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[ixarms_reloadxi]

Today started out okay, but then I logged on to the journal system, went to the home page, and checked to see if any birthdays were rolling around...

And HIS name was at the bottom. As if I needed any more reminders. Seeing the 24th still marked on the calendar for the one year anniversary of our engagement is bad enough. If Larxene hadn't

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[h2o_dancer]

Aw Xig...

Shit, you know I'm bad at this kind of thing... but I do have beer! And some pain killers that are leftover from my surgery if you think they'll help... just not at the same time, 'kay?

-hugs an eyepatch-

[ixarms_reloadxi]

Beer and pain meds are the best, though! It's like skittles and apple juice! They work better that way!

Don't touch the patch. X_X It's in pain.

I HAAAAAATE winter.

[h2o_dancer]

I'm not sure what pain meds you were on, but these are okay I guess... they made me loopy after my surgery!

By the patch I meant all of you~

Tropical Islander. I hate winter too -____-

[ixarms_reloadxi]

I was on some pretty strong ones. I won't give out names because then certain people will beat me.

Ah, fine. Hug all you want. I need hugs. ;~;

Painful on exposed nerves. -__-;

[blackstar_key]

Come right over here and I'll kick your ass. Seriously. My boot, your ass, we'll have a party :P

But yeah, dude, you've got issues. You can't handle being happy and you can't handle being sad. And I agree with the fool: talk to Larxene. If you want to make her an equal partner in your life, that's what you have to do. Or else you may as well take a time out and try and get your head round it on your own. I'd recommend drawing on the strengths of those around you and leaning on them. I know what losing someone you love is like; it's horrible and it'll never leave you, but trust me, you don't want to try and shoulder this pain alone, like you're currently doing.

I did that, and look at where I am. I'm a criminal with DPD and a list longer than my arm of people I've killed for no good reason. Think about what you're doing and share the burden. It'll help, I promise.

And this shit isn't easy because you're over-complicating it with YOUR EMO!

[ixarms_reloadxi]

Not in the mood. Demyx offered me goodies, though. I might come get them.

I just don't want to upset her with all of this. I don't want her to misinterpret it. You know how female minds work- "I miss him" could turn into "You're not living up to what he did, you're a horrible replacement" in seconds, and I don't want it to go that way.

I could use her arms and her soft chest right now so bad... I'll talk to her in a little bit. Right now, I'm just in the mood to be somewhat alone. I'm in the middle of a session with Doctor Jack Daniels. I'll let her get the little ones down, then I'll go bother her.

Riku, it's been a year. Almost a year. Why the hell am I not over this yet? Why the fuck am I not over him yet? When does the guilt leave?

[blackstar_key]

Beer and painkillers? Remind me to kick his ass instead. Then kick yours. You earned it

[ixarms_reloadxi]

Well, it's either I get them from him, or I go out and get them from someone on the street. I'm out of my own, and I can't get anymore. No one will up the dose of someone that's overdosed four times in three months

[marluxia_rose]

Oh Xig... There were other good things around that time too...

Sometimes it also helps to remember other things, travel to different memories.

Remember the hilarity that was our first meeting?

[ixarms_reloadxi]

I think that was more awkward at that point. We never did get that game going. Maybe it's better we don't, right?

[marluxia_rose]

It was still a funny way to make friends.

It worked when we both lived in the dorms. Now it wouldn't, and Larxene would have our heads anyways. You'll just have to try sniping me when I'm training again sometime.