I will let you down, I will make you hurt.

[izzy_hicks]

Things haven't improved much in the last few days, if anything in my opinion they've gotten worse. We're not the same group we used to be, working together to find the solution to whatever the hell is wrong with Cristoff. More like everyones got their own reasons to do research in their own corner of the mansion. Me, personally, have taken to

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[_penn_]

I come back from patrolling. It was not a good night. Ran into a rather strong vampire that decide to slam me against a crypt wall, which left me hurting and sure to be sore in the morning. Fortunatly I manage to walk away from the fight, which is more than I can say for him, but it hurt a lot.

I pause as I see Izzy sitting in the courtyard. She is sitting alone, looking depressed. I frown, it couldn't be easy for her to be able to feel everything going on. Not that I would know, we really haven't talked the past few days. Really didn't know what to say.

At the very least though, I want to see if she's okay. Looking around and listening, I conclude thats its just us in the courtyard. Everyone else is inside. The girl is probably still with Cristoff. I walk over to her and sit on the bench she is on.

"Hey."

[izzy_hicks]

I know when he's come into the courtyard. Even before looking over at him when he sits down. Even though I was working on a good brood, the smile that I get whenever I see him tugs on my lips, "Hey you."

He must've ran into something on patrol, he's all tired and sore. "How was patrol? You okay?"

[_penn_]

I shrug, bad mistake because that makes it hurt more. "I met a vampire that likes to throw opponents into things. I'll be fine and he is dust," I say lightly. its the truth, it was no major injury, I'll be alright within the next few days.

"Are you okay?"

[izzy_hicks]

Something about the way he answers, I'm concerned. Not about the injuries. He's had a lot worse and made it through. These are just normal bumps and scrapes of patrol.

Am I okay? No not really but theres still the part that don't want to worry him. "Just feeling a little useless at the moment."

[_penn_]

"Not you," i manage to say over the girl's voice. It just doesn't stop. She is now laughing about how I never said anything. How not only was it bad enough that i never let the authorites know, but I didn't even have the guts to tell the one that i loved.

I start clutching my head, covering my ears to block her out. Its not working, she just raises her voice. "stop, be quiet. I am not a murderer. It was an accident, I am NOT a murderer!" As if the time in the basement wasn't enough, now she still won't stop. I know i shouldn't listen, that I should tell her to go away, but she won't leave.

[izzy_hicks]

It finally dawns on me whats going on. He's acting a lot like Cristoff did, covering his ears so not to listen. Oh God, this demon is after him now too. And I don't know what to do, "Penn, listen to me. I know you aren't a murderer. Don't listen to her."

[ct_littlebad]

"How would she know you're not a murderer? You never told her. You never told her about how you killed that innocent. About how his family still to this day has no idea what killed him. He had a family too you know, you aren't the only one that does. A family who got to sit there and wonder why he never came home," I watch as he cringes more, and keeps telling me to leave him alone and to shut up.

He's as much fun as Cristoff.

[_penn_]

I want her to stop. She keeps talking and she won't stop. I try to not hear her, I try to keep telling myself that she is lying. But I know she's not. All she is saying is stuff I have told myself constantly. I look over at Izzy, she's realized what is going on but she has a look of surprised on her face as she's watching me aruge with someone that isn't there to her.

"Just stop, please. It was an accident, I'm not a murderer. I didn't mean to shoot him, just go away you monster," my voice is choked up with tears. I want to curl up into a ball and die, i feel rotten to my core. "Help me Izzy..." I whimper. "please make her, just make her go away."