Rain
Darkness doesn't bother me. I hardly ever use lights in my room. I either have the blinds open or I sit in the dark. That's why I'm so pale; it doesn't bother me, but ever right now I'm sitting near my window typing this, and I notice how dark it is outside. This time, it bothers me. It's been like this nearly all day. I just wish it would rain already.
The grass looks so damn green and the trees are budding.
Spring is coming.
That's probably why I feel so anxious, because it is so dark out and this is the point where things are supposed to be bright.
I can't wait to see leaves outside my window. Next year, when spring rolls around, I'll be looking at a different window.