Ahh, the Holidays once again fester in our hearts an odd sense of apprehension. It is something almost palpable in the air, a sent not consciously smelled. The annoying Christmas carols ringing in our ears as we exit stores and head back into the open air. The ones you only pretend to hate but in your heart of hearts you love them. Now, be you a ( Read more... )

Oh, again it has happend. The ugly face of depression has surfaced onto me, overtaking me and dragging me down into a pool of utter despair. Im not even being overly dramatic this time either. It feels as if my chest is tied tightly with rope and is getting tighter and tighter. I need something to pull me out...before I drown in my unshed tears. ( Read more... )

Have you ever read, seen, or heard something that, you immedietly wish you could erase it from your mind? Im sure you have. Well once again I have stumbled upon this. You see, my morbid side of me compelled me to read about serial killers, Why? I don't know but I started reading about this murdering married couple. It was called the "Barbi and Ken ( Read more... )

I Miss Matthew.

Chew-Bigitty-Bang-Bang. Yeah, im that cool. So, I am once again babysitting my nephew Shawn, which I dont mind because I love the little bugger and he is a outright riot. Not to mention Nicole is here so I have some company. So I have come to the conclusion that Heath Ledger is hot and so is my boyfriend. What a wonderful life I lead. I do have my ( Read more... )

Hello fellow LJ'ers! I am in a seemingly better disposition today (probably the sleep).Just hanging at my older brothers house, watching sweet sixteen, those ungratful spoiled bitches. jealousy, I think so BUT none the less jealously aside, they really are spoiled. So, I am missing Matthew. We havnt talked much latley but thats no fault of his, I ( Read more... )

So it is 7:01 Am and I have yet to sleep. Wow, suprising. So guess who has a new boyfriend my faithfl invsiable readers...I DO! Thats who! Matthew <3 He is such an amazing man. I love everything about him and I am glad he can tolerate me, much less like my ass. Oh, today some fucktard kept booting me on yahoo, frinken I was not in the mood for ( Read more... )

Ok, so I started another story, this is all I have so far. Tell me whatcha think ( Read more... )

Hello my very few Lovies that read my post's. I am back to drovvle on about a bunch of nothing, how very exciting, no? Well, my butt hurts because this damn chair is a piece of bitch -swats- You good for nothing Cunt chair...-mumbles on- ANYWAYS....I went to the tanner today, to no gosh darn avail, I am still white as a snow, if not whiter. Beh Beh ( Read more... )

-Sighs- Back in the good 'ol MI, visiting the best friend and family. I am thus so far having lots of fun even though my friend is currently having major issues, I just only hope I can help. It has been raining since yesterday and thunder storming like mad, I LOVE IT! I go home in a mere 2 weeks but I have already been here about 2 so I suppose ( Read more... )