Comments | irismoonlight: Must be nice to have the time, she said

irismoonlight

Must be nice to have the time, she said

Feb 11, 2013 23:26

And just like that, I quit meditating. I'd been meditating regularly for months. It was good for me, kept me stable, helped me process some emotional issues. I'd spend a half-hour doing a self-guided visualization meditation and another half-hour writing about it. It wasn't a Buddhist "sit" by any means-- it was more guided imagery with a side of ( Read more... )

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supergee February 12 2013, 10:36:46 UTC

I am glad you got over that nasty little verbal assault. Good luck with the continued meditation.

irismoonlight February 13 2013, 18:05:56 UTC

*smile* Thanks.

lblanchard February 12 2013, 13:15:27 UTC

Different folks, different strokes. I might have started meditating an hour a day just for spite.

I occasionally stop to think that my life may be more privileged than that of some folks on my f-list here or elsewhere. I don't want to rub my relative affluence (or whatever) in other folks' faces, but on the other hand I am who I am and that's the point of having a journal. I don't spend my life consumed with envy of other folks who are wealthier, fitter, or happier than I, so anyone who envies me can deal with their own envy, thankyouverymuch.

irismoonlight February 13 2013, 18:12:01 UTC

I think I was supposed to learn basic humility and civility -- "don't be a bore bragging about yourself, don't be ostentatious or gauche," and instead or in addition I internalized "it's shameful and hideously rude to let anybody know you have something they don't" with a side dish of "because you really don't deserve/shouldn't have it." Or concepts of an extremely similar nature.

johnpalmer February 15 2013, 19:40:24 UTC

I had a minor epiphany about meditation while doing the crazy-balance-dance during a physical therapy exercise. I realized that the crazy-balance-dance was kinda-sorta part of the exercise. I mean, the goal of the exercise is to move things properly, so you don't have any balance issues. Maybe you'll consciously realize "okay, gotta throw my butt way back like so, and bend my leg here, and feel my weight balanced a certain way" or maybe you'll just throw your butt back like so, bend your leg there, and feel your weight balanced a certain way, and not realize that you've learned a new skill. Doesn't matter. The point is, you keep doing the exercise, even when you feel like an idiot and incompetent because you keep doing the crazy-balance-dance, because it's all part of the process ( ... )