Hello my dearest voyeur, 
You'll find it easy to believe how much of a mess I am right now.
Typical fucking garble.
Seth's driving & I'm watching the fireworks emit lonliness;
as if some morbid fucking metaphor of where I am & where I want to be.
It's insane how fast things can go to shit.
& you never seem to notice until you look back on it.
Ahh, fuck. ( Read more... )

It's fucking goddamn Friday the 30th ( Read more... )

Went over to Jordy's last night after spending the entire day alone,
playing Super Mario & waiting for the plumber who never came.
I passed by a burning barn & drove for miles on gravel road before I got to his house. 
He took his mom's xanax, 
so I had to have a heart-to-heart bullshit talk with her to calm her down.
It worked & now she couldn't love ( Read more... )

I loathe Mondays.
The plumbing is still all fucked;
I have a full bladder & haven't showered in 4 days.
I'm sick & tired & have no place to go.
Clint & Sarah are moving out tomorrow..
So I'm stuck here in this shithole disguised as a house, that I'm not even suppose to be living in.
Travis called this morning, it was refreshing to wake up to his voice, 
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It's 3 O'clock; I'm at the laundry mat waiting for my clothes to finish drying.
Sarah's talking to a drunken Mexican, while I sit here anti-social & eat my Nacho Doritos.
He's wearing a plain white T-shirt a  few sizes too small with a big beer belly ,also equiped with  worn out blue jeans ripped at both of the knees, he's got a  long curly ponytail ( Read more... )

So I'm laying here in my filthy rat motel bed,
covered in bites & self-inflicted scars 
listening to sage & wishing I had some booze.
Rent is due in 6 days.
My car insurance in 14.
Our basement & bathroom are completely flooded.
rant rant;

Everytime I put you down ( Read more... )

Just suck it up, Baby
& paint on that pretty smile.
Pour yourself another 
& let all your troubles slip away,
Everythings going to be ALL Right.

Dry your eyes.

I really can NOT handle this shit, anymore ( Read more... )

I had quite the random Sunday-
redeeming cans illegally in Iowa,
arriving late to a family gathering, which was actually pretty decent;
lots of food, funny tan lines & a near death experience with a 4-wheeler.
From there I met up with Jade& Evan over at Steve's dorm.
beer. beer .liquor. drunken fools stumbling around the Old Market,
all equiped with ( Read more... )