some parallels to yours with some key differences too. It's really true, those first few steps are the most difficult because you're plotting a new way and that always feels weird.

[irishyogini]

I don't believe I've read anything about your relationship, but that doesn't mean I'm not on your list. I have been in absentia from LJ for some time. I simply may not have read far enough back.