I have so many feelings right now that I have to keep writing I just want a hug again a kiss again and I can't bear this. Like it's so weird I am normally on a more personel level with him I tell him everything but right now I don't think he even wants me to talk to him when I try I get short answers and he kind of gives me an attitude. But what ( Read more... )

Well i'm doing it. The thing I have dreaded my whole life yup could you guess what it is taking a break with someone I love. It's hard because I know I love him and you can't just get over someone that easy unless you never really loved them. But yea I am leaving school early today I am fine right now but I dont think I will be able to handle it if ( Read more... )

My goodness why should I bother trying I hate this. I spend all week worrying about his needs worrying if he is ok just simply kiss his ass and I say one thing and all of the happiness I was having has to turn into downess. I am quite sick of this all it does is make me ask myself why do I put up with so much just to get hurt a few days later my ( Read more... )

Well last night went to the fashion show it was ok yea then came home watched a good lifetime movie in the process of that I called emile and everything went downhill from there. I'm really sick of this I must go throught this about three times a week but thats what happens when you date someone who doesn't think their shit stinks. Yea so I am in ( Read more... )

Well thanksgiving was good the first ever quiet thanksgiving I have ever had but I lost my cell phone and my mom said she is not buying me another one but whatever I will worry about that later. I went shopping yesterday I got ericas present and thats it. This year was really hard to shop but yea I dont know what I am going to get emile I need more ( Read more... )

Well there is no practice today but I will go to the black people meeting now it should be interesting I am kinda happy that I finally get to go I kinda want to go to cheer practice but you know coach prolly had other things to do. Lifes not really that interesting lately thats why i am kinda short for words. I just had an interesting conversation ( Read more... )

The world is a bitch I have come to learn over the past few days yea the world is trivial cant take a joke and tells you what you should and should not do again I say fuck the world yea never mind the world puts you into a lot of shit and does not even confess up to the shit it put you into because the world is always right and trivial the world is ( Read more... )

Yay its finally november great then the most romantic holiday comes NEW YEARS EVE!!!!!!!!!!!1111 YAY ( Read more... )

Well well well today we had coaches baby shower which was ok she was surprised blaze blaze the whole nine yards after that we did our basketball chants and yada yada that was ok also but then we get to stunting and yea I love it how I go for one day and I hear people say that the stunt is not good enought nevermind it was good enough all those ( Read more... )

Well lately I am getting problems day by day emile is just pissing me off he is forever asking me for money and he works two jobs what the hell does he need to ask me for money. Like today for example he was like do you have any money and I was like no and he says I was hoping u had 6 dollars so I can order pizza now why the hell would I give hime ( Read more... )