So I hypervenalated last night. Or early this morning I should say. I also did last weekend. Only this time there wasn't anyone to not notice me, except for Oliver. But what would he do anyway?

It smells a little bit like cigarettes ( Read more... )

So I'm driving home on my first break and as I turn onto my street right by the lot with horses and what were cows, I see a man standing by a trailor holding up the back end of a cow and exposing it's inner thighs. I was completely grossed out, but figured that was the point where they'd all off the dead cows. But I head back to school and had just ( Read more... )

Actually I don't need an apology. I deserve every bit of bad words that come my way.

And half the time I'll swallow my pride just to make the sun seem shinier.

The entire world is offensive, as are 3/4 of the words that come out of my mouth, and 1/8 of yours.

I may not use my entire brain sometimes, but at least I have some will.

I feel like I need to shower this morning.. because I haven't yet. But I only have a class today so I'm gonna come home and nap and then shower after my class. I have to finish my in-class essay. I'm contrasting Carlie and Whitney in it, actually. I had a super long dream last night. It probably lasted most of the night, really. I don't remember ( Read more... )

I miss my Shawn.

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I feel like I'm slowly fading. But is it from reality, or has this in fact been a dream? It's like little plays throughout time- tiny hints thrown at me like darts. A million ways to apologize wasn't good enough, and the effort didn't seem like much. Laying on smoldering hot coals I wonder do you ever feel alone? If it came down to it, would you ( Read more... )

For days and weeks I've remained detached from reality. I chose to not pay attention to life as we know it. I chose to float on cloud nine and shut my eyes because it was supposed to be okay. I did make steps to further destroy myself and the things that I love. Oh my prized one most. There was a past to me where I was alone. There was a past to me ( Read more... )

I'm behind the times, yet I don't want to be trendy. Everything I listen to or like is still the same but you've all developed more (music, tv, movies, etc.). I know nothing. Nothing is "in". Why should I stay in this place? You've got things to say to everyone but me. I've got no money and I'm cold- seriously freezing all the time. I'm all alone ( Read more... )