~Big Post~

[iwishicudsmile]

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[all_faith_waits]

shit babe it has been a long time since you posted and yes i think your weekend sounded like a ball! except for the red parts!! i too had a big weekend it was my 19th on sat so me and my bestie went out for breakfast (i'm talking yogurt and fruit at her mums posh ass restaurant) my bestie is similar to me in the ana fact. thats how we met Anyways then we went for a walk through the national park EXCERCISE yay! then got our hair and nails done and got so pissed on gin and sprite zero at 2 and continued through the nite caught a cab to Koala bar and danced all those cals off, hottest guy eva i met he was that good and i hooked up wit him (birthday kisses) OOoo then we stumbled home at 3 in the morn and stayed up til 5 talking about the funny bits haha best birthday eva, then today i woke up at 10 and went for a nother walk through the nationals and then had to work HMMMPPHHH lol it wasn't too bad though it was good they all knew it was my birthday so i didn't do anything plus its double time and a half for the day so i can handle that,

[iwishicudsmile]

~Happy Birthday Princess~
Sounds like u had so much fun!
oi, dont worry bout the choc, its ur birthday after all! ha yeah i had a blast!
I loove drinking, if only it didnt have so many calories =[
love u princess & have the BEST birthday eva xoxox Joya

[all_faith_waits]

hey babe, THank you for my birthday wishes *mwa* it was a rad nite and apart from the choc i have no regrets hahah i swear i have "pls give me choc for my birthday written on my forehead", i got that many boxes of choc for my birthday it sucks, although i sold them to my bro for a small price hahah! so hows things?? i hope everythings great, anyway i have msn now so its lozzaheathcote@hotmail.com FINALLY i now have a life away from the post rooms don't get me wrong i luv L.J after all he is my man lol :) ooOo yeh have u seen mk's new squeeze and how shes put on some weight, i'm glad shes happier now though u can see it in her eyes and she looks great too (she'd be hot even if she was fat) lol luv u babe xoxox laura

[iwishicudsmile]

No prbs baby!
Haha yeah i c the sign on ur head "Give me UR Chocolate now"
Yeah Mk looks so much more happier! But i hope she doesnt get 2 overbored! She dyed her hair back 2 sandy blonde!!! Awsome, i added u on msn just yesterday =]
Im got the flu & im going 2 hospital again soon coz i cant stop chucking up =[... well love u & ttu 2 xoxox

[defy_gravity86]

I think it sounds like an ok weekend. If you have more blue than red font, I say it went well :p Question, in your user info it says you came out of treatment and you started starving yourself again. I'm currently in day-treatment and I might be getting out soon (not sooo soon though) and I was wondering a few things:

1) How exactly are you hiding this from people since they probably had a close eye on you right out of treatment?

2)What's the best way to get back into the swing of things, restrict hard core and fast right when you get out or slowly eliminate things so your body gets use to it and it might be a little less obvious to people?

3) If people have found out what your doing since you've been out of treatment, how have you made it so you haven't had to go right back to treatment?

4) What are your stats? :)

I hope this isn't too much to ask. I just kind of need some guidence. Much appreciated!
Stay Strong girl.
<3Kayla

[iwishicudsmile]

hey babe, yeah ill answer ur Q's...
1)Well in treatment/rehab.. 4 a while i was a total bitch & wouldnt eat anything.. *Stupid* If u wanna get out fast & have them believeing ur beta, eat!!!

2)Make sure u have a safe room in ur house were you can go if u feel ur gonna binge, even a small clothes room with pictures of ur fav thinspo will help. RESTRICTING IS WHAT MAKES YOU THIN* people think fasting is good. It only gets rid of muscle!

3)Well actualli ive been to rehab 2 times.. Its hard to hide but u just gotta pretend everything is fine.. Like dont yell or over clean or count calories in front of people..

4)um im 5'4 now & 115lbs =(

So yeah i hope that helped u! If u have more Q's please ask =] xoxox Joya

[defy_gravity86]

Thank you so much for taking the time to answer my questions. I so appreciate it! That was really helpful for me to read. I'm really stubborn in treatment lol I've been in day-treatment for about 6 months and am still as stubborn as ever. I wish I could just do whatever they say and then they would let me out and I could get back on track but I'm scared that if I try to do what they say, I'll accidentally end up being better or accidentally wined up wanting to get better....also I see it as a sort of betrayal to my eating disorder by doing all the things they want me to do like not measuring my food (what if I take too much??) and throwing out all of my old smaller clothes that i use to fit into. I don't know. I'm still lost but this helped alot. thank you :)
Stay Strong! I added you if you don't mind :)
<3Kayla

[iwishicudsmile]

no prbs =] yep i added u back a second ago~ Ik, its hard 2 do what they say but u have 2 if u wanna get away quicker, but them telling u that u have 2 get rid of ur "tiny" clothes is so pushing the limit! i hope back off u hun, gud luck xoxox

[carpeaestus]

Sounds pretty shitty to me. I hate hangovers! I hate assault attempts! And I hate getting punched in the face- not that it has happened for awhile. ( I normally do the swinging) Don’t feel bad about the choc.,Your body was just looking for nutrients in the wrong places. YOU need a vacation baby.
love you and hope your week picks up!
xo ali

[iwishicudsmile]

yeah, i thought it didnt sound gud either =[
U can take me on a vacation anytime =]
yeah, but i still wish i didnt eat the chocolate!!! love u 2 babe xox Joya

[faerchild]

whoa hun. your weekend made my head spin. sounds like some kindof adventure. been wondering were you been hiding! it's definitely been a while since we've heard frm you!

[iwishicudsmile]

ik! im sorry just been feeling 2 down 2 write! (or 2 busy) haha yeah a fucking annoying adventure tho =p
missed u xox

[silverperoxide]

You probably don't remember me. A while ago I said I would ask one of my doctors why people with eds have problems sleeping so this is what I got.

Besides any emotional reasons, when a person doesn't eat well, their body won't sleep well. Blood sugars and protein in particular were mentioned by the doctor as well as not having caffeine after 3 pm.

Sorry this is like a week late.

Spike

[iwishicudsmile]

hey thanx! wow that explains alot lol.. i like have 1 diet cokee b4 bed & a black coffee 4 dinner.. Thanx so much for helping me. love always <3 Joya

[defy_gravity86]

I'm guessing depression has a lot to do with it as well... many many MANY people with eating disorders also have depression, no matter how severe it is. And irregular sleep patterns or insomnia occurs with depression as well. I think it's all inter-twined together.

[iwishicudsmile]

that makes sense... ever thought about being a doctor =p
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