LOL.... in my case.... not much taller since in am barely over 5 feet tall. You are very kind. Old, cranky and crutier.... my Art says the same thing about his self. With folks like that..... when they laugh and smile...... it is like the sun suddenly came up from behind the clouds..... I bet that is the case with you!
I relate so much to what you just wrote. I lived for many years in what I describe as "looking at life from behind an acylic wall".... I had to embrace the pain full on much like "kissing an oncoming train". It altered my life drastically but in the end... the change was healthy and now instead of living safe behind the acrylic wall I am able to "live" my life. I have my good days and my really bad days and I still see images, hear sounds and even scents that trigger memories of my childhood but now I am able to cry then let it go.
So good to see you and again I have to say this..... looking at your icon.... you are gorgeous!! My husband can't get over how the image looks like me and of course more so as a little girl.... he has seen some photos of me as a child and the comparison is uncanny!
Thank you for posting these words, they have touched me and I will show them to my own love whom I know could relate to them.
Ah, so that's where's he's hiding. It's good to know that he still writes. I won't bother him, he knows where to find me if he wants to, regardless I still love the bastard ;-)
Iso, I have wanted to comment ever since I read this post, but I always feel like I cannot express the profound feelings it raises in me, so then I don't comment. I realized I had to write something, even if I can't find a way to express my deeper feelings of how this post resonated with me. I think it's because this post touches on something I experience a lot, but haven't found the means to express yet; the dual consciousness you speak of. I am often carrying the little girl around with me, and jumping back and forth through time, and thinking many of the same things you wrote above. You certainly put words to the phenomenon. I have been retracing a lot of the past me lately, perhaps trying to come to grips with the present me.
It is so good to see you again. It is incredible how events and images trigger memories and emotions within us. The expression on that little girls face, besides the likeness to me triggered all of what I wrote about. I could "feel" the expression and I know that more times then not..... I also wore that expression.
I am not surprised that you could relate. Thank you.
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I feel that you are complimenting me because she is the image of me.... like I had a twin but I did not know it.
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Me on the other hand, I was born old and cranky and I'm just getting crustier:D
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I relate so much to what you just wrote. I lived for many years in what I describe as "looking at life from behind an acylic wall".... I had to embrace the pain full on much like "kissing an oncoming train". It altered my life drastically but in the end... the change was healthy and now instead of living safe behind the acrylic wall I am able to "live" my life. I have my good days and my really bad days and I still see images, hear sounds and even scents that trigger memories of my childhood but now I am able to cry then let it go.
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I hope you're well. I'm so glad that you still post once in a while. *HUGS*
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So good to see you and again I have to say this..... looking at your icon.... you are gorgeous!! My husband can't get over how the image looks like me and of course more so as a little girl.... he has seen some photos of me as a child and the comparison is uncanny!
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Ah, so that's where's he's hiding. It's good to know that he still writes. I won't bother him, he knows where to find me if he wants to, regardless I still love the bastard ;-)
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I am glad my words may help or at least someone can relate to them. Oh yes my poetic/literary angel is still writing and hell a busy.
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& Yes, she does look quite like you!
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It is so good to see you again. It is incredible how events and images trigger memories and emotions within us. The expression on that little girls face, besides the likeness to me triggered all of what I wrote about. I could "feel" the expression and I know that more times then not..... I also wore that expression.
I am not surprised that you could relate. Thank you.
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