Why did forever have to end so soon?
So... tonight (technically this morning) I threw myself a little pity party. I thought I'd spare all you the pathetic lines so I put it in an LJ cut...
If you really want to read my sad and depressing blog,
I don't understand, I don't comprehend...
How can you
Hold me in your arms every night,
Touch me like that,
Tell me your thoughts,
But still keep her in your wallet? In your #1 spot? In your heart?
Can't you see me tremble with each touch?
Can't you see it's killing me?
Can't you see I just want your love?
Can't you feel my longing to be yours?
I feel pathetic - like a old toy, sitting on the shelf, just wishing she was loved.
I feel used - like a tissue; soggy with tears and on the verge of being thrown out.
I feel afraid - like a granade, hoping to God it's pin will not leave.
I feel imperfect - like the leaky measuring cup who never quite measures up.
I want you to question yourself like I question myself now.
I want you to understand how I feel, how badly it hurts.
I want you to wipe away my tears.
I want you to be the one who I can run to.
I try to stay away, but I can't.
I try to be strong, but I'm not.
I try to pretend I don't love you, but I do.
I try not to cry, but the tears just fall.
You hug me.
You hold me.
You melt my heart again.
Then You bring her up and I die a little.
Not just because I'm insanely jealous that someone could just pop into your life and completely steal my everything.
Not just because I know I'll never be as beautiful as she is.
Not just because I can never measure up.
Not just because I know exactly how you feel.
Because I love you.
Because I've always loved you.
Because you told me that you would love me forever.
Because forever ended before I even turned 21.
Why did forever have to end so soon?
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If you really want to read my sad and depressing blog,
I don't understand, I don't comprehend...
How can you
Hold me in your arms every night,
Touch me like that,
Tell me your thoughts,
But still keep her in your wallet? In your #1 spot? In your heart?
Can't you see me tremble with each touch?
Can't you see it's killing me?
Can't you see I just want your love?
Can't you feel my longing to be yours?
I feel pathetic - like a old toy, sitting on the shelf, just wishing she was loved.
I feel used - like a tissue; soggy with tears and on the verge of being thrown out.
I feel afraid - like a granade, hoping to God it's pin will not leave.
I feel imperfect - like the leaky measuring cup who never quite measures up.
I want you to question yourself like I question myself now.
I want you to understand how I feel, how badly it hurts.
I want you to wipe away my tears.
I want you to be the one who I can run to.
I try to stay away, but I can't.
I try to be strong, but I'm not.
I try to pretend I don't love you, but I do.
I try not to cry, but the tears just fall.
You hug me.
You hold me.
You melt my heart again.
Then You bring her up and I die a little.
Not just because I'm insanely jealous that someone could just pop into your life and completely steal my everything.
Not just because I know I'll never be as beautiful as she is.
Not just because I can never measure up.
Not just because I know exactly how you feel.
Because I love you.
Because I've always loved you.
Because you told me that you would love me forever.
Because forever ended before I even turned 21.
Why did forever have to end so soon?
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