Failure. Failing at something I've put my whole heart and mind into. Failing at passion. And now that points have been presented on which I'll certainly find failure in myself at some time, I feel horrible. Hopeless.

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Okay, go me huh? Yea testerday at dinner I had a mental breakdown and started violently shaking the table and screaming. Well, then I ran up to my room and slept the reast of the night till 3:00 AM when I promptly woke up to do the homework for today. Well yea...I find out now my mom called a counselor so that I can talk to someone! Yea...I am def ( Read more... )

Why do people think it is O so Sweet for sisters to sing together. It's a FRESHMAN mass but since my sister is a freshamn and is doing the psalm it'd be too cute for us to do it together!
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Creativity has been so hard to come by lately. I feel parched, I'm starving, I'm empty, and I've never felt more stupid. I find myself sighing and dropping my head into my hands too much. I hate feeling useless and dried up. I wish I had the power to break this dam, but I don't feel like getting angry. I can't even cry, it would make me feel ( Read more... )

Wow...I finally feel like updating! I went to the Battle of the Bands at Walsh yesterday. Too cool! Okay it was great except for that one of the worst bands won just because they were all seniors who go to Walsh. They were nothing too special, not too interesting. It was upsetting they were like off-key and shit it was horrible, o and also i ( Read more... )

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I HATE RACISTS!!! AND I ALSO HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT RACIST, BUT TELL REALLY RACIST JOKES!!!! (i.e. - he who shall not have a name as of right now!) God he makes me soo SICK!!! My bad day ruined with his string of IM's containing one too many bad Michael Jackson jokes and WAYYY too many racist jokes! And then he had the gall to make fun of the ( Read more... )

I LOVE IMPROV CLUB!!! Dudes and i think i was actually funny this time! O man, be afraid of senior guys NO MORE!!! There are some AWESOME senior guys in improv club and they're hilarious! Haha, YOUR MOM!!! Dudes it was SUCH a GOOD day after improv club! Well, no, actually most of today was good! There was a school mass and i once again ( Read more... )

See, the irony of it all is that I no longer like him the way i used too. You know, in that obsessive Jr. High crush sort of way. Now it's more of just, he's another guy who I can talk with like everyone else and relate to now that we not only have 2 classes together BUT 4!!! Yes, I now have four classes with that guy and share one teacher ( Read more... )

O my, this is my first entry and I'm getting all jittery. Isn't this exciting. (Wow, 15 seconds into it and look how much sarcasm she's laying on already!) I don't really have very much to say, except that you must know 3 things about this journal and me: One, nothing I say can ever be taken too seriously, I have a habit of over-exaggerating and ( Read more... )