When Love Was Not Enough
Its been a long time since my last update, let alone, since i actually sat down and gave a real one.
The Band -
We finally.. after 3 months, came together with a name that everyone likes. The "new project" that I kept talking about can now be called " Embrace The Mourning" ------ Althought, Im not to sure exactly what spelling we are going to go with...but it does carry the double meaning, as it sounds when you say it out loud.
We're three songs into it.. not really feeling the very first song anymore though.. so *weird face*.. we'll see if it appears at a show or not. I am happy and excited about this last song we made however. And honestly it'll prolly be the first song that we open up to at shows. Good intro, nice harmonies, and breakdown to end with... so Im pretty happy with it. Either way.. we'll count the first song out.. and say that we have two songs...jarmen was playing some shit tonight that we are keeping for a song, and shawn has 95 percent of a song completely written.. its just a matter of placing the rest of the music, with the two "premature" songs. *breaths* -- ok.. so what Im really trying to say is... it wont take that long before we have 4 songs. -sounds better then giberish aye?-
Sleeve if you see this, and read this.. let me know about that show in Terra Haute.
Anyway..... Hopefully we'll be popping into a studio before to long so we can have an mp3 on line.. start a myspace page, pure volume, ect... so people can get a decent idea of what we sound like. *To Anyone Who Heard -And The Rivers Run Red- Please Do NOT think that the new music that is being written Sounds ANYTHING like that SHIT I brought to Indy Last Time* Give this new band an open floor, a clean slate, and an oppertunity to show you that its far different.
Everything else in life.... is worthless. I guess the jobs not... so not everything......
but we'll kick it like this..
- friends - out side of the band, I dont really talk to that many people anymore.. its nothing on them, or me.. but it just doesnt seem to happen. ( im not talking about indy people ) but I havent gotten any phone calls from anyone like i used to.. i dont even see them around town. I know its on me, as much as it is them.. but at the same time.. i dont see anyone making an effort.... so i wont either.. and honestly.. without trying to sound like a dick... but I really dont care.. I seem to put my neck out for my friends time after time... to get nothing in return..only a few are really there for me.. but past that.. Im a loner.
- girl - I pretty much never see her, hardly ever talk to her, and for the most part.. feel head over heals for her, only to be getting dicked over it seems...I feel like the female in the relationship., always telling her i miss her, always complaining that I never see her, always asking all kinds of questions... only for her to always make plans with other people besides me, never tell me anything, and get mad at my questions... I honestly dont know what im doing, or what i should do about the situation.. but i guess if anything.... I have the fuel to write....... and face it..... everything hurts in the end.
- life - Pretty much seems pointless right now. The only thing I look forward to is waking up to go to work. Spending about 10 hours there and then coming home to nothing. Feeling alone all the time, and constantly wondering WTF is going on. Asking myself why I let myself be so down, and then pretty much drowning myself in my sorrows. Then for a split moment I realize that my life isnt that bad, I have alot of things to be thankful of, and it could be alot worse..... and then I tell myself.... that this is the worse its been in a long time, Im completely depressed, stressed out, and all in all an emotional wreck.... so im going to soak in it. But.. I guess all in all, I should have just wrote that with the girl complaints.
Im back in the gym finally.... I started going awhile ago, and then left for two months when my friend had is accident and almost passed. And then it just took me forever to go back.. but I guess thats one thing I can be happy about.. as well as the band.. and still having my job. Anything past that... doesnt really matter to me anymore...and all I can ask.. is that hopefully I'll be over this phase soon and return to being happy.... if not... then I guess I'll forever have bad dreams, not be able to sleep or eat, and pretty much become so unhealthy that I cant walk...... thats always nice to look forward to aye?
The Band -
We finally.. after 3 months, came together with a name that everyone likes. The "new project" that I kept talking about can now be called " Embrace The Mourning" ------ Althought, Im not to sure exactly what spelling we are going to go with...but it does carry the double meaning, as it sounds when you say it out loud.
We're three songs into it.. not really feeling the very first song anymore though.. so *weird face*.. we'll see if it appears at a show or not. I am happy and excited about this last song we made however. And honestly it'll prolly be the first song that we open up to at shows. Good intro, nice harmonies, and breakdown to end with... so Im pretty happy with it. Either way.. we'll count the first song out.. and say that we have two songs...jarmen was playing some shit tonight that we are keeping for a song, and shawn has 95 percent of a song completely written.. its just a matter of placing the rest of the music, with the two "premature" songs. *breaths* -- ok.. so what Im really trying to say is... it wont take that long before we have 4 songs. -sounds better then giberish aye?-
Sleeve if you see this, and read this.. let me know about that show in Terra Haute.
Anyway..... Hopefully we'll be popping into a studio before to long so we can have an mp3 on line.. start a myspace page, pure volume, ect... so people can get a decent idea of what we sound like. *To Anyone Who Heard -And The Rivers Run Red- Please Do NOT think that the new music that is being written Sounds ANYTHING like that SHIT I brought to Indy Last Time* Give this new band an open floor, a clean slate, and an oppertunity to show you that its far different.
Everything else in life.... is worthless. I guess the jobs not... so not everything......
but we'll kick it like this..
- friends - out side of the band, I dont really talk to that many people anymore.. its nothing on them, or me.. but it just doesnt seem to happen. ( im not talking about indy people ) but I havent gotten any phone calls from anyone like i used to.. i dont even see them around town. I know its on me, as much as it is them.. but at the same time.. i dont see anyone making an effort.... so i wont either.. and honestly.. without trying to sound like a dick... but I really dont care.. I seem to put my neck out for my friends time after time... to get nothing in return..only a few are really there for me.. but past that.. Im a loner.
- girl - I pretty much never see her, hardly ever talk to her, and for the most part.. feel head over heals for her, only to be getting dicked over it seems...I feel like the female in the relationship., always telling her i miss her, always complaining that I never see her, always asking all kinds of questions... only for her to always make plans with other people besides me, never tell me anything, and get mad at my questions... I honestly dont know what im doing, or what i should do about the situation.. but i guess if anything.... I have the fuel to write....... and face it..... everything hurts in the end.
- life - Pretty much seems pointless right now. The only thing I look forward to is waking up to go to work. Spending about 10 hours there and then coming home to nothing. Feeling alone all the time, and constantly wondering WTF is going on. Asking myself why I let myself be so down, and then pretty much drowning myself in my sorrows. Then for a split moment I realize that my life isnt that bad, I have alot of things to be thankful of, and it could be alot worse..... and then I tell myself.... that this is the worse its been in a long time, Im completely depressed, stressed out, and all in all an emotional wreck.... so im going to soak in it. But.. I guess all in all, I should have just wrote that with the girl complaints.
Im back in the gym finally.... I started going awhile ago, and then left for two months when my friend had is accident and almost passed. And then it just took me forever to go back.. but I guess thats one thing I can be happy about.. as well as the band.. and still having my job. Anything past that... doesnt really matter to me anymore...and all I can ask.. is that hopefully I'll be over this phase soon and return to being happy.... if not... then I guess I'll forever have bad dreams, not be able to sleep or eat, and pretty much become so unhealthy that I cant walk...... thats always nice to look forward to aye?