I've got a lot of decisions to make en route to figuring out what the next phase of my life will be. I'm getting ready to start sending out inquiries to soap opera writing agents next week and I have an interview for a job as executive assistant to the vice-president of news at Lee Media a big Midwest publishing house. I want the job, but what I ( Read more... )

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I took the day off from work today because I needed to detox my life, my mind and body to figure out what the heck I'm doing here. I hate my job, I know I say that a lot, but I do. But I like my salary and benefits. However that isn't enough to make me want to spend all day talking and learning about munitions, land minds and bombs. It's all so ( Read more... )

Wow Becca I feel you on the not really doing what I want to do, but you know what? Starting today, this very afternoon, I'm going to do something about it. Instead of sitting on my dime store couch feeling sorry for myself because I don't have anyone to hang out with here, I'm going to write. And not just journaling, which I guess I do a lot of ( Read more... )

Wow I see it's been a busy week. Becca's been fighting floods. Courtney, who gets married to a living breathing man tomorrow, came out as a faux lesbian, and Natalie...well Natalie has been marching to the beat of her own drummer (Serial Killer Quizzes and Communist little brothers? Not a big fan of Lizzie McGuire were you?) I'm moving into the ( Read more... )

My recent fall off the wagon has resulted me deciding to stop counting days like some obsessed cigarette (or worse) addict desperately waiting for the last drop of chemical to leave my system and thus render me cravingless. So now I'm just committed and that's all there is to it. I walked a mile on the track Sunday, and I'll be doing a mile today. ( Read more... )

Well guys I crashed and burned yesterday (Thursday). After work I gave into my cravings and ordered some carbs at a restaurant. It happened after my workout ironically. I made myself go workout, because my usual warped logic is "today's my last day at work, let's treat myself by not working out!" If I can ever just stop seeing working out as the ( Read more... )

Wow, I've wanted to cheat on this damn diet all day, but I haven't! Now if I can just get through this afternoon and evening! I'm not tripping, I haven't had any bread, sugar, potatos, french fries, et al since last Saturday night, so I'm proud of myself, but I'm just not quite ready to cheat.

I'm hungry. I'm so hungry. I want to cheat, but I'm not, I'm going to go to sleep hungry, then go the cafeteria at work and an omelete and a diet Pepsi. I can do this.

Today is Day 4, actually it's then end of Day 4, and I can tell I've lost weight. I've had a cold for a couple of days, so that's probably helped since I haven't had much of an appetite lately. Anyway now I'm trying to get ready to jump start my writing career again. I have until Saturday to get a script together for Bravo's Situation Comedy ( Read more... )