Untitled - SasuNaruSasu - Part 2
Co-written by Jualkyn (Sasuke's POV)
Me (Naruto's POV)
Naruto © Masashi Kishimoto
His hand passed over the other’s stomach, the scars now having disappeared from the Uchiha’s lean body. He wanted to touch him, badly, just as much as he wanted to be touched. As he wrapped his hand around it the boy’s body jerked, writhing against him as he slipped down Naruto’s pants at the same time. Naruto couldn’t take it any longer. Shifting his body to kick off his pants he grabbed the pouch that used to be tied around his waist. Vaseline. Sakura had asked him to carry it for her, hers too stuffed with god knows what…it was good for sores…but this wasn’t the case…
“If you’re doing it you might as well do it right.” He pulled Sasuke over him before he could say anything and locked their lips once more. The friction between their waists made him rub against Sasuke like mad, being hindered by the boy’s remaining clothing. “Mmmh…T-take it off-f-” Naruto’s voice wasn’t even controlled by him anymore.
Sasuke panted, his eyes unfocused as lust took over all of his senses. He had the boy under his mercy, and possibly vice versa as his once rival stood before him nearly naked. Soon afterwards, he didn’t hesitate but to untie the knot of his bow, letting the cloth around his waist fall softly to the ground.. Reaching out a pale hand he touched Naruto’s flustered face for a split second before he trailed his wet tongue agonizingly along the boy’s neck, then even lower to the nipples until he was face to face with the boy’s soft stomach, marked by the Kyuubi’s seal.
“..I’m not going to know how to be...gentle…” he whispered before grabbing the boy, making them tumble against each other on the wet grass below. They were surely to soil both of their clothes then but the raven-haired boy hardly gave a care at that moment. He held onto the blonde’s waist tightly, his eyes still level with the boy’s belly as he dipped his tongue into the boy’s navel. Not giving a chance for the blonde to respond, he began to lick and suck on the tender flesh there, teasing the area of where the seal was marked. Hearing the soft whimpering sounds of Naruto caused the tightness of his pants grow bigger as he untied the buckle of his own pants, slipping them down a bit… He looked into the blonde’s eyes then again, feeling desperate….SO desperate to the point where he felt he would rip the blonde apart with this sick, sick obsession…
“I don’t want…your gentleness…” Naruto couldn’t continue the phrase…hell, he could hardly think. He raised his hand to Sasuke’s face and moved the strands of ebony hair, now slightly damp, out of the pale boy’s eyesight. He couldn’t stop caressing that face, it made his hands tingle and burn, and consequently pulled it towards his in agony as he shut his eyes to kiss him.
The pleasure was making him dizzy…it made him feel so alive and pained at the same time. “Can we go somewhere less out…in the open?” he managed to utter as Sasuke pressed his groin harder against his.
Sasuke kissed back violently biting the lip nearly drawing blood, pushing the blonde further against the ground. His hands were digging into the blonde’s sides, certain to leave bruises. At this point, even if the boy wanted to run away from him, Sasuke knew he wouldn’t let that happen. He was already far too gone into the depths of passion to control himself, even if that meant he was going to force the other.
Ripping down the rest of the boy’s boxers, he gulped when he saw the erect member there… He grunted in approval as he roughly grabbed Naruto close to him, with the boys legs wrapped around his own waist so he would not fall. Then he stood up, and groaned when he felt his clothed over member rub against the blonde’s. Trembling, and half hobbling from pleasure, he fortunately found a secluded area for the two of them not too far away, trees and thick bushes hiding most of its view.
Naruto felt his face flush even more and fell limp in the other’s grasp and wrapped his legs tighter around the young Uchiha’s waist.
Why…why did Sasuke mean so much to him? Or rather, how come he felt so inseparable from him? The time far from Sasuke had been so painful…the emptiness had been swallowing him…especially at night.
The ground wasn’t damp this time, but the grass was thick and scruffy under his back. Things were definitely more heated now, Naruto gasped as he felt Sasuke’s length rub against his, warmth passing through the cloth and he moved decisively and quick. Naruto’s legs now sagged at Sasuke’s sides as his head twisted back and forth sideways.
His hands now grabbed the Uchiha’s pants to tug him closer…as physically close as possible. But his impatience was growing and he was now thrashing against him. He rolled them over on the side and hovered above Sasuke, who hadn’t expected the swift movement. The blonde was now bucking frantically into his crotch and kissing him all over his face.
Sasuke groaned, hastily grabbing the boy’s waist as he bucked his hips upwards roughly in an erratic fashion. He shifted until he was in more of a sitting position, with Naruto still thrashing on his lap. Hissing profanities rather incomprehensively, the Uchiha teen quickly slid down most of his pants until his hardened erection became visible. He could hear a light gasp from the blonde but was not surprised…after all, this was the first time they ever saw each other’s ever so private parts of the body this closely. However, he wasted no time before he crushed their heated members together violently, ripping a surprised yell out from the blonde’s throat. He grabbed hold of Naruto’s buttocks harshly with one hand as he crushed their crotches as tight as he could, rubbing Naruto’s back with the other, nails brushing. He looked at the blonde’s agonized face briefly before shoving his tongue deeply into the boy’s open mouth, kissing wetly…
Their tongues clashed as Naruto wrapped his arms securely around the other’s neck, the intensity swiping any reason he had left.
It was darker now with the moonlight blocked off by clouds, and all Naruto could hear was Sasuke’s rugged breath mingle with the sound of his moans.
“M-more!” Sweat was dripping down his lower back as his hands now fondled over the other boy’s upper thighs while he sucked harshly on one his nipples. “Take…the bottle…” his voice raspy and thin and he started to move off Sasuke’s waist, panting heavily with excitement. He never felt this enraptured in his life. Was having sex with someone particular supposed to be this thrilling?
“N..Naruto…” Sasuke groaned out, before he threw the blonde hard against the ground, nearly giving the blonde a concussion. Taking the bottle with trembling fingers, the dark nin took a nipple between his teeth and sucked on it until it turned red, raw and swollen. With a soft kiss on Naruto’s whimpering lips, Sasuke popped the bottle off clumsily as he coated his fingers with its essence. His eyes had changed color as the sharingan returned to his eyes, and he stared dangerously into the blonde’s blue orbs, a maniac’s gaze. He pried open the smaller boy’s legs without hesitation as he roughly shoved a finger in the supple hole. Although Sasuke had no experience doing any of this…he had the determination and the will to make it work…
Naruto suppressed a cry as he felt the finger jab into him…so strange…but…he wanted it. The way Sasuke said his name…just scorched him like fire. Things suddenly felt dangerous…more than the times they would be throwing punches at each other…and Sasuke’s eyes made the hair on his neck rise. Was it ever possible that he could want this so bad?
All this time during his pursuit of Sasuke he couldn’t help noticing it was dreadfully one-sided…maybe…he loved him too much…or…they were just different?
He couldn’t stand this anymore…the need of feeling closer had always driven him after Sasuke, and now he was with him…How could he make him stay though? It seemed hopeless…but he just couldn’t lose that hope…his trust in Sasuke was unswayable.
More fingers were being inserted as something suddenly hit his mind like electricity. He exclaimed as he grabbed the Uchiha’s head and fisted his hands in his hair, “Gods!”. It hadn’t been expected.
Sasuke slightly flinched when he felt the boy grab harshly at the roots of his hair but his expression remained the same. Forcing the fingers off his hair, Sasuke entwined his fingers with the blonde’s as he lurched them both forward. Sasuke’s strong thighs kept the blonde’s legs apart from closing as he jabbed a third finger in the boy’s warmth, mercilessly thrusting.
Giving out a growl of impatience, he shifted them both again, taking Naruto’s writhing body to place the boy’s back against his chest. He waited for a bit until he thrust all three fingers in yet again, drowning the boy’s cries with a deep-throat kiss…a kiss so hard and deep Sasuke felt his jaws would dislocate if he pried open the blonde’s mouth even further… He moaned as he felt the boy’s buttocks rub repeatedly against his engorged penis. At this point, Sasuke was brutally scissoring his fingers into Naruto’s wet hole, which stretched and clenched around them… Ah…the night was filled with the smell of sex…
This current movement of his fingers was clearly over-whelming the blonde, who was puffing and responding to the stimulation he gave him. He wanted to be inside Naruto, who wanted more…much more, he wanted Sasuke to become one with him and there was no turning back…
“..Keep your legs open…” Sasuke whispered gutturally, licking the shell of Naruto’s ear before taking a bit of it into his mouth. With that said, Sasuke withdrew his fingers before using the rest of the bottle, the droopy liquid all over his hands. He panted heavily before coating his aching erection, making it smooth and glistening under the moonlight that had shone upon them yet again. He placed the blonde on his lap tightly before wrapping his strong arms underneath Naruto’s thighs, then began to knead the boy’s bottom side apart with slippery fingers. Aiming the head of his swollen member into the entrance, Sasuke roughly pulled the boy’s backend downwards as it began to slide into the warmth…
Naruto choked on his breath as he felt Sasuke, hard, but also soft and slippery. It was seriously…engrossing. How it interfered into his body…initially ripping but then giving the sensation of holding something too big, painful but not in the real sense of pain as it stretched him. Naruto’s eyes were gaping, riveted, and he was stiff as Sasuke rapidly pushed into him.
Desire was consuming him however, and his shaking hands frantically urged his…lover? to move. But how was this going to mean anything if Sasuke didn’t tell him how he felt… “Sasuke…Sasuke…love me…love me.” His voice echoed in repetition as the raven-haired boy pounded deeper within him. Meanwhile his mind was being blinded by light, rather than thoughts being erased when they were touching before.
What was left? It seemed as if he was going somewhere higher, in a totally separate place…where is was just him, grabbing desperately to Sasuke. A part of me… He panted as he lost his breath.
Sasuke could hear Naruto’s desperate cries and words of encouragement as he lost himself in the overwhelming sensation…But as soon as he heard those words he felt a stab of pain within his heart, as it brought back the memories that he tried to forget along with the bonds he vowed to break….Just what were they both becoming…How was it that he could have allowed this person to take control of him like this…How..
He felt his body becoming stiff before he regained his senses, slipping out until he felt his hard shaft enveloped only by the tip…then visciously impaling into the blonde as hard as he could onto him. He could feel Naruto’s body spasm around him as he heard the boy’s passionate moans each time he propelled inwards… For some reason this wasn’t enough….he wanted more….so much more from Naruto… Biting his lip until blood was drawn, Sasuke withdrew his length for a split second before he shifted the blonde so they would face each other. Then, with a sharp snap of hips Sasuke slammed brutally inside, feeling Naruto’s body trembling then as they fell against the wet grass tumbling… It was then that Sasuke realized, that he was going to utterly rip the boy apart inside and out, and rob him of all of his dreams… and while he could see that Naruto’s love for him was pure, his love was not; it was sick, dark and now undeniably possessive…
If there was any pain, Naruto couldn’t feel it, except in the inside, where he was still calling for Sasuke to come back, to not leave him behind…and alone. He was now gazing up intensely as Sasuke was moving above him, his face dark, but his eyes gazing haughtily into his. Who was this? All he could hear now was his pulse beating in his ears as his body moved up and down…blood dripping on the ground….
“I…Hgh!..” he was cut off, the sound of flesh against flesh so loud against his ears. “I would do anything…for you…argh…Why can’t…you stay with me!?” Don’t you realize…?
Sasuke continued relentlessly as Naruto’s body clashed against his.
“Do you know…why…my dream can’t come true?” He suddenly questioned Sasuke, whose head was now above his shoulder as he breathed into blonde’s ear, intoxicating his mind even further.
Sasuke grit his teeth harder and shut his eyes tightly, truly not wanting to hear those words coming out of the blonde’s lips… He knew he shouldn’t let those words disturb him so much…yet it felt as if they were piercing right through his already battered soul. Instead of replying back, Sasuke eyed the boy darkly before gripping hard into Naruto’s hair, nearly ripping the roots right out before he leaned down, shoving his tongue as far as it would go into the boy’s mouth.
It was as if he was unconsciously trying to shut the boy up….to make the blonde forget…and only to pay attention to the sickening pleasure they were both succumbing under. He could see that he was nearly gagging the blonde…though it only urged him to spread apart the boy’s legs as wide as they were physically capable, over his shoulders.
He could hear the pained shouts of the blonde as slammed as hard as he could into Naruto, blood trickling down Sasuke’s pulsing member…. Their hips tightened in reflex until he lifted Naruto’s limp body upwards, placing the boy on his lap once more before Sasuke pushed both of them against a nearby tree stub… brutally entering him still. It wasn’t going to be long until Sasuke would lose himself…he felt his end draw near as he continued suffocating the blonde with his viciously stabbing tongue…
More and more…Naruto’s body was no longer even able to respond…his heart beat was going unbelievably fast…Sasuke’s tongue was the only answer the Uchiha wanted to give him. How come…
Each time he felt the raven-haired boy hit his prostate the world seemed to vanish as he ferociously began to kiss Sasuke back again.
Yeah…the bastard was pounding him violently…but seeing the boy react to him just pleasured him more.
You think you are hurting me now? This isn’t what hurts me…
When his mouth was finally freed from the assault, Naruto began biting on Sasuke’s neck, licking the soft skin that seemed amazingly perfect.
He began whispering in the Uchiha’s ear things that certainly would have made the kid Sasuke used to be blush like a school girl. Instead the heavy breathing and banging against Naruto’s body only increased. It was approaching…the light was intensifying…taking over his mind.
Sasuke fluttered his eyes open then, though half-lidded, his entire expression in an agonizingly blissful state. The words the blonde were speaking into his ear nearly made the raven-haired teen choke, as he could now feel his thrusts losing control… “Fuck!..” he managed to hiss out with pleasure, feeling Naruto crush his arms arm around him with all his might…
At that moment, Sasuke wished nothing more than forget about all the pains of his world…and being able to lose himself in this pleasure forever. He angled his head then, to be able to fully witness the blonde’s expression for they would soon reach climax…. Even if he couldn’t give Naruto what he desired the most, the dark nin hoped that at least he would forgive him…forgive him of pouring out this forbidden desire all onto him..
Wasting no more time, he roughly grabbed Naruto’s erection with his pale glossy hand, rubbing it up and down vigorously. He could witness now vividly under the brightness of the moon, his penis so engorged in size it was barely recognizable, and Naruto was hammering himself onto it with everything he had…
Naruto’s words were incoherent now and his eyes were unfocused as his head wobbled as he fiercely grabbed Sasuke thrusting one hand in his hair and the other down his back.
How could he describe that moment…or climax, as they call it. Sasuke’s face flashed in his mind, but it wasn’t this Sasuke. It was the one he held onto, the one that had been at his side.
It wasn’t the same, but it still was…that Sasuke was always his, no matter how things changed, or went on… One thing he had understood…but he decided to ignore it. He loved Sasuke, and that’s all that mattered now. The younger Uchiha would never forget him…he could kill him ten times over and avoid him continuously…but the feelings Naruto had for him weren’t going anywhere.
Of that he was sure. Sasuke would always be the person he admired. The one he’d follow…forever.
Sounded like an idealization…but Naruto knew it wasn’t. His Sasuke was still in there, as well as the present one repressed it. The pain he saw in Sasuke was simply too much…someone as vulnerable…to cope with normally.
It’s really not your fault…
“Please…stay safe…” he said shaking against Sasuke’s lips, his forehead against the other’s. He knew Sasuke would leave him. This time he wasn’t going to fight. Rather, he was going to wait for him. Eternally if he had to. In the meantime, he’d strive to make that waiting shorter. He’d protect his dream as long as he had to, even if it was slipping away from him…risking to disappear in solitude…
When Sasuke felt the boy’s entrance spasm erratically against him, he knew at that moment that Naruto had reached his limit. He felt the explosion of the blonde’s essence, coating both of their stomachs…but even then, Sasuke held tightly onto the Naruto’s waist, still brutally pushing himself into him. He could see that Naruto was completely powerless then, having no more strength to respond back to their lovemaking, looking more like a limp rag doll. The boy merely hitched, his mouth agape as Sasuke banged beyond the hypersensitive nub of his prostate then…It took Naruto’s trembling voice, whispering the last few soft-spoken words against his ear, which caused the raven-haired teen to explode, his semen bursting deep within Naruto in a one last powerful thrust. Sasuke truly felt then, that he would go insane…
“You’re mine…” was all Sasuke could say, as he embraced the blonde then, his powerful hands nearly crushing the boy’s already badly bruised waist… He could see Naruto then, and he was in a much pitiful state, his lips slit and swollen along with welts and bruises marking all over the blonde’s once untarnished body… …What are we?… Sasuke wondered as silent tears marked trails down his pale cheeks… tears holding all the repressed feelings he tried to hide all his life…They both stayed like this for awhile, their bodies sticky with cum and nail marks of blood trickling down upon their backs…showing the signs of their animalistic coupling.
Naruto, now looking up at him, wondered if his heart could take anymore of this. And Naruto began to quiver violently. “Don’t…don’t.” Naruto’s head dropped down. “Why can’t I be enough…why…am I…” his voice died in Sasuke’s chest. His head was throbbing, his whole body was aching, especially his chest, and the frustration kept building up inside of him.
“What are your feelings for me?” Naruto suddenly let out. He actually regretted immediately after asking this, for he feared the answer more than anything… “N-nevermind…forget what I said…” and he turned away from the Uchiha as he cringed and began to stand up as he walked towards the lake wretchedly. Sickness really was the right word to label what he was feeling right now.
Inside his mind was screaming, but he just couldn’t watch Sasuke anymore, especially in that state. What was the point of living anyway? Never had he felt so pathetic for being so dependent on someone. It was he nature being needy of others, but Sasuke was that one person that surpassed all the rest, filling his senseless existence. Why can’t you need me like I do you?
Sasuke angled his head slowly to face towards Naruto’s retreating form, not saying a word. What COULD he say…he couldn’t possibly tell Naruto that he loved him…because this was not love. If love was something resembling how he felt then, perhaps he would understand. He had been apart and rejected from love all his life, too long to the point in which he could not remember the meaning of the word. Love to him was not kind, was not gentle but abusive and something that made one weak. He wished more then ever then, for Naruto to understand this…Couldn’t he understand that chasing someone like him would only result in utter damnation?
He gave out a shaky breath before standing up, fixing his pants. He picked up his bloodied, mud-ridden white kimono as he draped it over his naked shoulders, holding his sword tightly with his other hand. “I should leave….they’ll be looking for me…” he thought, but he felt his gaze focused directly at the blonde, his foot planted hard under the soil beneath.
“My…weakness is you…” Sasuke retorted, insecure yet his voice held strength and clarity.
Naruto who’d been stepping into the lake now fell straight in like…a total moron. The blonde’s thoughts now raced as he emerged his head from the water and stared Sasuke incredulously. “What…is that supposed to mean?” Naruto wasn’t sure if that was actually something good anymore. He didn’t want to be someone that hindered Sasuke, or block the way of the accomplishment of his dream.
All he wanted…ever wanted…was- The Uchiha was now walking towards the lake, holding his sword indolently and crouching near the water’s edge. Apparently he was looking down at the reflection in the water, right in front of his. There was something that looked different in Sasuke - yes, he still had the impassive and irritatingly grim look to him, but there was something in his expression that seemed eased. Naruto then felt lighter too, even if not less desperate. Time seemed fugacious now, and disquiet was building over him. And damn…his ass was killing him…not that he was complaining…
He couldn’t stop staring at Sasuke’s reflection. His breath had gone almost back to normal at this time, but he still felt like he had fallen from the sky. Even if Sasuke was going…he had felt needed. And that was enough for now. One day I’ll be…good enough for you…Sasuke.
He took off his eyes at his own reflection then, his eyes meeting Naruto’s sapphire gaze. The blonde’s eyes had no trace of evil, but innocence and purity…and it sickened the dark nin. Did he feel shame from what they had just done? He wasn’t sure…and perhaps he never will be. He hated himself more than ever for not being able to answer any of these questions…questions he believed he never had to ask himself again after he abandoned Konoha…
“You should know what I mean.” The Uchiha teen whispered coldly as he threw his materials to the rocks nearby and undressed, walking into the lake now towards the blonde. “Why must I be a slave to this…to YOU…” he thought, feeling dizzy from all the mixed emotions flying through his head… The moon glinted eerily still, and even Sasuke had to admit that the boy looked beautiful beneath its light…
Naruto didn’t move a muscle as the Uchiha approached him, almost afraid to breathe. He felt ridiculous as his face turned red now, suddenly shy at Sasuke’s naked body getting close to him in the water . His pale skin look inhumanely white now, and he fought back the urge to touch it. The smell similar to burnt oleander got nearer....
Sasuke wondered if Naruto was playing him. Did the blonde truly not know what he meant by what he said, or considering him a fool? Even if Sasuke could not respond back to exactly how Naruto felt, he had to admit…that never had anybody managed to affect him like so, or be able to arouse him like this.
He cornered the blonde’s body against the deeper edge of the lake, both of them fully naked now as drops of water fell gracefully against their skins. He couldn’t control the urge to hold the blonde to his arms again, nearly crushing the boy’s ribcage. “This has been stretched to its limits…you won’t be able to walk properly for days to come…dobe.” He murmured secretly somehow concerned, taking nimble fingers and gently prying open Naruto’s behind, submerged in water…
Naruto, instead of reacting embarrassed like he would have naturally done, he placed his hand on the back of Sasuke’s head and pressed his mouth against his firmly, giving him a short and oddly intense kiss. He then looked at Sasuke and smiled at him…or rather gave him one of those amused grins…which disappeared as the blonde turned his face away from him.
“You better leave now…” Naruto suppressed every hint of sadness he could from his voice as tears swelled up in his eyes again… having to bear the familiar sort of teasing right when Sasuke was going to leave again…his heart was breaking…
Sasuke stood there, struck for never before did the blonde willingly let him go… The fiery will in those blue eyes was gone, and he could tell that the boy’s spirit was nearly broken. Maybe this was the only realistic form of a relationship they would ever reach…a forever painful struggle of love and hate. Where did they go wrong?… Ever since the day we met… Sasuke conceded, gradually sliding his arms away from the blonde. But most of all, he could not think of a proper way to respond back to the blonde…everything he would say then would have been hypocrisy, contradicting what they had just done with each other…
All he did was stare at the limp form of the broken boy in front of him, before Sasuke was finally able to turn his back, walking slowly away. He felt his throat tighten then, wondering if the blonde was going to stop him yet again…but it never came. He hoped that Naruto would now understand the reasons to why he tried to break their bond; something that hindered his goals and their dreams. Perhaps this was for the best…
He had finished dressing then, though his back was still turned to the blonde. He knew he would never forget this day, something that was to forever be etched into his memories…Was this truly goodbye..?
The more Sasuke stayed the more Naruto felt he was going to miss him…so he might as well send him away himself before he really felt…pathetic.
“I’m not giving up on my dream, teme. One day you’ll fucking need me, and I’ll protect you forever. ”
He felt more clear-minded now, and pulled out of the water as he brusquely put back on his clothes. He grabbed the stone of his necklace in his hand and took one last look at the brunet. “I’m yours as well…Sasuke. I’ve always been.”
“I…do acknowledge that you love me..” Sasuke managed to croak out, though his voice remained steady. “And this might be the last time…that we will see each other alive.” He finished, pessimistic yet believing these words as he gripped tightly onto his sword. He crooned his head towards Naruto’s dressed form then, but quickly looked away…wondering if this was the last time he will ever be intimate with someone, as he had with the blonde. The dark nin still carried an iron heart, years of training from his ambitions was proof of that. Nothing was to stand in the way of his goals…but this boy before him had managed to crack the barrier, even just a bit. He looked at the blonde’s lips then, swollen and tattered, feeling an urge to claim it deeply once more just like he had done previously…yet controlled himself.
“I told you, I’m not giving up,” he said sententiously as his eyes narrowed heatedly at Sasuke as he pondered heavily those words. Why did the bastard have to come so close to him, he thought feeling his exasperation rise, especially after hearing him say the sort of things Naruto despised most, and struggled to resist the temptation to punch him across the face.
“You’re crazy if you think I’ll just let you throw your life away,” he finished angrily, and began walking resolutely away from the brunet…
Sasuke closed his eyes then, mysteriously not feeling the urge to retort back. Slowly but surely, the Uchiha teen began to walk away from the blonde, but only managed a few hesitant steps before stopping. They both stood like that for awhile, as if they couldn’t bear to leave one another. It wasn’t until Sasuke felt angry eyes intensely staring back to his form that he felt his nerves being jolted back to its original senses. It was clear…that the blonde couldn’t seem to leave just yet either….something was missing.. something…
And everything happened so fast, for within a lightning speed, the raven-haired teen was behind Naruto then, causing the breath to hitch up the blonde’s throat.
“Sas-“ Naruto began, though barely having a chance to finish before Sasuke had the boys lips sealed in a deep kiss, pale fingers tilting the boy’s chin towards him. He felt the blonde’s body becoming limp and powerless against him then, as Sasuke took the initiative to explore his mouth thoroughly with an arm around his waist. The kiss remained surprisingly gentle and soft, deeply contrasting the brutal ones they shared only moments before... But just as quickly as it had come, Sasuke pulled away with a sharp smack of lips, a small trail of saliva connecting their chapped and swollen mouths. He looked into the blonde’s blue eyes then, staring at him as in sad expectance…
“Goodbye…Naruto…” he whispered, inches away from Naruto’s lips…then letting go, as he began to steadily walk into the darkness of the forest. It was as if the forest was consuming him, his body slowly disappearing bit by bit, burning… But secretly within his heart, he knew this was not to be the last time, for at that moment, he felt the strings of fate, entwining them both together…
Naruto clenched his chest as he felt something rip away from him, once again. The pain or tears never sufficed, only that this time, he had a thought that consoled him. You’re mine… Just remembering those words made him dizzy. Even if Naruto still hadn’t got exactly what he wanted, in a way he had. Say that Sasuke were never to come back to him again, he still had these moments in his heart.
When he finally reached the village, he decided to drop by at the Hokage’s office after changing his battered clothes... He wondered if he should let Sakura in on the…feelings he had for Sasuke. For some reason, he had the impression that she was already aware of them since some time. Sai as well…
There was Tsunade and Sakura, bustling over papers and stacks of folders. “Naruto!! There is something I have to show you!! Come here…HURRY!! ” Sakura said immediately, her face struck with fear, her fingers even trembling as she roughly grabbed at the papers… Tears seemingly brimming at the corners of her eyes…
“What is it?” Naruto croaked out brokenly, his heart skipping a beat in sudden panic his hands balling up into fists. Sakura now handed him a paper written in difficult kanji and on yellow-old paper. “Secret jutsu” was written at the top. After he read through something in it sounded familiar to him. Without a word, Sakura immediately crushed another paper into Naruto’s hand, a report from their mission when they had gone to retrieve Sasuke with Team Yamato but he had managed to escape…
He looked at a part which was underlined and his eye’s shot open as he realized what it all meant.
***
When Sasuke managed to reach his camp, he was not surprised to be met with the faces of his distressed group, their expressions rather showing confusion and irritation. Karin’s head was the first to poke up from her current position, her knee drawn up tightly into her chest, her eyes gleaming in anticipation at the sight of the dark nin’s return.
“Sasuke where the hell have you been? We’ve been waiting for you for god knows how long!!” Suigetsu yelled out, growling back at Jugo who grunted awake at the sound of his loud voice. He swore under his breath and skidded rather clumsily off to the side, trying to dodge Jugo’s aggravated punch from hitting him.
Me (Naruto's POV)
Naruto © Masashi Kishimoto
His hand passed over the other’s stomach, the scars now having disappeared from the Uchiha’s lean body. He wanted to touch him, badly, just as much as he wanted to be touched. As he wrapped his hand around it the boy’s body jerked, writhing against him as he slipped down Naruto’s pants at the same time. Naruto couldn’t take it any longer. Shifting his body to kick off his pants he grabbed the pouch that used to be tied around his waist. Vaseline. Sakura had asked him to carry it for her, hers too stuffed with god knows what…it was good for sores…but this wasn’t the case…
“If you’re doing it you might as well do it right.” He pulled Sasuke over him before he could say anything and locked their lips once more. The friction between their waists made him rub against Sasuke like mad, being hindered by the boy’s remaining clothing. “Mmmh…T-take it off-f-” Naruto’s voice wasn’t even controlled by him anymore.
Sasuke panted, his eyes unfocused as lust took over all of his senses. He had the boy under his mercy, and possibly vice versa as his once rival stood before him nearly naked. Soon afterwards, he didn’t hesitate but to untie the knot of his bow, letting the cloth around his waist fall softly to the ground.. Reaching out a pale hand he touched Naruto’s flustered face for a split second before he trailed his wet tongue agonizingly along the boy’s neck, then even lower to the nipples until he was face to face with the boy’s soft stomach, marked by the Kyuubi’s seal.
“..I’m not going to know how to be...gentle…” he whispered before grabbing the boy, making them tumble against each other on the wet grass below. They were surely to soil both of their clothes then but the raven-haired boy hardly gave a care at that moment. He held onto the blonde’s waist tightly, his eyes still level with the boy’s belly as he dipped his tongue into the boy’s navel. Not giving a chance for the blonde to respond, he began to lick and suck on the tender flesh there, teasing the area of where the seal was marked. Hearing the soft whimpering sounds of Naruto caused the tightness of his pants grow bigger as he untied the buckle of his own pants, slipping them down a bit… He looked into the blonde’s eyes then again, feeling desperate….SO desperate to the point where he felt he would rip the blonde apart with this sick, sick obsession…
“I don’t want…your gentleness…” Naruto couldn’t continue the phrase…hell, he could hardly think. He raised his hand to Sasuke’s face and moved the strands of ebony hair, now slightly damp, out of the pale boy’s eyesight. He couldn’t stop caressing that face, it made his hands tingle and burn, and consequently pulled it towards his in agony as he shut his eyes to kiss him.
The pleasure was making him dizzy…it made him feel so alive and pained at the same time. “Can we go somewhere less out…in the open?” he managed to utter as Sasuke pressed his groin harder against his.
Sasuke kissed back violently biting the lip nearly drawing blood, pushing the blonde further against the ground. His hands were digging into the blonde’s sides, certain to leave bruises. At this point, even if the boy wanted to run away from him, Sasuke knew he wouldn’t let that happen. He was already far too gone into the depths of passion to control himself, even if that meant he was going to force the other.
Ripping down the rest of the boy’s boxers, he gulped when he saw the erect member there… He grunted in approval as he roughly grabbed Naruto close to him, with the boys legs wrapped around his own waist so he would not fall. Then he stood up, and groaned when he felt his clothed over member rub against the blonde’s. Trembling, and half hobbling from pleasure, he fortunately found a secluded area for the two of them not too far away, trees and thick bushes hiding most of its view.
Naruto felt his face flush even more and fell limp in the other’s grasp and wrapped his legs tighter around the young Uchiha’s waist.
Why…why did Sasuke mean so much to him? Or rather, how come he felt so inseparable from him? The time far from Sasuke had been so painful…the emptiness had been swallowing him…especially at night.
The ground wasn’t damp this time, but the grass was thick and scruffy under his back. Things were definitely more heated now, Naruto gasped as he felt Sasuke’s length rub against his, warmth passing through the cloth and he moved decisively and quick. Naruto’s legs now sagged at Sasuke’s sides as his head twisted back and forth sideways.
His hands now grabbed the Uchiha’s pants to tug him closer…as physically close as possible. But his impatience was growing and he was now thrashing against him. He rolled them over on the side and hovered above Sasuke, who hadn’t expected the swift movement. The blonde was now bucking frantically into his crotch and kissing him all over his face.
Sasuke groaned, hastily grabbing the boy’s waist as he bucked his hips upwards roughly in an erratic fashion. He shifted until he was in more of a sitting position, with Naruto still thrashing on his lap. Hissing profanities rather incomprehensively, the Uchiha teen quickly slid down most of his pants until his hardened erection became visible. He could hear a light gasp from the blonde but was not surprised…after all, this was the first time they ever saw each other’s ever so private parts of the body this closely. However, he wasted no time before he crushed their heated members together violently, ripping a surprised yell out from the blonde’s throat. He grabbed hold of Naruto’s buttocks harshly with one hand as he crushed their crotches as tight as he could, rubbing Naruto’s back with the other, nails brushing. He looked at the blonde’s agonized face briefly before shoving his tongue deeply into the boy’s open mouth, kissing wetly…
Their tongues clashed as Naruto wrapped his arms securely around the other’s neck, the intensity swiping any reason he had left.
It was darker now with the moonlight blocked off by clouds, and all Naruto could hear was Sasuke’s rugged breath mingle with the sound of his moans.
“M-more!” Sweat was dripping down his lower back as his hands now fondled over the other boy’s upper thighs while he sucked harshly on one his nipples. “Take…the bottle…” his voice raspy and thin and he started to move off Sasuke’s waist, panting heavily with excitement. He never felt this enraptured in his life. Was having sex with someone particular supposed to be this thrilling?
“N..Naruto…” Sasuke groaned out, before he threw the blonde hard against the ground, nearly giving the blonde a concussion. Taking the bottle with trembling fingers, the dark nin took a nipple between his teeth and sucked on it until it turned red, raw and swollen. With a soft kiss on Naruto’s whimpering lips, Sasuke popped the bottle off clumsily as he coated his fingers with its essence. His eyes had changed color as the sharingan returned to his eyes, and he stared dangerously into the blonde’s blue orbs, a maniac’s gaze. He pried open the smaller boy’s legs without hesitation as he roughly shoved a finger in the supple hole. Although Sasuke had no experience doing any of this…he had the determination and the will to make it work…
Naruto suppressed a cry as he felt the finger jab into him…so strange…but…he wanted it. The way Sasuke said his name…just scorched him like fire. Things suddenly felt dangerous…more than the times they would be throwing punches at each other…and Sasuke’s eyes made the hair on his neck rise. Was it ever possible that he could want this so bad?
All this time during his pursuit of Sasuke he couldn’t help noticing it was dreadfully one-sided…maybe…he loved him too much…or…they were just different?
He couldn’t stand this anymore…the need of feeling closer had always driven him after Sasuke, and now he was with him…How could he make him stay though? It seemed hopeless…but he just couldn’t lose that hope…his trust in Sasuke was unswayable.
More fingers were being inserted as something suddenly hit his mind like electricity. He exclaimed as he grabbed the Uchiha’s head and fisted his hands in his hair, “Gods!”. It hadn’t been expected.
Sasuke slightly flinched when he felt the boy grab harshly at the roots of his hair but his expression remained the same. Forcing the fingers off his hair, Sasuke entwined his fingers with the blonde’s as he lurched them both forward. Sasuke’s strong thighs kept the blonde’s legs apart from closing as he jabbed a third finger in the boy’s warmth, mercilessly thrusting.
Giving out a growl of impatience, he shifted them both again, taking Naruto’s writhing body to place the boy’s back against his chest. He waited for a bit until he thrust all three fingers in yet again, drowning the boy’s cries with a deep-throat kiss…a kiss so hard and deep Sasuke felt his jaws would dislocate if he pried open the blonde’s mouth even further… He moaned as he felt the boy’s buttocks rub repeatedly against his engorged penis. At this point, Sasuke was brutally scissoring his fingers into Naruto’s wet hole, which stretched and clenched around them… Ah…the night was filled with the smell of sex…
This current movement of his fingers was clearly over-whelming the blonde, who was puffing and responding to the stimulation he gave him. He wanted to be inside Naruto, who wanted more…much more, he wanted Sasuke to become one with him and there was no turning back…
“..Keep your legs open…” Sasuke whispered gutturally, licking the shell of Naruto’s ear before taking a bit of it into his mouth. With that said, Sasuke withdrew his fingers before using the rest of the bottle, the droopy liquid all over his hands. He panted heavily before coating his aching erection, making it smooth and glistening under the moonlight that had shone upon them yet again. He placed the blonde on his lap tightly before wrapping his strong arms underneath Naruto’s thighs, then began to knead the boy’s bottom side apart with slippery fingers. Aiming the head of his swollen member into the entrance, Sasuke roughly pulled the boy’s backend downwards as it began to slide into the warmth…
Naruto choked on his breath as he felt Sasuke, hard, but also soft and slippery. It was seriously…engrossing. How it interfered into his body…initially ripping but then giving the sensation of holding something too big, painful but not in the real sense of pain as it stretched him. Naruto’s eyes were gaping, riveted, and he was stiff as Sasuke rapidly pushed into him.
Desire was consuming him however, and his shaking hands frantically urged his…lover? to move. But how was this going to mean anything if Sasuke didn’t tell him how he felt… “Sasuke…Sasuke…love me…love me.” His voice echoed in repetition as the raven-haired boy pounded deeper within him. Meanwhile his mind was being blinded by light, rather than thoughts being erased when they were touching before.
What was left? It seemed as if he was going somewhere higher, in a totally separate place…where is was just him, grabbing desperately to Sasuke. A part of me… He panted as he lost his breath.
Sasuke could hear Naruto’s desperate cries and words of encouragement as he lost himself in the overwhelming sensation…But as soon as he heard those words he felt a stab of pain within his heart, as it brought back the memories that he tried to forget along with the bonds he vowed to break….Just what were they both becoming…How was it that he could have allowed this person to take control of him like this…How..
He felt his body becoming stiff before he regained his senses, slipping out until he felt his hard shaft enveloped only by the tip…then visciously impaling into the blonde as hard as he could onto him. He could feel Naruto’s body spasm around him as he heard the boy’s passionate moans each time he propelled inwards… For some reason this wasn’t enough….he wanted more….so much more from Naruto… Biting his lip until blood was drawn, Sasuke withdrew his length for a split second before he shifted the blonde so they would face each other. Then, with a sharp snap of hips Sasuke slammed brutally inside, feeling Naruto’s body trembling then as they fell against the wet grass tumbling… It was then that Sasuke realized, that he was going to utterly rip the boy apart inside and out, and rob him of all of his dreams… and while he could see that Naruto’s love for him was pure, his love was not; it was sick, dark and now undeniably possessive…
If there was any pain, Naruto couldn’t feel it, except in the inside, where he was still calling for Sasuke to come back, to not leave him behind…and alone. He was now gazing up intensely as Sasuke was moving above him, his face dark, but his eyes gazing haughtily into his. Who was this? All he could hear now was his pulse beating in his ears as his body moved up and down…blood dripping on the ground….
“I…Hgh!..” he was cut off, the sound of flesh against flesh so loud against his ears. “I would do anything…for you…argh…Why can’t…you stay with me!?” Don’t you realize…?
Sasuke continued relentlessly as Naruto’s body clashed against his.
“Do you know…why…my dream can’t come true?” He suddenly questioned Sasuke, whose head was now above his shoulder as he breathed into blonde’s ear, intoxicating his mind even further.
Sasuke grit his teeth harder and shut his eyes tightly, truly not wanting to hear those words coming out of the blonde’s lips… He knew he shouldn’t let those words disturb him so much…yet it felt as if they were piercing right through his already battered soul. Instead of replying back, Sasuke eyed the boy darkly before gripping hard into Naruto’s hair, nearly ripping the roots right out before he leaned down, shoving his tongue as far as it would go into the boy’s mouth.
It was as if he was unconsciously trying to shut the boy up….to make the blonde forget…and only to pay attention to the sickening pleasure they were both succumbing under. He could see that he was nearly gagging the blonde…though it only urged him to spread apart the boy’s legs as wide as they were physically capable, over his shoulders.
He could hear the pained shouts of the blonde as slammed as hard as he could into Naruto, blood trickling down Sasuke’s pulsing member…. Their hips tightened in reflex until he lifted Naruto’s limp body upwards, placing the boy on his lap once more before Sasuke pushed both of them against a nearby tree stub… brutally entering him still. It wasn’t going to be long until Sasuke would lose himself…he felt his end draw near as he continued suffocating the blonde with his viciously stabbing tongue…
More and more…Naruto’s body was no longer even able to respond…his heart beat was going unbelievably fast…Sasuke’s tongue was the only answer the Uchiha wanted to give him. How come…
Each time he felt the raven-haired boy hit his prostate the world seemed to vanish as he ferociously began to kiss Sasuke back again.
Yeah…the bastard was pounding him violently…but seeing the boy react to him just pleasured him more.
You think you are hurting me now? This isn’t what hurts me…
When his mouth was finally freed from the assault, Naruto began biting on Sasuke’s neck, licking the soft skin that seemed amazingly perfect.
He began whispering in the Uchiha’s ear things that certainly would have made the kid Sasuke used to be blush like a school girl. Instead the heavy breathing and banging against Naruto’s body only increased. It was approaching…the light was intensifying…taking over his mind.
Sasuke fluttered his eyes open then, though half-lidded, his entire expression in an agonizingly blissful state. The words the blonde were speaking into his ear nearly made the raven-haired teen choke, as he could now feel his thrusts losing control… “Fuck!..” he managed to hiss out with pleasure, feeling Naruto crush his arms arm around him with all his might…
At that moment, Sasuke wished nothing more than forget about all the pains of his world…and being able to lose himself in this pleasure forever. He angled his head then, to be able to fully witness the blonde’s expression for they would soon reach climax…. Even if he couldn’t give Naruto what he desired the most, the dark nin hoped that at least he would forgive him…forgive him of pouring out this forbidden desire all onto him..
Wasting no more time, he roughly grabbed Naruto’s erection with his pale glossy hand, rubbing it up and down vigorously. He could witness now vividly under the brightness of the moon, his penis so engorged in size it was barely recognizable, and Naruto was hammering himself onto it with everything he had…
Naruto’s words were incoherent now and his eyes were unfocused as his head wobbled as he fiercely grabbed Sasuke thrusting one hand in his hair and the other down his back.
How could he describe that moment…or climax, as they call it. Sasuke’s face flashed in his mind, but it wasn’t this Sasuke. It was the one he held onto, the one that had been at his side.
It wasn’t the same, but it still was…that Sasuke was always his, no matter how things changed, or went on… One thing he had understood…but he decided to ignore it. He loved Sasuke, and that’s all that mattered now. The younger Uchiha would never forget him…he could kill him ten times over and avoid him continuously…but the feelings Naruto had for him weren’t going anywhere.
Of that he was sure. Sasuke would always be the person he admired. The one he’d follow…forever.
Sounded like an idealization…but Naruto knew it wasn’t. His Sasuke was still in there, as well as the present one repressed it. The pain he saw in Sasuke was simply too much…someone as vulnerable…to cope with normally.
It’s really not your fault…
“Please…stay safe…” he said shaking against Sasuke’s lips, his forehead against the other’s. He knew Sasuke would leave him. This time he wasn’t going to fight. Rather, he was going to wait for him. Eternally if he had to. In the meantime, he’d strive to make that waiting shorter. He’d protect his dream as long as he had to, even if it was slipping away from him…risking to disappear in solitude…
When Sasuke felt the boy’s entrance spasm erratically against him, he knew at that moment that Naruto had reached his limit. He felt the explosion of the blonde’s essence, coating both of their stomachs…but even then, Sasuke held tightly onto the Naruto’s waist, still brutally pushing himself into him. He could see that Naruto was completely powerless then, having no more strength to respond back to their lovemaking, looking more like a limp rag doll. The boy merely hitched, his mouth agape as Sasuke banged beyond the hypersensitive nub of his prostate then…It took Naruto’s trembling voice, whispering the last few soft-spoken words against his ear, which caused the raven-haired teen to explode, his semen bursting deep within Naruto in a one last powerful thrust. Sasuke truly felt then, that he would go insane…
“You’re mine…” was all Sasuke could say, as he embraced the blonde then, his powerful hands nearly crushing the boy’s already badly bruised waist… He could see Naruto then, and he was in a much pitiful state, his lips slit and swollen along with welts and bruises marking all over the blonde’s once untarnished body… …What are we?… Sasuke wondered as silent tears marked trails down his pale cheeks… tears holding all the repressed feelings he tried to hide all his life…They both stayed like this for awhile, their bodies sticky with cum and nail marks of blood trickling down upon their backs…showing the signs of their animalistic coupling.
Naruto, now looking up at him, wondered if his heart could take anymore of this. And Naruto began to quiver violently. “Don’t…don’t.” Naruto’s head dropped down. “Why can’t I be enough…why…am I…” his voice died in Sasuke’s chest. His head was throbbing, his whole body was aching, especially his chest, and the frustration kept building up inside of him.
“What are your feelings for me?” Naruto suddenly let out. He actually regretted immediately after asking this, for he feared the answer more than anything… “N-nevermind…forget what I said…” and he turned away from the Uchiha as he cringed and began to stand up as he walked towards the lake wretchedly. Sickness really was the right word to label what he was feeling right now.
Inside his mind was screaming, but he just couldn’t watch Sasuke anymore, especially in that state. What was the point of living anyway? Never had he felt so pathetic for being so dependent on someone. It was he nature being needy of others, but Sasuke was that one person that surpassed all the rest, filling his senseless existence. Why can’t you need me like I do you?
Sasuke angled his head slowly to face towards Naruto’s retreating form, not saying a word. What COULD he say…he couldn’t possibly tell Naruto that he loved him…because this was not love. If love was something resembling how he felt then, perhaps he would understand. He had been apart and rejected from love all his life, too long to the point in which he could not remember the meaning of the word. Love to him was not kind, was not gentle but abusive and something that made one weak. He wished more then ever then, for Naruto to understand this…Couldn’t he understand that chasing someone like him would only result in utter damnation?
He gave out a shaky breath before standing up, fixing his pants. He picked up his bloodied, mud-ridden white kimono as he draped it over his naked shoulders, holding his sword tightly with his other hand. “I should leave….they’ll be looking for me…” he thought, but he felt his gaze focused directly at the blonde, his foot planted hard under the soil beneath.
“My…weakness is you…” Sasuke retorted, insecure yet his voice held strength and clarity.
Naruto who’d been stepping into the lake now fell straight in like…a total moron. The blonde’s thoughts now raced as he emerged his head from the water and stared Sasuke incredulously. “What…is that supposed to mean?” Naruto wasn’t sure if that was actually something good anymore. He didn’t want to be someone that hindered Sasuke, or block the way of the accomplishment of his dream.
All he wanted…ever wanted…was- The Uchiha was now walking towards the lake, holding his sword indolently and crouching near the water’s edge. Apparently he was looking down at the reflection in the water, right in front of his. There was something that looked different in Sasuke - yes, he still had the impassive and irritatingly grim look to him, but there was something in his expression that seemed eased. Naruto then felt lighter too, even if not less desperate. Time seemed fugacious now, and disquiet was building over him. And damn…his ass was killing him…not that he was complaining…
He couldn’t stop staring at Sasuke’s reflection. His breath had gone almost back to normal at this time, but he still felt like he had fallen from the sky. Even if Sasuke was going…he had felt needed. And that was enough for now. One day I’ll be…good enough for you…Sasuke.
He took off his eyes at his own reflection then, his eyes meeting Naruto’s sapphire gaze. The blonde’s eyes had no trace of evil, but innocence and purity…and it sickened the dark nin. Did he feel shame from what they had just done? He wasn’t sure…and perhaps he never will be. He hated himself more than ever for not being able to answer any of these questions…questions he believed he never had to ask himself again after he abandoned Konoha…
“You should know what I mean.” The Uchiha teen whispered coldly as he threw his materials to the rocks nearby and undressed, walking into the lake now towards the blonde. “Why must I be a slave to this…to YOU…” he thought, feeling dizzy from all the mixed emotions flying through his head… The moon glinted eerily still, and even Sasuke had to admit that the boy looked beautiful beneath its light…
Naruto didn’t move a muscle as the Uchiha approached him, almost afraid to breathe. He felt ridiculous as his face turned red now, suddenly shy at Sasuke’s naked body getting close to him in the water . His pale skin look inhumanely white now, and he fought back the urge to touch it. The smell similar to burnt oleander got nearer....
Sasuke wondered if Naruto was playing him. Did the blonde truly not know what he meant by what he said, or considering him a fool? Even if Sasuke could not respond back to exactly how Naruto felt, he had to admit…that never had anybody managed to affect him like so, or be able to arouse him like this.
He cornered the blonde’s body against the deeper edge of the lake, both of them fully naked now as drops of water fell gracefully against their skins. He couldn’t control the urge to hold the blonde to his arms again, nearly crushing the boy’s ribcage. “This has been stretched to its limits…you won’t be able to walk properly for days to come…dobe.” He murmured secretly somehow concerned, taking nimble fingers and gently prying open Naruto’s behind, submerged in water…
Naruto, instead of reacting embarrassed like he would have naturally done, he placed his hand on the back of Sasuke’s head and pressed his mouth against his firmly, giving him a short and oddly intense kiss. He then looked at Sasuke and smiled at him…or rather gave him one of those amused grins…which disappeared as the blonde turned his face away from him.
“You better leave now…” Naruto suppressed every hint of sadness he could from his voice as tears swelled up in his eyes again… having to bear the familiar sort of teasing right when Sasuke was going to leave again…his heart was breaking…
Sasuke stood there, struck for never before did the blonde willingly let him go… The fiery will in those blue eyes was gone, and he could tell that the boy’s spirit was nearly broken. Maybe this was the only realistic form of a relationship they would ever reach…a forever painful struggle of love and hate. Where did they go wrong?… Ever since the day we met… Sasuke conceded, gradually sliding his arms away from the blonde. But most of all, he could not think of a proper way to respond back to the blonde…everything he would say then would have been hypocrisy, contradicting what they had just done with each other…
All he did was stare at the limp form of the broken boy in front of him, before Sasuke was finally able to turn his back, walking slowly away. He felt his throat tighten then, wondering if the blonde was going to stop him yet again…but it never came. He hoped that Naruto would now understand the reasons to why he tried to break their bond; something that hindered his goals and their dreams. Perhaps this was for the best…
He had finished dressing then, though his back was still turned to the blonde. He knew he would never forget this day, something that was to forever be etched into his memories…Was this truly goodbye..?
The more Sasuke stayed the more Naruto felt he was going to miss him…so he might as well send him away himself before he really felt…pathetic.
“I’m not giving up on my dream, teme. One day you’ll fucking need me, and I’ll protect you forever. ”
He felt more clear-minded now, and pulled out of the water as he brusquely put back on his clothes. He grabbed the stone of his necklace in his hand and took one last look at the brunet. “I’m yours as well…Sasuke. I’ve always been.”
“I…do acknowledge that you love me..” Sasuke managed to croak out, though his voice remained steady. “And this might be the last time…that we will see each other alive.” He finished, pessimistic yet believing these words as he gripped tightly onto his sword. He crooned his head towards Naruto’s dressed form then, but quickly looked away…wondering if this was the last time he will ever be intimate with someone, as he had with the blonde. The dark nin still carried an iron heart, years of training from his ambitions was proof of that. Nothing was to stand in the way of his goals…but this boy before him had managed to crack the barrier, even just a bit. He looked at the blonde’s lips then, swollen and tattered, feeling an urge to claim it deeply once more just like he had done previously…yet controlled himself.
“I told you, I’m not giving up,” he said sententiously as his eyes narrowed heatedly at Sasuke as he pondered heavily those words. Why did the bastard have to come so close to him, he thought feeling his exasperation rise, especially after hearing him say the sort of things Naruto despised most, and struggled to resist the temptation to punch him across the face.
“You’re crazy if you think I’ll just let you throw your life away,” he finished angrily, and began walking resolutely away from the brunet…
Sasuke closed his eyes then, mysteriously not feeling the urge to retort back. Slowly but surely, the Uchiha teen began to walk away from the blonde, but only managed a few hesitant steps before stopping. They both stood like that for awhile, as if they couldn’t bear to leave one another. It wasn’t until Sasuke felt angry eyes intensely staring back to his form that he felt his nerves being jolted back to its original senses. It was clear…that the blonde couldn’t seem to leave just yet either….something was missing.. something…
And everything happened so fast, for within a lightning speed, the raven-haired teen was behind Naruto then, causing the breath to hitch up the blonde’s throat.
“Sas-“ Naruto began, though barely having a chance to finish before Sasuke had the boys lips sealed in a deep kiss, pale fingers tilting the boy’s chin towards him. He felt the blonde’s body becoming limp and powerless against him then, as Sasuke took the initiative to explore his mouth thoroughly with an arm around his waist. The kiss remained surprisingly gentle and soft, deeply contrasting the brutal ones they shared only moments before... But just as quickly as it had come, Sasuke pulled away with a sharp smack of lips, a small trail of saliva connecting their chapped and swollen mouths. He looked into the blonde’s blue eyes then, staring at him as in sad expectance…
“Goodbye…Naruto…” he whispered, inches away from Naruto’s lips…then letting go, as he began to steadily walk into the darkness of the forest. It was as if the forest was consuming him, his body slowly disappearing bit by bit, burning… But secretly within his heart, he knew this was not to be the last time, for at that moment, he felt the strings of fate, entwining them both together…
Naruto clenched his chest as he felt something rip away from him, once again. The pain or tears never sufficed, only that this time, he had a thought that consoled him. You’re mine… Just remembering those words made him dizzy. Even if Naruto still hadn’t got exactly what he wanted, in a way he had. Say that Sasuke were never to come back to him again, he still had these moments in his heart.
When he finally reached the village, he decided to drop by at the Hokage’s office after changing his battered clothes... He wondered if he should let Sakura in on the…feelings he had for Sasuke. For some reason, he had the impression that she was already aware of them since some time. Sai as well…
There was Tsunade and Sakura, bustling over papers and stacks of folders. “Naruto!! There is something I have to show you!! Come here…HURRY!! ” Sakura said immediately, her face struck with fear, her fingers even trembling as she roughly grabbed at the papers… Tears seemingly brimming at the corners of her eyes…
“What is it?” Naruto croaked out brokenly, his heart skipping a beat in sudden panic his hands balling up into fists. Sakura now handed him a paper written in difficult kanji and on yellow-old paper. “Secret jutsu” was written at the top. After he read through something in it sounded familiar to him. Without a word, Sakura immediately crushed another paper into Naruto’s hand, a report from their mission when they had gone to retrieve Sasuke with Team Yamato but he had managed to escape…
He looked at a part which was underlined and his eye’s shot open as he realized what it all meant.
***
When Sasuke managed to reach his camp, he was not surprised to be met with the faces of his distressed group, their expressions rather showing confusion and irritation. Karin’s head was the first to poke up from her current position, her knee drawn up tightly into her chest, her eyes gleaming in anticipation at the sight of the dark nin’s return.
“Sasuke where the hell have you been? We’ve been waiting for you for god knows how long!!” Suigetsu yelled out, growling back at Jugo who grunted awake at the sound of his loud voice. He swore under his breath and skidded rather clumsily off to the side, trying to dodge Jugo’s aggravated punch from hitting him.