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Wow, I realized that I just lurk on livejournal and dont write, but thats because I've started an actual physical journal, and I love it.
Today was the happiest day I have felt all year. I just pretty much loved everyone including myself today. I think I've been just completely fucking distracting myself for such a long time into thinking that I wanted to be in love. Right now I'm just ecstatic to be happy, and as cliched as it sounds today was really the first day I've ever felt just totally happy with me as who I am.
Sure, it was the weather that really put me in that mood, but I dont know, I just really needed to unwind. My parents were away for four days which was pretty incredible. Thursday and Friday night I stayed at my grandma's apartment, she lives in one of the enormous eyesores on the top of Montclair. Montclair is a ridge called First mountain because it is the first mountain after the hudson baisin, and so the ridge has one of the best views of manhattan in the world. On Friday night and Saturday night I snuck onto the top of the building (12 floors!) and watched the sun set/rise on manhattan, it was so beautiful. Funny how something manmade and an abomination to nature can be beautiful at the same time. Last night was crazy, some party in West Orange. Today was Alex's birthday, fun sem-surprise party.
So yeah, pretty much thats me right now. Have fun kids.
Today was the happiest day I have felt all year. I just pretty much loved everyone including myself today. I think I've been just completely fucking distracting myself for such a long time into thinking that I wanted to be in love. Right now I'm just ecstatic to be happy, and as cliched as it sounds today was really the first day I've ever felt just totally happy with me as who I am.
Sure, it was the weather that really put me in that mood, but I dont know, I just really needed to unwind. My parents were away for four days which was pretty incredible. Thursday and Friday night I stayed at my grandma's apartment, she lives in one of the enormous eyesores on the top of Montclair. Montclair is a ridge called First mountain because it is the first mountain after the hudson baisin, and so the ridge has one of the best views of manhattan in the world. On Friday night and Saturday night I snuck onto the top of the building (12 floors!) and watched the sun set/rise on manhattan, it was so beautiful. Funny how something manmade and an abomination to nature can be beautiful at the same time. Last night was crazy, some party in West Orange. Today was Alex's birthday, fun sem-surprise party.
So yeah, pretty much thats me right now. Have fun kids.