i've been getting alot more days and hours at work so that is good ( Read more... )

there are so many things running through my head right now and i haven't a clue why. i feel almost lost. i've been hanging out with alot of old friends lately and its made me feel all strange inside. i dont know why, its weird. i dont even know how to describe it. there are so many things that i dont like in my life but at the same time there are ( Read more... )

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you are cold. and tonight, i am colder. your ways have rubbed off on me and i have taken them further. not talking for hours is the best feeling. you dont know what i am thinking and you haven't a clue how i feel. its like being you. shut out and withdrawn. its almost easier. jaw clenched, eyes half open, i dont even matter. you would think that ( Read more... )

Last night we talked about how we don't talk, and it was the best talk we've ever had. I can't get enough of you and when we really connect like that it reminds me why ( Read more... )

i thought i was going to lose you last night as you got up, said "i dont know" and walked away. I bit my lip and fought off tears, shocked and scared I had nothing to say. A world of miscommunication slapped us in the face last night and it was an eyeopener i suppose. I can't help the way I feel about things especially when you only tell me half ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish i had the answers to life, but sometimes i really don't. life would be so boring if you had the answers but it would be easier. i just wish i knew what i wanted right now. i have inner demons i am batteling with hardcore.. murr.

I'm sitting on a blanket in the sun, with a dear friend listening to Chombichrist, talking about life and attempting to do some homework and I feel content. yes, content for these 15 minutes when life is biting me in the neck.

It's a very strange feeling to have every person you've ever had sex with in the same room. That happened to me last night and I got really uneasy, but I just chose to laugh at the irony. I saw grant for the first time since it all ended and that was wierd, but it was cool too cause hes a cool person as a friend and I kind of miss him in that sense ( Read more... )

If only I could get through to you ( Read more... )