The time has come...

[istilana]

The time has come to officaly start to weed out people from my life. Over this past weekend I realized my mother has done more harm than good in the last few years, but I realized I have some 'friends' who have added to that list.

So, starting today I am ending some of my oldest friendships. It sucks, some of them are an issue of noncommunication,

Comments

[blueyz72]

Completely understand and I've been doing a bit of that myself the last year of so(funny how some of those people haven't figured it out yet I no longer trust them at all and I might hang out if I see them but would NEVER want them discussing my life with anyone - because they don't have a clue what is up!)

The good thing, once the cleansing is done and the unhealthy relationships are put behind you it is amazing how peaceful things can be. I've actually started to try to get back in touch with old friends I used to hang out with 10yrs ago on normal basis and also have whole new set of friends from new job. It is good! Get rid of all the negative crap, you will be better for it :)

Family, that is not as easy but you CAN make up your mind where you stand on things and just keep it at that. Me, it's just not worth my health to let mom or my brother get to me anymore (of course not always so easy to remember when they are being jerks).

PS - you have mail coming your way!

[istilana]

I started this back in December and it links to the purging of possesions. Infact, I am going back and I might gather more up to get rid of as well.

Its strange how my phone went from 148 contacts to 87. Three of those numbers being resturants.

Also starting a food plan this weekend. I think this last round of depression is more related to all other issues coming to light and rather than duct taping them down, I am just trying to get them gone. Ironicly a 'diet' could be seen as a way of controling my self and being an issue that I have it could make some issues worse. But this MN winter weight just needs to go.

[permusicadastra]

I'm not a weed am I? I prefer to think of myself as a DELICATE FUCKIN FLOWAH!! ;)

[istilana]

And thats good, because you are a DELICATE FUCKIN' FLOWAH!!!!

I looked at how you view/deal with people and realized maybe there was something too it.. not so much killing the drama makers, cause they are mostly gone now, but just taking down the old growth so that maybe I can realize the awsome new friends I have.

Letting go to move on.

[permusicadastra]

It is a wise and refreshing thing to do. I have noticed that sometimes people don't leave your life though. I kind of cut a bunch of people out and they recently contacted me. Not that I'm actually bringing them back in. But they did get back in touch. So even though you want them to be out completely, sometimes they eek back in. But hopefully in a positive way. ;)

But yeah, a very very very healthy thing to do. Starting over is hard to do and re-evaluating your relationships is the hardest part. But you will feel better in the long run.

I'm trying to tell my mom to tell my psycho sister to do the same thing. But that is another story...

Glad to hear that you are on the road to happiness!!!

*smooches*

[boudiceatav]

umm...do I even need to request. You love me and you know it. Who else rubs your belly? DUH. ;)

[istilana]

Its not about requests, its not about who's who. If you would even think you need question this, maybe we need to do some talking.

This is about the people who are not around, who I have more conversations with voice mail than I do text messages. This is about people who say one thing and need another. Its letting the people who have been in my life who need to move on the abilty to move on.

Its just about letting go. You know where life is at for me more than most. This is part of the fact I looked at my friends and realize, people like you whom I have known a short amount of time in comparison have had more direct impact and infulence in my life.

You are someone who I can count on, you are someone who's advice I trust and take to heart. And I feel that that is recpriocated.

[boudiceatav]

Just wanted you to smile that is all. I understood the reasoning behind your post we have talked about it many times. I didn't mean to make light of it. And yes it is reciprocated. :)

[hatefulblizzard]

You are much more than a novelty

[istilana]

So your saying I am a passing fad?

Thanks, that almost made me cry a little.

And dude, when are you having sushi out here? Really come one I am dying for a sushi buddy.

[hatefulblizzard]

Actually, I just had sushi a few minutes ago. If you ever come back here, or if I go out there we will have to share some sushi and sake!

[chalkhorsegirl]

Please don't weed me out! And you are dramatic, in a good way.

Cheers, and ggod luck.
CHG

[istilana]

At least you can say that life around me is never dull!

Thanks