More often than not I think about the kill switch.
Holding everything in does get to you, eventually. A person can only take so much before they break down. I know, I've been on the very edge.
My job keeps me away from all of the people I keep close. I live halfway around the world from my family and close friends. Sometimes I'm lucky if I get to even speak to a few of them over the phone once a month. I haven't even seen any of them in about two years now.
Sometimes I can't help but to think that God hates me because of all the bad things that seem to happen to me. It always seems that I get worst of everything. Can't ever have anything good without a lot of bad happening to counteract it.
The only things that keep me going are my own stubborn pride and my hope that, someday, things will be better.
So, just hang in there. It might not get better today, tomorrow, or even next week, but it will. It has to.
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More often than not I think about the kill switch.
Holding everything in does get to you, eventually. A person can only take so much before they break down. I know, I've been on the very edge.
My job keeps me away from all of the people I keep close. I live halfway around the world from my family and close friends. Sometimes I'm lucky if I get to even speak to a few of them over the phone once a month. I haven't even seen any of them in about two years now.
Sometimes I can't help but to think that God hates me because of all the bad things that seem to happen to me. It always seems that I get worst of everything. Can't ever have anything good without a lot of bad happening to counteract it.
The only things that keep me going are my own stubborn pride and my hope that, someday, things will be better.
So, just hang in there. It might not get better today, tomorrow, or even next week, but it will. It has to.
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I sure hope so!
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