i'm on a diet. i've gained 15 pounds. i have two pairs of pants that fit... they used to be my fat pants. luckily one pair is black so i can finish running this show without having to buy a new pair ( Read more... )

oh my god! my ex-fiance was right..... i'm emo!! fuck!!!

i'm crying. i'm crying over someone who doesn't care at all about me. doesn't even care enough to call or email or to tell any of my friends he says hi. and i'm crying over him. i miss him so much. and no one knows. or the one that knows doesn't care. "he doesn't like you, get over it. you don't live here anymore, get over it. he's so ( Read more... )

i thought about him again. not doug. not the nice guy in my life. the one who toyed me around. god i miss him. his freindship. it's my fault, i let things go too far that night. he said he didn't want things to go far, and i let them. i shouldn have stopped everything, but i didn't. i'm a dumb ass whore bitch. fuck! and there is no one i ( Read more... )

he said he loves me.

help.

went thrift store shopping today. yay! found some cool ass stuff. 2 cool books... i can't remember what they were called. granted they are on the other side of the room... but that is just too fucking far. a pink yosemite park shirt (yes a childs.... i love kids clothes). a teal belt with a giant teal and blue buckle. and the hitchhikers ( Read more... )

don't you hate when you're really hungry and you're craving one meal or one certain food item, and then you get it. and you eat it, but the last bite for some reason tastes like shit? i hope this isn't just a me problem....

i miss a lot of things and people... but i have been thinking a lot about shane gormick lately and i don't know why.... i miss you shane!!

oh! and also last night. i was demeaned to the point where i almost cried and then i almost walked out of the show. but i have two good friends work at the hipp with me. so i bought wine and pokey sticks and they sat and drank and ate with me. and my roomie busted out arrested development, season one, for us to watch. so i am much better now. ( Read more... )

so i shall preface this with that i am a slight dork for those who don't know ( Read more... )