you make a very interesting point in your entry that the passing of time has not made things easier, but rather more complex, painful and twisted up. i can definitely identify with this (even though, admittedly, i am one of those people who has said that 'it will get easier with time'). i have found that my continued journey through grief has exposed not only issues related to the loss of my father, but also related to my family system, upbringing and identity - many of which have been twisted, complex and painful.
in spite of all of this, i am thrilled to hear that so much else is going well for you. as always, you have written an articulate and insightful entry. whereas your intention in writing it was to regain a 'modicum of regularity', i see it as something extraordinary!
thank you so much for affirming what i have always felt. it is so comforting to know that i am not alone in feeling this complex system of emotions. they are unpredictable, manic, and cruel.
thank you for the compliments! in life, i always feel the requirement to couch my true feelings in comedy-if i am laughing, everyone will think i am alright. i am so thankful that with you, i can just be real. you don't judge my somewhat melodramatic prose! thank you, thank you, thank you. i hope i can only do half of what you have done for me for you!
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you make a very interesting point in your entry that the passing of time has not made things easier, but rather more complex, painful and twisted up. i can definitely identify with this (even though, admittedly, i am one of those people who has said that 'it will get easier with time'). i have found that my continued journey through grief has exposed not only issues related to the loss of my father, but also related to my family system, upbringing and identity - many of which have been twisted, complex and painful.
in spite of all of this, i am thrilled to hear that so much else is going well for you. as always, you have written an articulate and insightful entry. whereas your intention in writing it was to regain a 'modicum of regularity', i see it as something extraordinary!
love,
tricia
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thank you so much for affirming what i have always felt. it is so comforting to know that i am not alone in feeling this complex system of emotions. they are unpredictable, manic, and cruel.
thank you for the compliments! in life, i always feel the requirement to couch my true feelings in comedy-if i am laughing, everyone will think i am alright. i am so thankful that with you, i can just be real. you don't judge my somewhat melodramatic prose! thank you, thank you, thank you. i hope i can only do half of what you have done for me for you!
love,
amY
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