Comments | j4: Is this thing on and on and on

Is this thing on and on and on

Feb 06, 2015 23:37

It's been so long since I've posted anything of substance that I've basically forgotten how to do this. HOW DO I EVEN LIVEJOURNAL. So I'm just going to type and see what comes out, and then post it and then feel awful about it for a while and be avoidant about looking at the comments and oh you know how it goes ( Read more... )

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j4 February 16 2015, 23:13:42 UTC

*hugs* thank you!

pentamer February 7 2015, 22:08:31 UTC

I always think of you, and the above of you, when I hear the song below.

It's always a kind of injury, love, but sometimes a wonderful one. It's sickening to see the internet has shit over language; rolling news shit over the enlightenment; Dawkins, Churchland and their ilk shit over humanism; imported, positivist, legalistic neo-calvinism shit over religion; the left and right conspiring to shit over mercy; medium-equivalantism shit over literature; imported individualist liberation libertarianism shit over shared ecstasy and the collective unconscious ( ... )

j4 February 16 2015, 23:20:27 UTC

Oh goodness, I'm sorry for not replying to all this sooner, but it's the same wanting-to-say-everything-and-ending-up-saying-nothing (Original Fail is inherent in everything at every level, it's probably fractal). Thank you for the words and the songs! I always loved 'Hello'. Life _is_ a strange thing, isn't it, but I don't think I have a clue how to use it yet. Maybe that's a good thing.

I wish I could talk to you properly some time. You make so much sense of things and it feels so much more... authentic? [not sure what the word I'm looking for is but that's close enough for this time of night] ... than when I try. :-}

pentamer March 1 2015, 23:49:01 UTC

I like the sound of Original Fail, it's theology for our time ( ... )

pentamer March 2 2015, 00:00:21 UTC

This is what I was reminded of ( ... )

rysmiel February 8 2015, 16:41:20 UTC

Hearing from you is appreciated, and I hope you can find this positive.

(Actually being Hamlet would not strike me as that appealing, either, even if it would let you counterblast Prufrock most effectively.)

j4 February 16 2015, 23:29:22 UTC

Thank you. *hug* It is positive.

I can't think of anybody in Hamlet who I'd actually want to be, though solving that question ("where can we live but Hamlet?") reminded me to dig out my tape of "Valtemand and Cornelius are Not Well At All", which it turns out is not what it says on the tin, because at some point I taped over it with "All That Fall".

So, anyway, I had a new year's resolution to actually try to reply to email rather than being chronically cowardly about post-awkwardness un-awkwardifying, but I seem not to have managed it yet. Maybe this will help chip away at a bit of the ice? I'm sorry I am rubbish. :-/

hairyears February 9 2015, 08:38:18 UTC

Long-form internet: it's still here, and the numbers are picking up again on LJ.

Good to see you back.

j4 February 16 2015, 23:31:24 UTC

Thank you!

It's not just the longformness, though, it's the picturelessness, the adfreeness, the weird obsessiveness, the actually-made-of-people-ness. All that seems to have gone underground. I guess, being of the badgery persuasion, I should just start digging.

I had a look at one of those old newsgroups (yes, that one) for the first time in ages, the other day. It's still going.

*hug*

hairyears February 16 2015, 23:40:50 UTC

Yes, this.

All this, and our own peculiar social sett.

And *that* group? Every few years I look in on it, recognise a few familiar faces - with dismay: "You're *still* here?" - and move on, silently. The handle I had in those days is long gone, deleted and purged... And recycled by some clever young man who will be terribly, terribly embarrassed when he discovers the baggage attached to 'his' rather dated name. It's actually more embarrassing, not less, that some of it is quite well-written, orang-utans in ill-fitting shirts and all.