last night was what i needed, a night out, ugh this whole week sucked and last night did me in, now today i am resting, then goign to work at 5 then going to sams house around 1145 in which we will i believe stay in and stay up late, i need thast to just have a sleep over wiht someone i can just sit down and tlak to about everything. this weekend ( Read more... )

everyone tells me he treats me like shit, why do i try so hard to get him, why do i still want him, why do i still let him make me cry? he went out of town, just got off of the phone with him, i call for a nice conversation about the last few days and end up in tears on the bedroom floor wondering what life is worth.....he got his two day break and ( Read more... )

we are one a two day break.....how can you have a break when you have been broken up for over a month? i dont want to ask anymore, just sit bakc and pretend not to care ( Read more... )

dont want it dont want it dont want it anymore.....and when the answer that you want isnt the question you said..come what may... .fuck why do u lie to myself? will someone answer that? i hate it am i lying to myself...oh well who cares anymore i really dont. i am glad to hear about krista and sarah quitting, i did it i know they can and it makes ( Read more... )

this mornign was the best mornign ever...woke up[ at 130 am....fuckign stayed up talking on the phone with a special someone and then at 6am drove down to bonita to pick someone up and watched sunrise with him as we talked and relaxed....why is it that he makes me feel so good about myself and about life, why is it that right when we say goodbye i ( Read more... )

just got back from Sarasota, i went to ahsleys dads house! We had like the best time, it really made me hate ft myers though. I realized i can have fun with all of the drama and all of the bullshit attached. SO no more drama here on out i am sick of being lied to and fuck it whoever brings me down is just gone form now on tomorrow will start the ( Read more... )

fuck me over and over again. i feel lost and confused. blackouts when did they start happeneing, i mean i never even thought i had a problem and now i am blacking out, fainting, when did eating become a probelm? i am so happy right now i feel like life is comign together and i dont know i finally started going out having fun really enjoying myself ( Read more... )

Kristen's birthday is tomorrow...Happy Birthday Kris! Hugs not drugs...i think of you ( Read more... )

how can a night so frozen be so scolding hot.....how can a morning this mild be so raw ( Read more... )

hes moving he is really going to move. i don't know why, i sit and beg for him not to leave et all he can say is "we will stay together and i can promise i will hurry back".....yea wha in 3 years? i couldn't even last 10 days without him, now a move not a visit is falling upon me and i hate it i dont want to be without him, but swear to god i will ( Read more... )