Being so convaluted for so long, it's hard now to tell the difference between balance and apathy, control and lack of emotion.  Honestly, I have never really understood it.  Every time things calm down, I always seem to invent something to fight for or against, just to keep myself moving.  I like caring about things.  I like that tired feeling ( Read more... )

Today was officially random smell day.  Twice today, different times, different places, I walked into an area and suddenly smelled Fort cafeteria cheese pizza.  It was that specific.  And no one had brought pizza into the building.  It was wierd ( Read more... )

I believe in the nowhere man ( Read more... )

If I let you ( Read more... )

Have you ever laughed at a funeral ( Read more... )

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Valentine's day is coming up soon, and shocking as it is, I have amazing plans for that night!  But not in the way you think...

Relson Gracie, as in Gracie Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu, is teaching a two-hour seminar at the West Ashley Jiu-Jitsu club.  I get to spend two entire hours learning under an honest to God Gracie himself!   This guy has been ( Read more... )

Okay, since time is getting short and there's too many schedule conflicts, my birthday barbeque is officially the first Saturday of March.  No, I'm not handing out invitations, mostly because I don't want to do the work, and I'm honestly not that uptight about who comes.  If you're reading my journal, obviously I want you there.  And if you want to ( Read more... )

Things are getting out of hand.  I'm hiding too much.  I'm pretending.  And that's just not right.

I want to do something, but I can't think of what.  I want to assert myself, but all I end up doing is drawing on my hand and writing in my book.  I'm friendly, I'm generally well-liked, but it's not me they like.  They like me being nice to them, turn ( Read more... )

It's one of the most common sayings about writing fiction: "A good writer speaks not in his own voice, but the voices of others."  This sentance seems to imply an unspoken understanding that the creative are by nature not mentally normal.  I mean, you have to admit it is a fact, normal people don't make extrodanary things, they make normal things ( Read more... )