I'm gonna start posting again!!!! YAY!... I PROMISE... starting tomorrow ;) I'm too tired now eek hehehe. love you all.

So...I babysit for a living right...well with the change of semesters etc (fall semester, spring semester, summer break) I seem to have a new schedule and new people to babysit for. I have a love/hate relationship with that b/c it's nice to be with different kids so I don't get sick of them but then every once in awhile I really fall in love with a ( Read more... )

It has been sooooo long since I have written in here...my apologies!!!

In the past month or so...

• we celebrated christmas which was kind of bittersweet for me. I, for the past 3 years, have done 98% of all the christmas shopping...including my own gifts from my parents. It's just hard b/c of things with my mom and of course my dad works 60-70 hours ( Read more... )

I WILL update in the next few days for real... but in the meantime ( Read more... )

I really cant believe I was so stupid as to think that my year "off" of school would be less stressful. I am constantly sick b/c I am so stressed...I have trouble sleeping and I'm constantly tired...ugh. I take the GRE in 2 weeks...less than that. I'm SO screwed. On top of that I have to finish my applications and of course, like the past two years ( Read more... )

I seriously think I have a sleeping problem...no matter how much or how little I sleep, I am ALWAYS tired. Even though most days I wake up before 8am, I cannot help but sleep until 1 or 2pm on days I don't have to work. What is wrong with me?! Why is it that everyone else in the world can create normal sleeping patterns but I'm stuck being ( Read more... )

tomorrow i am getting a massage at 9am and then im going to get a new laptop.....yay ( Read more... )

These past two weeks have been a total blur and I'm sorry to admit that I've been totally cranky and a borderline bitch. I have snapped at so many of my good friends, not to mention my family, that I'm beginning to think I need to do a personality overhaul or something. A few weeks ago my dad told me that I'm a hard person to deal with b/c even ( Read more... )

I know that what I'm doing now is just a means to an end... but I'm feeling really, truly inadequate for the first time in my life. I'm having the hardest time feeling "okay" with the fact that I'm JUST applying to grad school right now....that I'm nannying 40 hours a week and only applying to grad school. Like I said, I know it's a means to an end ( Read more... )

The last time I wrote i mentioned that Matt and I had gotten in a big fight b/c he lied about something. Well, long story short, that day I found out he had been dating another girl for a month. He and I were BARELY speaking to each other at the time but I had def asked him several times during that month if he was dating anyone and he said no. In ( Read more... )