Journal Entry 6
Sorry I haven’t written for a while. I will start to try and write more often, like twice a week or so.
So my whole brother saga is still going on. He left the house and then started blaming me for shit I never even did. He then burst into my room with this big theatric tantrum. First he put me down and belittled me, he made me feel like complete shit. He then said “I have been nothing but a great brother to you for your whole life, and when its your time to step up and be a good brother, you are too selfish to.” What the hell!?
I drove out to his in-laws house countless times in the last couple of months, and they live out in the boonies, its an hour round trip. I woke up at six in the morning to go on crazy adventures with him because he was lonely… I have done everything I could.
I don’t know if I said this in an earlier journal entry, but he asked me if he could have a twin bed in my room, and move in. I thought he was joking at first, but he wasn’t. He was dead serious. So I kind of told him no, but I would sleep on the couch in the living room and he could use my bedroom. Anyway, he thought that my mother told him he could have a bed in my room (which she didn’t). So during his tantrum he says something like. “You might think this is your domain! But I was living in this room for seventeen years before you were even thought of.” Wow… Cool! Right?
Even if my mom DID say he could have a bed in my room, does he really think I outrank her? That I manipulated my family to get him kicked out. Even though no one kicked him out! I told him “No one asked you to leave” and he was like “Oh but I can tell.” Then after he leaves my room, he talks to my mom and is telling her about how I said he couldn’t have a bed in my room and whatever else. She just sat there and let him think that she was ok with it, but I stopped it. My family basically used me as the scapegoat so he wouldn’t be mad at them. Oh well, if they want me to take the fall then I will.
My brother then talked to me a week later and was like “Should we hash this out?” and I asked “Hash what out?” Because I had no problem with him. Then he went into the whole thing. Basically he said that its still my fault, and he still blames me, but he is going to drop it. I told him that I would stay on the couch while he slept in my room, and that I didn’t do anything wrong. He then said. “Yea, but I didn’t want to steal your room.” Well he doesn’t realize that to me, MOVING IN is worse than just borrowing it for a little bit. Oh and the amount of time he was going to stay kept changing as well. First it was two weeks, then it was a month, then it was through the summer. I have a hard enough time sleeping in the summer when its so fucking hot, I don’t want anyone bugging me.
So I broke down and bought the J-Pad Sam Winchester blanket. Even though I really shouldn’t have, it was just one of those things I couldn’t pass up haha. Speaking of J-Pad and Supernatural, there was a convention thing last week, I hate when those happen. I always am chained to my computer. Then I get all jealous that dumb people get to meet him when they don’t respect his art like I do, I deserve to meet him much more than half the people who actually do! I didn’t even watch the videos, because now that angel guy is all up in everything, gosh what happened to that show? LOL. Its just laughable now. I also realize that most of you reading this like the show still, so just ignore this.
Oh, and what is the deal with One Tree Hill? CW is all pushing it as the Brooke show? WTF!? What about Nathan!? What about Haley!? They are the best characters on that show, but Nathan is absent from 80 percent of episodes and Haley has no story line, she just sits on the sidelines and is a pawn for everyone else’s! Put them together and you get Sam Winchester! What is it with the CW wasting great talent and wonderful characters? Anyway, after Luke and Peyton left, Nathan and Haley should have taken their rightful place as series stars, I mean Bethany Joy ALWAYS came first before Sophia Bush in the credits, but NOW they decide to take her down a few pegs? I don’t hate Brooke, I love her, but she honestly doesn’t deserve to be the star of the show over Bethany Joy and James Lafferty, hopefully it won’t work out that way. Wow… I haven’t even watched the last few episodes of the season, they are sitting on my computer right now. I don’t know if I can sit through Jamie being “Cute” and those insufferable Mouth and Millicant scenes! FUCK they suck! And Mouth is not cool, he isn’t, neither is Skillz, but at least that dude won’t be on the show anymore (At least that’s what I heard). I mean Bethany Joy has always been the best actor on that show, and the only time they really gave her anything juicy was the beginning of season five, when Nathan was going through his hard time. Remember the scene when she threw the stuff off the counter and yelled? That was the first episode I ever saw, and I was hooked on Tree Hill, and on Bethany Joy! She can join Jared Padalecki in the “Too Good for CW” group; especially when their shows don’t even use them to their potential.
I am excited about Melrose Place though, I think it was stupid when Katie left Supernatural, and now she gets her own CW show. Not to mention starring in the remake of Nightmare on Elm Street, seems like she is doing well for herself. I have never seen old Melrose Place, but I hope it’s a little more adult than other shows on the CW. Has anyone seen her Maxim photo shoot? Its fucking hot! I will post pictures in the journal either right here or toward the end.
Another girl who is getting me all hot is Bethany Joy (as mentioned above), I mean she has always been hot, but I don’t know. She just keeps growing on me! She is very underrated I think I will post pictures of her as well.
So my ex girlfriend surprised me with a birthday present… Tickets to see Kris fucking Allen in concert!!! OMG I am SO excited! My man crush on Kris has grown over the past couple weeks, he is seriously in the running for second place alongside Randy Orton as my second best man crush. He has had so many photo shoots after winning American Idol… I will post some pictures of him as well. I honestly can’t wait to see Kris Allen! The seats aren’t the best, since she didn’t decide to get them until recently, after she figured out I really loved him. But they aren’t horrible, they are medium.
Anyway, that is it for now. Comment if you read, or if you want to. Until I talk to you guys next time, always stay cool.
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