my whole life is a fucking joke ( Read more... )

then I was delusional
and missed you like fucking crazy,
but you didn't seem to care
or notice.

I guess that's just how this wheel is going to turn;
it'd be nice if each movement wouldn't make me so sick, sad, and hopelessly nostalgic.

maybe it’s something in the grey. so perhaps I’ll just pin you down in a photograph, the lens let’s me see better that way.

and Im not ready for that sort of thing because I’ve done this before.    I’ve learned to retreat at the first sign of danger because the feelings change so fast.

and so do I. this time I’m not going to apologize because all ( Read more... )

fucking Boris is sickly so I ain't go shit.
shit...I ain't go it, man.

I wish I could scan these bad ass pictures because they are so myspace worthy.
oh dear lord.

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you took off your clothes and left on the light you stood there so brave you used to be shy each feature improved each movement refined and eyes like a ( Read more... )

yeah, well I'm in fucking love.

everything. everything. everything. ev-er-y-thing.

I know how, but I don't know when and I guess I don't know why, but it's here. it is finally here. and everything is as it was supposed to be. for always. and I actually believe it.

I don't care. I really don't. not about anything anymore except of course...

each day ( Read more... )

so this is me being entirely FUCKED.

mi madre got a phone bill of $514 all because we live in the sticks and the dial-up I had fucked me royally. now I must pay her on hannaford wages which all in all will take me about fourteen years. yes. I am overwhelmed with joy, really.

also, my fucking loans are catching up to my dead beat ass.

another hooray ( Read more... )

get out of my head. you're an impossible, intangible cliche. and if I could erase whatever these comings and goings were from the arc of time--I would.

I do not even know you, and I probably never will.  and all in all, that will have to be ok.

but enough with the doubled-up meaning and the insecurities these dreams--no, no--nightmares have ( Read more... )

baby, I'm writing this to you. maybe just this once you'll understand exactly where I'm coming from--but promise, I won't hold my breath ( Read more... )

1...2....3....6....12....16.......17...18....

fucking 20!

seriously, now.

take a fucking look.

this is my goddamn life...

now that I've got my addiction covered,
in more ways than one...
my bones feel so old,
and my insides are demolished,
but everything is so beautifully imperfect.
and this season is unannounced
and claims its place through dead flowers and sleepless nights
overruled by simplicity in dreams
and desperate hopes for tomorrow,
the only thing to question now are ( Read more... )