Ok honesty. Well honest thing #1 I seem to have lost my libido. I'm usually a pretty sexually ravenous person but I realized last night (after realizing I didn't want to have sex) that I haven't wanted/needed sex in more than a month.

That is entirely not normal for me. Even when I was wacked out on 100 calories a day, speed, coffee and no sleep I ( Read more... )

So crises over. Mike is home and we have a home so on that front all is well ( Read more... )

So I stay up all night because my significant other spent more than an hour freaking out on me last night. He needs smokes, he needs a ferry ticket, I have to come today because all this shit is happening ( Read more... )

So yeah. Not doing so well ( Read more... )

I have stolen this from a journal I enjoy reading mainly because the question struck me in a very visceral way ( Read more... )

So I cried. It didn't help. Made my throat hurt ( Read more... )

No matter what I do it winds up fucked up. We are effectively homeless as of 12 hours or so from now. I'm still not finished packing and my back hurts so bad I puked twice.

Nothing is ever ok. I knew that before and don't see how I could've thought any differently now.

Though this body I inhabit seems to be slowing my mind is racing. I've been scribbling thoughts here and there all day. Multiplicity, a story about an insane empath, bud flittering about our hair, the housing situation. What I will do if in fact this body is as sick as it feels. So a begining yes. I have some order in the chaos that some ( Read more... )

I've been told to be honest. Fine ( Read more... )

So I'm tense right?  Here's the rundown on what has actually happened.  Just March I'll skip the rest of the bullshit.

So in March the management company of my apartment building decides I owe them 1500 dollars and we should be evicted.  I go to court once, get it continued.  Then that same week I took Mike back to the emergency room...

( This is going to get very graphic and gross. You've been warned )