Unrecognized Sacrifice {drabble}
Title: Unrecognized Sacrifice
Pairing: AKame
Genre: Angst (i guess??)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Jin went over to Kame's apartment to spend his last night unspoken for. As Jin tried to convince Kame he found out what really Kame felt after Jin left him..(i suck at this..i know..read it and you'll understand what im trying to say XD)
Every night feels like heaven when I’m with him. Pleasure and desire fills the atmosphere when we do our thing.
I was so happy that I found him and he found me. I guess that it’s destined that we found each other. I planned on staying with him as long as possible not minding the people around us. I want to share my daily and especially my night life with him.
I know that it is very ambitious and very self-centered but I can’t help it if I love him.
But one thing ruined it all, one silver round ring. It crashed my whole world.
I noticed something shimmering in the dark. To my great shock he was wearing it on his hands. I know that he loves accessories but that is not a simple ring I see. I’m not mistaking.
It is an Engagement ring.
~~~
I heard a knock from my door. Who would be knocking at my door this late. It's almost 2 in the morning.
I opened it.
He rushed in as if he was being chased. I closed the door calmly because I know to myself that I can’t force him physically to get out.
“Can we do it for one last time?” he asked.
He moved closer to me, to close causing every little bit of my body to shiver like hell. It feels like a dash of cold wind rushed at my back.
“NO JIN!!” I moved backwards and felt the cold wall right behind me.
He reached out his arms trying to take hold of my blouse. I reacted upon his action.
He looked at me with eyes stating a shocked Jin. “Why won’t you let me touch you?” He looked so hurt inside. I can’t blame him I feel the same way.
“GO HOME AKANISHI JIN! YOU’RE JUST BOTHERING ME AND I’M IN NO STATE OF TOLERATING YOUR ACTIONS!” I tried to make a convincing tone.
Surely I don’t want him to go home. I want to hold him and never let him go.
I walked away from him trying to stop my tears from falling.
He hugged me from the back. It brought so many memories back. I felt my tears crowding in my eyes but I’m still trying to stop it from falling. I will sure miss his hugs.
I grabbed his hands trying to remove it from its position but his stronger, much stronger.
“LET ME GO JIN!! THIS IS NOT RIGHT!!”
I need to break free.
“Gomen ne Kazuya”
“Your sorry won’t do anything that will help me endure all this PAIN that you left me with!!”
His hug loosened up..
“AISHITERU KAZUYA!!”
“I DON’T NEED YOUR LOVE!!”
I can feel my back getting soaked. Is he crying??
My tears started to fall by itself, it’s uncontrollable.
I wanted to see his face. Is he really crying??
I tried to remove his hands one more time and this time I succeeded. I turned around to see his expression. All I saw was a blank face with tears running down from his eyes.
He looked at me. “Just one more time” He grabbed my wrists and pinned it to the nearest wall.
“JIN WHAT ARE YOU DOING..STOP THIS NONESENSE!!”
He kissed me. I couldn’t resist his tasty tongue and red luscious lips. I can feel my body weakening as seconds pass by.
Why is my own mouth deceiving me right now?? Why can’t I stop??
This is rape isn’t it?? But it is only called rape when the other person doesn’t want it.
I DON’T WANT IT..Or do I??
He removed his tongue from my mouth and made his way down to my neck. Instead of kissing my neck like he used to, he licked it instead. His action made my body shiver.
“That turns you on right??” He grinned devilishly.
He removed his left hands from my right wrist and used it to remove the buttons of my blouse. He was about to get finish when luckily the last button was stuck so he removed right hand from my left wrist.
I remembered the part of his body that makes his body weak by just one touch.
I touched both of his collar bone making him remove his hands from blouse as he fell to his butt. I walked as fast as I can because I can’t run anymore because I’m too weak.
I got the chance to walk across the room and beside the sofa making it my shield.
He stood up and placed an unlikely grin on his face. “Why’d you do that Kazu-chan? Am I not enough?” He walked towards my direction.
“STOP IT JIN!! YOU’RE SCARING ME!!” I said.
“STOP? WHY SHOULD I STOP IM JUST GETTING STARTED” His little grin turned into a little smile.
He is somewhat close so I moved opposite of his direction. He is walking towards the front of the sofa as I walk at the back side of the sofa.
“Come on Kazuya..I know you want to..Don’t play hard to get or else I’ll get rough on you”
“Why are you doing this Jin??”
“Why?? I guess I’m just very hungry..Very very hungry for sexy defenseless little turtles right now”
My heart beat became faster as those words repeat themselves to my head.
“Stop this now Jin..I can’t take it anymore..Im not a toy that you can play with and leave breathless. I have a heart and its already fragile because of you. This pain is too much. I can’t deny the fact that you were once mine and that your getting MARRIED tomorrow."
I can't stop crying. My tears are flowing like crazy. I tilted my head downwards for me to i avoid his intimidating stare.
"Why can't i stop loving you? Why can't i get the courage to hate you after all that you've done to me? Why must everytime I want to move on it's like something is holding me back? Why can't I accept the fact that I won't wake up beside you anymore? Why can't i help myself? I feel so helpless"
I suddenly felt warmth enclosing my body. His hands are around me.
"I have so many things I want to say to you yet i have so little time. I WANT TO DIE!!"
I turned around and hugged him back. I still can't stop crying.
"I don't want to see you walk the aisle with somebody else besides me but I know that you have to be with someone who can take care of you and give you satisfaction and not only pleasure"
His hugged tightened. I wish that time would stop for us.
"I'm sorry Kazuya."
"I love you so much." He added.
He removed his hands from its position and entwine his one hand to mine. I looked at him.
He smiled at me. "Let's go to bed. You need to rest those eyes." he said to me.
I didn't see any sadness in his eyes.
"I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to wake up in the morning and not to see you beside me."
"It's alright i won't leave you. I promise."
He caried me like a bride. He walked towards my room. When he reached my bed he laid me there. He laid beside me and hugged me so tight it felt like Im going to sophocate.
"Close your eyes and go to sleep. When you wake up I'll be right by your side. We will eat breakfast together."
"Ok." Thats all i can say. I know to myself that he won't be there tomorrow.
I fell asleep..
(About 4 am)
~RING! RING! RING!~
I slowly opened my eyes. He wasn't there anymore. I'm right all this time.
Why did i sleep? Why did I let myself fall asleep?
I sat up and took my cellphone which was placed beside my bed. I looked at the screen and saw that Yamapi was the one calling.
"Hello."
"KAZU-CHAN.. WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG TO ANSWER?"
I was startled.
"HUH??" I shouted back.
"JIN..." Yamapi's voice became all weird.
"Don't tell me! I don't want to talk about him nor to talk to him."
He didn't answer.
"Hello Pi..Are you still there??"
"I think it's impossible for you talk to him from now on." There is something wrong with his statement.
"Huh?? I can't understand you. What are you saying Pi? Im scared."
"Somebody called Johnny-san this morning."
"So what?"
"The caller was a guard in a club. He said that he found Jin all drunk last night about 2 in the morning."
"Huh? That's impossible Jin was here last night at that time."
"WHAT?? That's impossible the guard said that when he checked if Jin was asleep...
he saw a broken glass beside Jin's bleeding wrist and Jin was unconcious. " His words are all that i can hear.
"The guard said that he took Jin to the Hospital but when they reached the hospital. Jin was already dead."
I was shocked. I couldn't speak. My heart is beating so fast that it feels like im going to explode again. Tears fell from my eyes.
I can't believe this. Is Pi pranking me?? But why would he do that when he knows that i love Jin so much.
I stood up and left my phone opened in my bed. I change my clothes and took my car keys and my phone still open and run to my car.
"Hello Kazu?? Are you still there?"
I started my car as fast i could and drove my way to the JE building.
I entered Jhonny's Office. Everybody was there. Some looked at me with sad expressions.
People closer to Jin and Me is there and they were crying. My tears fell from my eyes again.
Pi and the other members of KAT-TUN walked towards me and grabbed me and took me outside.
We sat in a long sofa placed in a waiting room.
"This is for you" Pi gave me a letter.
"Who is this from?"
"Jin wrote this just last nighta nd i think you need to read it"
I opened the letter as everybody else is looking at me with teary eyes.
Dear Turtle-chan,
I know that you hate it when I call you that but I think this is the last time im going to call you that cute little pet name.
Im sorry for everything i have done to you. I know that you will never forgive me and that you will hate me forever.
You know that i love you right? I guess you will never accept me back in your life. I just want to tell you that my love for you was never replaced. I wish i could press rewind and go back to our old times where you and I enjoyed each others warm company.
I miss hugging and kissing you. I miss your red lips. Since the day that you stopped talking to me I've always craved for your lips, your tongue and your slender body but i guess i'll never get the chance to touch you anymore.
I know that your mad at me for not telling you the reason why i have to get married. People close to you and me knows the reason but i told them to not tell you because i want to be the one to tell you and maybe get punched by you.
Im going to tell you the truth now. My Otou-san found out that we share same emotions. He told me to find a girlfriend and everybody knows that i wouldn't do that so he decided to find me one instead. He found this girl who was a daughter of a family friend.
Otou-san suggested that we go out a million times and i always say no. He got mad at me for disobeying him. So to my great shock they were already planning our marriage. I started to avoid my family when i found out. One night he called me and told me that he was outside of your apartment together with some of his friends from a yakuza. I'm not with you that time cause you told me you were tired. He said that if i won't say yes to that FUCKING! marriage he will torture you and kill you. I know that he was capable of doing that so i said yes.
I was so lost and so confused. I chose to marry that girl and see you alive and happy with somebody else than to never see you again. I hope that this explained everything.
From, Jin..
P.S. My love for you is true even if i die. I will stay by your side even if you don't want to. I'll be you're angel.
Someday you'll love somebody else that will never hurt you like me.
I feel so stupid. This tears are pure and is only meant for Jin.
I will never love anyone else as much as i have loved Jin.
A/N: This fic really sucks and i know it..Feel free to ask questions if you can't understand it..LOL..I wrote this because akame_koi,sho_setsu, akame0824 , and i decided to make fanfics with Un- as the starting letters for the title.. And now i got the chance to post this..
Pairing: AKame
Genre: Angst (i guess??)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Jin went over to Kame's apartment to spend his last night unspoken for. As Jin tried to convince Kame he found out what really Kame felt after Jin left him..(i suck at this..i know..read it and you'll understand what im trying to say XD)
Every night feels like heaven when I’m with him. Pleasure and desire fills the atmosphere when we do our thing.
I was so happy that I found him and he found me. I guess that it’s destined that we found each other. I planned on staying with him as long as possible not minding the people around us. I want to share my daily and especially my night life with him.
I know that it is very ambitious and very self-centered but I can’t help it if I love him.
But one thing ruined it all, one silver round ring. It crashed my whole world.
I noticed something shimmering in the dark. To my great shock he was wearing it on his hands. I know that he loves accessories but that is not a simple ring I see. I’m not mistaking.
It is an Engagement ring.
~~~
I heard a knock from my door. Who would be knocking at my door this late. It's almost 2 in the morning.
I opened it.
He rushed in as if he was being chased. I closed the door calmly because I know to myself that I can’t force him physically to get out.
“Can we do it for one last time?” he asked.
He moved closer to me, to close causing every little bit of my body to shiver like hell. It feels like a dash of cold wind rushed at my back.
“NO JIN!!” I moved backwards and felt the cold wall right behind me.
He reached out his arms trying to take hold of my blouse. I reacted upon his action.
He looked at me with eyes stating a shocked Jin. “Why won’t you let me touch you?” He looked so hurt inside. I can’t blame him I feel the same way.
“GO HOME AKANISHI JIN! YOU’RE JUST BOTHERING ME AND I’M IN NO STATE OF TOLERATING YOUR ACTIONS!” I tried to make a convincing tone.
Surely I don’t want him to go home. I want to hold him and never let him go.
I walked away from him trying to stop my tears from falling.
He hugged me from the back. It brought so many memories back. I felt my tears crowding in my eyes but I’m still trying to stop it from falling. I will sure miss his hugs.
I grabbed his hands trying to remove it from its position but his stronger, much stronger.
“LET ME GO JIN!! THIS IS NOT RIGHT!!”
I need to break free.
“Gomen ne Kazuya”
“Your sorry won’t do anything that will help me endure all this PAIN that you left me with!!”
His hug loosened up..
“AISHITERU KAZUYA!!”
“I DON’T NEED YOUR LOVE!!”
I can feel my back getting soaked. Is he crying??
My tears started to fall by itself, it’s uncontrollable.
I wanted to see his face. Is he really crying??
I tried to remove his hands one more time and this time I succeeded. I turned around to see his expression. All I saw was a blank face with tears running down from his eyes.
He looked at me. “Just one more time” He grabbed my wrists and pinned it to the nearest wall.
“JIN WHAT ARE YOU DOING..STOP THIS NONESENSE!!”
He kissed me. I couldn’t resist his tasty tongue and red luscious lips. I can feel my body weakening as seconds pass by.
Why is my own mouth deceiving me right now?? Why can’t I stop??
This is rape isn’t it?? But it is only called rape when the other person doesn’t want it.
I DON’T WANT IT..Or do I??
He removed his tongue from my mouth and made his way down to my neck. Instead of kissing my neck like he used to, he licked it instead. His action made my body shiver.
“That turns you on right??” He grinned devilishly.
He removed his left hands from my right wrist and used it to remove the buttons of my blouse. He was about to get finish when luckily the last button was stuck so he removed right hand from my left wrist.
I remembered the part of his body that makes his body weak by just one touch.
I touched both of his collar bone making him remove his hands from blouse as he fell to his butt. I walked as fast as I can because I can’t run anymore because I’m too weak.
I got the chance to walk across the room and beside the sofa making it my shield.
He stood up and placed an unlikely grin on his face. “Why’d you do that Kazu-chan? Am I not enough?” He walked towards my direction.
“STOP IT JIN!! YOU’RE SCARING ME!!” I said.
“STOP? WHY SHOULD I STOP IM JUST GETTING STARTED” His little grin turned into a little smile.
He is somewhat close so I moved opposite of his direction. He is walking towards the front of the sofa as I walk at the back side of the sofa.
“Come on Kazuya..I know you want to..Don’t play hard to get or else I’ll get rough on you”
“Why are you doing this Jin??”
“Why?? I guess I’m just very hungry..Very very hungry for sexy defenseless little turtles right now”
My heart beat became faster as those words repeat themselves to my head.
“Stop this now Jin..I can’t take it anymore..Im not a toy that you can play with and leave breathless. I have a heart and its already fragile because of you. This pain is too much. I can’t deny the fact that you were once mine and that your getting MARRIED tomorrow."
I can't stop crying. My tears are flowing like crazy. I tilted my head downwards for me to i avoid his intimidating stare.
"Why can't i stop loving you? Why can't i get the courage to hate you after all that you've done to me? Why must everytime I want to move on it's like something is holding me back? Why can't I accept the fact that I won't wake up beside you anymore? Why can't i help myself? I feel so helpless"
I suddenly felt warmth enclosing my body. His hands are around me.
"I have so many things I want to say to you yet i have so little time. I WANT TO DIE!!"
I turned around and hugged him back. I still can't stop crying.
"I don't want to see you walk the aisle with somebody else besides me but I know that you have to be with someone who can take care of you and give you satisfaction and not only pleasure"
His hugged tightened. I wish that time would stop for us.
"I'm sorry Kazuya."
"I love you so much." He added.
He removed his hands from its position and entwine his one hand to mine. I looked at him.
He smiled at me. "Let's go to bed. You need to rest those eyes." he said to me.
I didn't see any sadness in his eyes.
"I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to wake up in the morning and not to see you beside me."
"It's alright i won't leave you. I promise."
He caried me like a bride. He walked towards my room. When he reached my bed he laid me there. He laid beside me and hugged me so tight it felt like Im going to sophocate.
"Close your eyes and go to sleep. When you wake up I'll be right by your side. We will eat breakfast together."
"Ok." Thats all i can say. I know to myself that he won't be there tomorrow.
I fell asleep..
(About 4 am)
~RING! RING! RING!~
I slowly opened my eyes. He wasn't there anymore. I'm right all this time.
Why did i sleep? Why did I let myself fall asleep?
I sat up and took my cellphone which was placed beside my bed. I looked at the screen and saw that Yamapi was the one calling.
"Hello."
"KAZU-CHAN.. WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG TO ANSWER?"
I was startled.
"HUH??" I shouted back.
"JIN..." Yamapi's voice became all weird.
"Don't tell me! I don't want to talk about him nor to talk to him."
He didn't answer.
"Hello Pi..Are you still there??"
"I think it's impossible for you talk to him from now on." There is something wrong with his statement.
"Huh?? I can't understand you. What are you saying Pi? Im scared."
"Somebody called Johnny-san this morning."
"So what?"
"The caller was a guard in a club. He said that he found Jin all drunk last night about 2 in the morning."
"Huh? That's impossible Jin was here last night at that time."
"WHAT?? That's impossible the guard said that when he checked if Jin was asleep...
he saw a broken glass beside Jin's bleeding wrist and Jin was unconcious. " His words are all that i can hear.
"The guard said that he took Jin to the Hospital but when they reached the hospital. Jin was already dead."
I was shocked. I couldn't speak. My heart is beating so fast that it feels like im going to explode again. Tears fell from my eyes.
I can't believe this. Is Pi pranking me?? But why would he do that when he knows that i love Jin so much.
I stood up and left my phone opened in my bed. I change my clothes and took my car keys and my phone still open and run to my car.
"Hello Kazu?? Are you still there?"
I started my car as fast i could and drove my way to the JE building.
I entered Jhonny's Office. Everybody was there. Some looked at me with sad expressions.
People closer to Jin and Me is there and they were crying. My tears fell from my eyes again.
Pi and the other members of KAT-TUN walked towards me and grabbed me and took me outside.
We sat in a long sofa placed in a waiting room.
"This is for you" Pi gave me a letter.
"Who is this from?"
"Jin wrote this just last nighta nd i think you need to read it"
I opened the letter as everybody else is looking at me with teary eyes.
Dear Turtle-chan,
I know that you hate it when I call you that but I think this is the last time im going to call you that cute little pet name.
Im sorry for everything i have done to you. I know that you will never forgive me and that you will hate me forever.
You know that i love you right? I guess you will never accept me back in your life. I just want to tell you that my love for you was never replaced. I wish i could press rewind and go back to our old times where you and I enjoyed each others warm company.
I miss hugging and kissing you. I miss your red lips. Since the day that you stopped talking to me I've always craved for your lips, your tongue and your slender body but i guess i'll never get the chance to touch you anymore.
I know that your mad at me for not telling you the reason why i have to get married. People close to you and me knows the reason but i told them to not tell you because i want to be the one to tell you and maybe get punched by you.
Im going to tell you the truth now. My Otou-san found out that we share same emotions. He told me to find a girlfriend and everybody knows that i wouldn't do that so he decided to find me one instead. He found this girl who was a daughter of a family friend.
Otou-san suggested that we go out a million times and i always say no. He got mad at me for disobeying him. So to my great shock they were already planning our marriage. I started to avoid my family when i found out. One night he called me and told me that he was outside of your apartment together with some of his friends from a yakuza. I'm not with you that time cause you told me you were tired. He said that if i won't say yes to that FUCKING! marriage he will torture you and kill you. I know that he was capable of doing that so i said yes.
I was so lost and so confused. I chose to marry that girl and see you alive and happy with somebody else than to never see you again. I hope that this explained everything.
From, Jin..
P.S. My love for you is true even if i die. I will stay by your side even if you don't want to. I'll be you're angel.
Someday you'll love somebody else that will never hurt you like me.
I feel so stupid. This tears are pure and is only meant for Jin.
I will never love anyone else as much as i have loved Jin.
A/N: This fic really sucks and i know it..Feel free to ask questions if you can't understand it..LOL..I wrote this because akame_koi,sho_setsu, akame0824 , and i decided to make fanfics with Un- as the starting letters for the title.. And now i got the chance to post this..