Somedays I feel like the old me again, the girl who actually knew who she was and what she was doing with herself. Other days I feel like I'm faking it. All of it. And that's the majority,not knowing anymore. It pretty much sucks. I'm out working with so many people I love but I'm still not happy. I'm with a guy I care more about than any other guy ( Read more... )

Sunday night we were on a bus from Bossier City, Louisiana on the way to Texas. I look out the window and saw my reflection. I had this realization that I'm not sure who I am anymore. I dont think I've been sure since the day I left everyone and everything I knew and loved. I dont know how I'm gonna make it until April-May. I know I have to though ( Read more... )

Tours cool but in all actuality home is way cooler.

p.s. Fuck Canada!
xoxo
April Lorraine

I don't get denied and I think in some way I did get denied tonight. Maybe I'm a spoiled brat but I dont care. I know what I want and if I dont get it I give up. yup thats me. Fuck you.
xoxo
April Lorraine

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So...I never update the lj anymore. Maybe I should start since I wont the whole time I'm gone. I leave in a little less than 2 weeks for Disney On Ice. My job that I love. And one of my very best friends is going with me so thats pretty sweet too. I'll be gone until Christmas time then I'll be gone until Feb, then I'll be back in May. I probly wont ( Read more... )

Fuck all this shit. I really just want to sleep my life away until i leave. fuck you and you crew.

p.s. it's over. realize it. seriously, let's not be a bitch about the situation.

edit: I was drunk when I wrote this...not really sure what I was thinking.

This is by far my favorite.


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So. . . I'm pretty much confused as fuck. I was finally starting to get over him and then he has to call me out of no where. Yes, he was drunk but that's besides the point. Then I talked to him again tonight. I wish he wouldn't have gave up on us. It wouldn't have been that much longer until he came home but I guess he just couldn't hack it. So now ( Read more... )

Once again I haven't updated in forever. Im just not that fond of livejournal anymore. I go back and look at most of my entries and think to myself "why the hell did i type that". So I probly just won't write in here much ever again. Anyway...I guess I can tell you what's been gonig on with me ( Read more... )