What's been going on?
It's been about a month since I last made a post. I do realize it's 2 30 in the morning but at this point, I don't really care. I am currently on my break from university and I will begin summer courses on May 5th. I have 5 exams to prepare for and I am freaking out.
I am currently working on my round two entry of "Escape from Nevara" and completed a collaboration audition with Zeurel. I am frankly quite tired and would like to rest but for some reason I can't.
I feel like if I try to sleep, I'll miss something; something important. That if I sleep, I'll be disappointing someone by not using that time wisely like I'm suppose to. For the past few days, I've been full of guilt and stress that I've haven't studied enough (or at all) and put too much time into tournaments and things that won't get me far in life. But it's what I enjoy. I should be able to do things I enjoy right? I can barely bring myself to look at the computer screen when it has biological jargon or chemical formulas. I hope to just do what I usually do and try to remember as much as I can from class and cram before the exam.
Life hasn't been too bad so far. Things have looked up actually. For the most part. Somewhat. I guess. A lot of things still irk me but I guess that's for me to work out later. Sorry I've been so quiet dears but I'm afraid being a university student is just as boring a life as a high school student (although, I got to say, it was much easier to handle back then.)
I've also been noticing that my ankle's been feeling a bit odd. It's not too bad but it's been a bit strange; it will creak everyso often and be sore for a while. Oh well, I suppose that comes with the territory of having a broken bone. It makes me feel old though.
I feel like I've been a lot more frustrated about stuff than usual. Like small things will set me off and snap back. I don't really know why that's happening and I would like to blame hormones but I don't think it'll be acceptable this time.. I don't know. I just feel so.. tense.
-sighs- I hope this post wasn't too long. Love you all.
-Never Mother.