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[isthisliving]

this is really bothering me, and its not what I have been talking about lately.. its something just recently tearing at me. Im really set in being content anymore with anything and everything but in doing so I have prompted my absence in someways with others,.. and I really feel like Im slowly being pushed aside, and being replaced. Its really

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[rachels_scream]

Dearest Gavin, I’m proud of you for the fact that you are trying to be content. so many people wither away because they let their melancholy break them down. I know how you feel about being pushed out of people’s life’s and right now is when you feel you need them most, during change. I know there is this distance between us, but please don’t ever forget that I am here for you and that I care. I will always have an open mind with your situations. I promise.

xoxo

[isthisliving]

you are one of the sweetest girls I know, you have a heart thats so pure and you try so hard to be there for me.. and many times I feel like Im unable to deal with a situation or explain it to you.. Im sorry, and I hope to make it all hope to you someday

[rachels_scream]

You have nothing to make up to me. Just be my frined and try to explain things even when you think you cant.

xoxo

[isthisliving]

ok, that is a goal I can reach for I do believe hehe

nothing gold can stay

[emodreamkid]

gavin,

i don't know you but i'm going through exactly the same thing. you may not be in college yet but i've been discovering the feeling and emotions of being pushed aside by those you thought were true friends. people last for a season. at the beginning of a friendship, or during those monumental moments shared, life is heaven, it is amazing.

but then the wheel turns again. and you go through change (or your friends do). i believe these moments are those that count. what you do when you're uncertain or feeling left behind leads you into the next season. it's then that you find new gold, new life, love and friendship.

oh and something you wrote made me think of a song i think you'd love. download "The Tide" by 'the spill canvas.' i'm not sure if you've heard of them, but they're wonderful.

and i'm adding you.

Re: nothing gold can stay

[isthisliving]

haha actually although I out the streets as my music mood I was listening to the tide over and over up until I pulled up livejournal

[withdeadeyes]

someone told me this when i was in a similar situation as you:

"life is a roller coaster, but the hills shouldn't be too big."

this is something i always think about now on. you aren't always gonna be on the top of your game, but don't let the lows be rock bottom. now while you are at the peak, know that you will be coming down that way you are prepared to hit. i'm still at the peak, so i don't know what to say to deal with the way down...i'll let you know when i'm there. but i know i'm coming down soon and i'm trying to prepare for it.

much love bro.

[isthisliving]

I like that saying alot.

[staplehead4life]

I commend you for your humility in admitting that maybe you aren't stable enough to answer everyone else's problems and questions in life. No one is at times. But I am always amazed at how much wisdom you have when it comes to my situations. I love you so much Gavin your an awesome kid;)

[isthisliving]

Thanks Lisa, a compliment like that from you means so much and thank you for understanding. You're one of the greatest girls I know, thanks for everything you do.

[your_belle]

gavin. im actually doing the same thing.. where im letting love or "love" come to me.. im actually finding it alot better. and i know myself better.. hopefully i'll see you guys play on friday