I'm on the wrong side of the see-saw..
The value of life is measured by death...
Three of my fellow friend/relatives passed away so far this year...
and they probably realised this on their deathbeds, but I'm still gonna say it anyway.
Life is fragile, cherish it. #clichemuch.
Took an hour off work and looked back at what I've done so far in my life, and you know what, I haven't done anything (much) I'm proud of. Okay, I did SOMETHING. I got into college like my mom told me to, and that's about it.
I mean...
I've drifted so far from my family and friends during my time in college.
Haven't served the community since 23213123 years.
Haven't been a filial granddaughter/ daughter.
Haven't done anything fruitful except schoolwork.
Haven't been saving (architectural models costs $$$$$/$)
Haven't been sleeping,
Haven't.. haven't...
Once again it hit me again, I'm not sure if this is all worth it - allowing school to take control of my entire life.
I need a change in lifestyle.
Doesn't help that I've been pretty pessimistic these days.. I guess I lost my positive energy along the way.
I need to find my merry heart back. I need MOTIVATION. I need to start listening to myself and know what I really want in life. gosh.
#pessimismkickinginagain.
This is a war we all need to fight, a war against excessive workload, a fight to win a balanced, happy life. I hope I don't end up slogging my entire life away in the office and lead a meaningless life.
heh.
No idea if I'm making sense at all..it's almost 2am in the morning and I've got midterms in a few hours' time, followed by 3 more sleepless nights in school. (so much for wanting a change.ha.)
Cheers to a HAPPY LIFE.
Here's a quote to start me off...
Smooth seas do not make skillful sailors.
So let's embrace the bumpy ride and make the best out of it :)