HAPPY SWEET 16!!!!  <333


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so uhm... this weekend.  bleh.  my mom was being a total bitch and made me cancel all of my plans with bdk.  fuckface.

anyways.  long overdue BDK pictures.  i love BDK.  like woah.


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i hate snow.  i really do.  especially when it never stops. and its time for spring.

today was good.  well... this afternoon was.

im so ready to crack.  i know theres gunna be a huge blowup soon and im so scared for it. it will mean i wont be able to do anything.

i was really happy to be with bdk today. it was time.  they gave me stuff :D thanks ( Read more... )

today has been a good day. last night i slep over alyshas with sarah. super fun! im sorry i was so tired though guys. and that i talk in my sleep haha. anyways, we had some intense root beer and mac n cheese. and sarah and i ate popcorn..alysha was too good for it. psh.

so today i had practice. it went well. i was in a really good mood. i danced ( Read more... )

ill be fine. i promise. moving on.

yea. i wasnt just feeling regretful for no reason this time. fuck.

i hate that i thought i could have something really awesome happen to me and keep it for a long time.
i hate that i moved so fast and thats probably where we went wrong.

i think i subconciously knew it was coming. i just didnt want to admit it.

even my mom cried.

i cant

i dont know what the hell is wrong with me. i had an awesome weekend and all of a sudden i want to cry.

im sorry i said those things. i really am. i dont know what the fuck is going on with me.

fuck moodiness.

i hate when i feel regretful and then find out that it wasnt a big deal... but still i feel like shit for it

Happy day of hearts!


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im sorry. i fucked up. please forgive me. im sorry.

i cant sleep. or eat.

im gunna die before friday