Research and Methods: A ( Read more... )

My neighbor called last night. Almost ironic isnt it? 6 times she called. Her number was erased from my phone so I didnt know it was her, so I called back to find out who was calling me at 3:30 in the morning. I got her answering machine, realized who it was and hung up. Within 5 minutes she called back. I was sitting at the diner at the bar with a ( Read more... )

She doesnt know it, but I think about how much ive let her down every day. We used to be inseperable and would always go crazy every time wed see each other, then I got lost in adolescence and IB...then before I knew it I was in college. Ive visited her once since Ive been here and I wish it could be more. I hate disappointing her by telling her Im ( Read more... )

Its been about a month. I should make it a monthly habit to write in this thing since its just sitting here getting no use. This is mostly going to be a random entry with minor updates on life. Why is it that distance is always a barrier in my relationships? I think God is trying to tell me something about love and distance but I dont know what it ( Read more... )

Wow. Whens the last time Ive used this thing? Like a kafillion months ago (thats a coined word by Dr. Isoma, which represents a number that excedes trillion). You heard me right: Dr. Isoma. Thats what Ive been calling myself lately. Sad thing is, pretty soon I have to actually start worrying about getting into a doctorate program to continue with ( Read more... )

Girls....who needs them

Sometimes I just want to come home after work and have someone to talk to. Its 3:45 am, everyones asleep and Im not waking anyone up just to talk. Talk about meaninglessness. About my ultimate desire to find what everyone else wants to find. Its self centered and just plain rude. Sometimes I want to understand. Understand what? How girls can be so ( Read more... )

Im trying to figure out whether Im actually happy or not and how long this confusing feeling is going to last. I think this goes along with the complexity of relationships, dating, and girls in general. Right now I just feel like using a quote from the wonderful Tom Delonge: "Girls are such a drag". And its true. I hate being caught off gaurd ( Read more... )

Its come to my attention that I write sappy and I read into things too much. I wonder if thats associated with the fact that I tend to over think and analyze everything. So I suppose ill keep this ambigously short and more "masculine"...? whatever. Went home this weekend. Had to clean garage/my room so someone else could live in it. Consequently I ( Read more... )

Strange subject, I know. Thats what ive been thinking about constantly and I dont know why. Almost scary. Weird I havent updated since the beginning of august and this is how i start this one out. Not depressed (although the thought of dying is depressing), just overthinking (what else is new?). I dont know why ive concentrated on death, but I have ( Read more... )