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[izzy_hicks]

I don't do hospitals, not unless I absolutely have to. Everyone I've known over the years has never really understood why, they just assumed I was cold. I just can't do them, if I have to be in one it's all I can do to force myself to stay, or I have to totally distract myself, like I did the last time we brought Eva here. Imagine being in a

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[_penn_]

*enters the auditorium, looking around at the size and darkness of the room*

*sees Izzy sitting in there and frowns concerned. Goes over to her and sits next down to her*

Hey, are you okay?

[izzy_hicks]

*smiles a little when she see Penn.*

Hey, you. Yeah, I'm okay. Just looking for some quiet for my head. It can be too much sometimes.

*looks at him*

How are you holding up?

[_penn_]

*shrugs* I'm fine, holding up as much as everyone else.

*curiously* What can be too much?

[izzy_hicks]

*shrugs*

Everyone is feeling some sort of defeat or sadness. Plus all the wounded people upstairs. All that feeling gets to be too much sometimes.

*looks at him*

How's your hand?

[_penn_]

*looks at her surprised* Izzy, the only reason I was able to stay calm is because I'm used to situations like that. Trust me, the first dozen ones? Wasn't so calm, and I didn't expect any of you to be.

You didn't get Cristoff hurt, a demon with a crossbow did. He choose to be a hero and take the arrow, and if he didn't? I don't know what would of happened honestly.

*takes her hand into his* No one really knows how to make anyone feel better, you shouldn't have to put the burden on yourself like that. We're all pretty damn clueless right now.

[izzy_hicks]

I shouldn't have been in a situation for him to have to do that. My reaction time was off, and it made a bad situation worse. I felt like you all had to take care of me instead of me carrying my own weight. *shrugs* Like I said I felt like a liability out there.

*smiles*

You don't give yourself enough credit. You've been great out there.

*looks off*

I know you're right. That I'm just wallowing in self pity. Just adding eevryones general despondancy to my self pity, makes for a pretty miserable me. *smiles a little* I'll pull out of it.

[_penn_]

It was an ambush. All of our reactions times were off, thats the point of ambushes. Two soldiers who were trained died in there because of it. You were not a liability, the situation was just bad.

*shrugs* I've been merely trying to keep it together and do what i can to help us succede.

*looks at her worried* Oh I see, is there anything I can do to help?

[izzy_hicks]

*smiles at him*

You just being here, helps more than you could possibly know.

*looks down*

When we were out there and Cristoff said to port me out first. You said I..well both of us were nuts. You don't really think that do you? I mean...do you question my judgement out there? Cause I would understand if you do, but I would like to know if you really think, so that I can find a non fighting place to be if you think thats the best place for me.

[_penn_]

*smiles* Well its not that they would beat me up by choice. Just when I would practice with them as kids they would always win.

*wraps an arm around her* heh okay, if they do that? You can do that. Your probably a lot more scary when your pissed than I would be anyway.

*frowns* Should of sent her away? How so? Isn't it her decision if she stays or not?

[izzy_hicks]

I am scary when I'm pissed. *smiles brightly and nods*

*sighs*

Sometimes you have to make decisions for the people you care about because they can't see the big picture yet. *shrugs* I'm just hoping my selfishness doesn't get her killed.

[_penn_]

*tilts head and looks confused* I'm not sure if I understand. She knows all the information we know of, and she has yet to do anything foolish that I know of. Why would you have to make her decision? And how were you selfish?

And I am sure she will be fine. Probably better off than us since she won't be doing any of the fighting.

[izzy_hicks]

*sighs*

Cause I'm her big sister, and should be doing whats best for her. I chose to let her stay, because I wanted to have her here, I missed out on a lot of her life. It was comforting to me to have her here. It was about what I wanted not about what was best for her. Thats pretty selfish.

[_penn_]

Well its healing. It will probably be completely healed soon.

*bites his lip a bit* Um yeah, I haven't have it? Um, see, nerf? Its deadly to pixies, and in a pretty painful way too. Shoot one in the right spots and its lethal. And if we so much as touch it? Well *gestures to his hand* That happens.

[izzy_hicks]

*eyes widen*

Sweetheart, don't you think that thats something that should have gotten an immediate explaination? *thinks about ambush* God, there were so many of those things getting shot at us. Christ, at you. They had to have known that, I mean that would be a huge coincedence if they just arbitrarily shot something thats harmless to humans at us. They had to know. Fuck. *scrubs face* This isn't cool.

[_penn_]

*looks down* I'm sorry, I probably should of yeah. Its just, I didn't want anymore panic than what was going on. And as long as I dodge them I would of been fine. And I am fine other than my hand.

*sighs* Yeah, they know. THey had to know, there's no other way. Someoen told them, I don't know who though, but someone did. Its certainly not making sleep come any easy knowing that they know about nerf.

[izzy_hicks]

I'm sorry, I'm done freaking out. 'Cept to say, This is not cool. I mean really not cool. Who could have told them. I mean is it common knowledge around herewith the other demon and stuff? Is it like the talk around the demon water cooler?

*reaches out and touches his shoulder*

I'm sorry I'm not helping here. I just...don't want you to get hurt or worse.