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[one_of_the_kind]

I’m alone. This feels so weird. I hate being alone. But now I am. And yes, I do know that saying that I’m alone is unfair to Giles and Spike and other Scoobies, but I do feel alone. And can you really blame me? I mean... I lost my mom, I lost my sister and I doubt my father even cares that I exist. Of course the existence is bit weird taking the

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[buffys_bitch]

I start awake and almost launch a punch at who's got hold of me, but at the last second I realise it's the niblet and drop my fist.

"So, finally she shows." I grunt, and sit up with a wry grin playing on my face. "What am I chopped liver? We had a date didn't we? Some sparring, a spot of Passions and maybe, if you are lucky, we can play gin runny or something."

I shake my head groggily then look around.

"Where'd Tara go? She off already with Willow and the gang? I'd love to know what's so important that can't involve the likes of me or you. Guess we ain't the chosen ones after all. Not that I'm complaining about the company, mind."

I reach into my pocket, and put a fag to my lips. I'm about to light it when I see Dawn make that face. I shove the thing back in my pocket with a scowl.

"So, you up for some weapons training?"

[one_of_the_kind]

The Chosen ones. Well, I would say we're freakin' more than chosen... right, not the point... But Spike's got a point, where did Tara and the rest go? And of course again didn't let me go with them. It's not like I'm complaining that I need to stay with Spike, I like staying with Spike, it's a lot cooler than with other Scoobies... well, maybe except Anya, cos I think it's cool how she talks about sex all the time... Anyway, this has been a long week and all the time as I've got in the room everyone just shuts up and pretends they have never spoken. Damn! I'm a slayer now, shouldn't I like know things too, now

[buffys_bitch]

"We train so that we can keep you alive. It's no joke Dawn." I snap a little harshly. Don't know why I did, but for a second I'd felt my unbeating heart clench insie my chest, like I was seeing her atop that tower again. Helpless and bleeding.

I hadn't been able to save her that time, hadn't been able to keep my promise Buffy to protect her. So now I was determined to make sure she could save herself.

I look down at the floor for a moment, and then in a calmer tone I try again.

"No, we don't have to train right now. But we will later. Buffy wasn't a quitter and neither are you. Just humour me, ok? So, what movies have you got..." I stand up and make a move for the VCR.

[one_of_the_kind]

I twitch twice. First as he snaps at me and then at mention of Buffy's name. Somehow I think it burns him as much as it does to me. And he says I'm not a quitter, huh? Well, what then I am if I let my sister die for something I've done? I say it pretty much goes under the category 'quitter'...

"Right, lets train later." I repeat slowly not to get snapped again. I know I need to train. I know it will help me stay a live little longer... just sometimes I doubt I want to stay a live little longer or at all. But I can't tell that to Spike. He already feels bad. I wonder if he even would be here, if not that promise of taking care of me... but I don't ask. I won't. Instead I grin.

"Well, I got 'Lara Croft'! I haven't seen it, but Janice said it's cool." Yeah, about a fighter woman with big boobs... well, we have the fighting thing in common at least...

[buffys_bitch]

"Relax old man, me and the little bit were getting educated on stunt bike riding, rope work and how to use a body harness." I smirk at him, he really could use a good shag the way he was wound up these days. 'Course who can blame him for being a bit jittery, having lost his slayer and all.

"Trainings on the schedule, so chill. Take a seat, make some tea, whatever. And no I don't know what the other's are up to, not like it's anyone's birthday coming up is it?"

[lil_ripper]

"Not that I know of. Well, I hope it's not a spot of trouble. I suppose since you are here it's not that dire. The world can't be ending right this second." I removed my glasses and polished then agitatedly. I was a little put out that the others had not informed me that they had plans tonight, plans that did not involve me.

"Where's the buffy bot? Out patrolling?"

[one_of_the_kind]

"Hey! My birthday is coming up! Well, ok, it's in two months, but it's still closer than anyone's else!" Well, at least I think so... when is Spike's birthday? Must ask him some other time...

"Yeah, that stupid robot went out to slay something. Or that what it told me. Well, after it six times asked me if it can stay and 'play' with Spike." I make an 'eww' face and shake my head. "We seriously need to get Willow to do something to that bot, it's starting to freak me out..." The dumb thing is turning into Anya. How scary is that?!

[buffys_bitch]

"Willow said she was going to fix it. So it wouldn't...be like that." My voice trails off and I stare at my empty mug. Was my problem the fact that it wasn't her? Or the fact that I sometimes forgot it wasn't her?

"Guess something else came up, more important."