as loud as lions (1/3). harry/louis, pg-13.

[likecharity]

Title: as loud as lions
Author: likecharity
Pairing: Harry/Louis
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: References to homophobia and gay slurs
Summary: Every few seconds there's a blinding camera flash, and it's overwhelming even for Harry so he can't imagine how Louis feels. All he can do is hold his hand, tight, like they've never been allowed to in public

Comments

[astreindre]

FIRST COMMENT IS BELONG TO ME MUAHAHAHAHA. I'm going to leave you comments flailing about all the parts I loved on each part, and you can't stop me.

(Also you're fantastic and awesome and I did not deserve that dedication, asdfghjkl.)

[likecharity]

♥♥♥ SHUT UP YOU'RE THE BEST

And omg I'd forgotten that I had to crosspost at my LJ as well, hahaha. Like, this was the most complicated thing to post EVER.

[astreindre]

Finally Zayn turns up, and now that all five of them are here the atmosphere feels a little less tense. They tease him about the fact that he's got his shirt on inside out and still looks like he's half-asleep, and he settles down beside Harry and Louis and says flatly, "What've you done this time, got caught shagging in a park?"

OH ZAYN. IF ONLY YOU KNEW. I love this, how even though everything is tense they're all still making jokes and laughing at each other.

He puts a comforting hand on Harry's shoulder, and Harry's heart aches. "I don't wanna talk about that part," he says. "Can we-can we just keep daydreaming?"

When I first read this line, my heart ached. Just -- ugh. I can't be coherent about it. Niall is so great, and Harry is so hurt, and it breaks my heeeeeeart

[likecharity]

YOUUU ARE THE GREATEST OMG THANK YOU FOR THIS. ♥

I'm really glad you liked that they were still kidding around in that first bit because I initially wrote it SUPER TENSE and it just seemed off, somehow? Because I thought, well, they don't even KNOW what's going to happen, and I feel like even if they're nervous, if they're all TOGETHER that feeling probably kind of dissipates.

IT WAS SO HARD NOT TO JUST MAKE ALL THE MANAGEMENT PEOPLE HORRIBLE. But I feel like most of them probably kind of are. And ugh I hate writing original characters in fic, like, even if they're barely in it, I always just feel awkward about it, so I'm glad that didn't really come across, haha.

The taking away the laptops and phones thing was your idea, right?? IT WAS SUCH A GOOD IDEA, THANK YOU FOR THAT. I'm glad you liked the way I wrote it. ♥

[cassiehayes]

oh my god oh my god I haven't read this yet but I've been hoping you would write the coming out fic and I've been wanting someone to write detailed coming out fic for ages and I'm about to read this now and wow you are amazing ok just wanted to tell you that :)

[likecharity]

It always makes me nervous when people comment before reading, omg, I hope it doesn't let you down!! *waits nervously*

[cassiehayes]

Wow wow wow okay my god, this is incredible and a million kinds of painful and good all at once? Like, I love Harry so much in this, I love him wanting to be honest and never denying and just not able to belittle their relationship. And with the girls and the "don't say that ever again" ugh, god, perfect bit is perfect. But LOUIS too, I love fic where you can kinda ache for both of them if that makes sense, and it's so true here, because it's terrifying in his position, to have Harry just say that out of the blue when it affects more than just himself. God, this is wonderful and hurting so much too and wow okay off to continue reading now

[likecharity]

Aaaaahhh thank you, I'm so relieved that you like it when it's an idea you've been wanting to read for ages. ♥ And I'm really glad that you're sympathising with both of them, because I was worried there might be a bit too much focus on Louis's feelings and that Harry might come off badly for the way he handled that first interview. But it's really important to me that it's clear how much they're BOTH hurting because of it, so yes, yay, thank you so much. ♥

[tearpath]

YAY IT'S HERE AND LONG AND WILL SURELY MAKE A HUGE SOBBING MESS OF ME AND I AM ON PHONE ATM BUT IDC I JUST FANGIRLED A LITTLE TO MY MUM I'M READING IT ANYWAY. ALSO FUCK IT COMES WITH READ ALL ABOUT IT. HOLD MY TEARS.
okay honestly who expected any coherency from me? I'll go read it now.

[likecharity]

Hahaha aww I hope you enjoy it!! *crosses fingers*

[tearpath]

I hope it's the right place to post this comment, because oh, everything is so well-placed and perfect, so as the fanmix which I just checked cause I couldn't do it last night because of the ridiculously weak wifi connection and even the freaking battery started dying and it was like everything is against me and no don't read it, because it will tear you apart BUT I STRUGGLED AND READ IT. Huh okay.

It was far beyond my expectations which is crazy, cause I obviously expected something huge and honest and beautiful, but... oh god. I thought I would cry on it and the next week I would haunt the house with a little, disbelieving smile on my face; puffy, moony eyes and all the feelings. Lol NO.
It was like a flood, it went through me, grabbed my heart and poured into my stomach like acid. I felt like throwing up through part one and two, just imagining Louis' nervousness and the coming out itself. It was scary when Harry said those lines, which I never thought it would be. And then the crowd outside, I felt so terribly frightened, which

[tearpath]

(okay, part two. I don't think I have ever written such a long comment D:)

And when Harry left, it was like a relief and it was even worse. (This fic is so fucking full of contrasts I just can't-) I kept seeing Lou on that couch with that hopleless face we have actually never seen, though it looks so easy to look behind the joking mask. And dear god, Liam. Liam Payne, you beautiful creature. I don't think I can love you more than this. (Shit, not that song again. Noooo what are you DOING, brain?!)

I feel like I should mention the part where Louis lives without Harry, but I'm too afraid to write all the novel that wanders through my head and I think you've probably stopped reading this thing already, so. I missed Harry. I missed Lou missing Harry, too. Two things that really basically stabbed me

[likecharity]

I had to! I get so angry and upset when I see people using that term as if it's endearing. I really doubt either of them would appreciate it and I can definitely see Harry standing up to someone saying it, as well. I'm glad you appreciated that. ♥

[the_crazy_freak]

Oh my god, this is only the first third of it and it's already so perfect and making me feel for all of them so much and asdfghjkl!!! D:

Urgh, it's too perfect to even begin to describe, seriously. It's everything I've ever imagined in a coming out fic and more. Flawless writing. ;__

[likecharity]

Thank you so so much!

I put a LOT of thought into the dialogue in the BBC Breakfast interview, I kept imagining each of their voices with each line and if it didn't work I changed it, so I'm really glad you appreciated that. It was just really important that that scene was easy to imagine, because I wanted it to seem realistic.

I felt so MEAN for having Liam be the one to get his phone hacked oh my god. The idea just came to me and I was like NO I CAN'T DO THAT but then I sort of had to, because it just added an extra layer to everything.

I'm glad you liked the original characters too, I generally try to avoid writing them because I feel awkward about it but it kinda had to be done with this! And yeah, I didn't want them just to come across 100% evil, just kind of - bad at their jobs.

I'm really glad you like this so far. ♥