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So i've pretty gone mad making paper snowflakes. it started out by me asking a couple of friends to help me make snowflakes to decorate my room, then in turned into a mass production and therapy. its really soothing to just sit around making snowflakes, listening to music, and talking. so fun that for the past two days i have stayed up past 2 doing ( Read more... )

tonight marks the beginning of all my future posts being entitled by christmas music! yay! im really starting to get into the christmas spirit full force. i have to thank krisi for making me into such a christmas junkie. we spent yesterday and today in search of the right version of christmas canon by trans-siberian orchestra. we just kept finding ( Read more... )

i woke up so comfortable this morning. its been so nice out so shannon and i slept with window open. it is perfectly pleasant outside right now. feels like early summer. even smells like early summmer, but its actually the middle of fall. i'm definetly not complaining. this weather is excellent.

I can't believe that next week is thanksgiving. mmmm. it doesnt feel like it becuase traditionally at home its like 30-40 degress out around now and here i dont think its been much below 50. right now its sunny and 70 outside! how nice is that? but still, as much as i apprecaite the nice weather, it just doesnt feel like the christmas season will ( Read more... )

you know you always have a in yourself that you just can't fill? well mine has been making me particularly sad lately. i just don't feel complete. thinking back on things, i can't remember the last time that i've felt complete.

to quote my last entry "i'm feeling a little more optimistic about class now" scratch that.

i just screwed up another class.

:( :( :(

its times like these that make me rethink what im doing.

and they also make me really miss home :(

its friday afternoon and in about 3 hours it will finally be the weekend. unfortunately those three hours will include work and taking a chem lab midterm :( and what to do now at work. i cant study anymore. i think my head is going to explode. so i already did some online shopping (just looking) and now i'm doing this...i guess it wouldnt hurt too ( Read more... )

so pretty much all i've done this week so far is study. i have two midterms on thursday: calc and chem lab. and i was completely unprepared for calc, but after studying late into the night for the past two days plus attending office hours, lecture, and a review session, i'm feeling a lot better about the test. i'm still really stressed, though. ( Read more... )

im screwed.

and its my fault.

i guess at least i've learned a lesson from all this.

maybe it isnt too late to fix this. im going to be very busy this weekend.