Please don't go...
A journal entry...
Ever since my sister and I were little girls we've shared a room. When we both moved out of my mom's house and got married... we still managed to live only 5 minutes away from eachother. We have our fights... which are not that often... after each fight one of us will call the other as if no fight ever occured. Mostly because of our forgiving personalities and then because my mother raised us to be loving towards all our sibilings... we are all we have.
So then what is this all about... well my only sister is moving to Michigan and I live in California... yes a few hours by plane and sure only about a 30hr drive... but for me it is heart-breaking. Did I think we were going to live 5 minutes away from eachother for the rest of our lives? YES, I DID!! Is it realistic... NOT really. DID I think our kids would grow up together...??? OF COURSE... OK I don't have kids yet but you get where I am going with this. I will definitely miss my neices... they are my heart and my little angels. I will also miss my brother in law... but my sister... I will not know how to funtion without her close to me??
My sister is the eldest... and when my mom died... the crown was passed to my sister... to be the "queen of the family"... but how can the QUEEN leave her kingdom? I also am spoiled because I've been for the most part always surrounded my siblings, aunts and uncles... and little by little we all are moving on with our adult lives. It brings on a nostalgia that is hard for me to overcome. It makes me want to go back to when I was a 5yr old little girl clueless about the world and its many problems... I feared very little because I was naive to it all. I never thought that at 32 I would not have any parents. So I realize... I am not getting younger and I can't worry about things forever... (although it is in my nature to worry) But... what cant I say.. if I can not OVERCOME the NOSTALGIA... I have to EMBRACE IT!
The other night four of us siblings were sitting around after midnight... making up the playlist for my sisters farewell party... and... we listed around 100 songs. All the songs that reminded us of eachother or of our "youth". (Ok I still consider myself to be young but my sisters an old hag!! LOL... Just Joking!!) The songs brought on so many warm memories and so many happy times. I will keep those in my heart forever. I will embrace the bitter-sweet memories.
It is late so I will have to edit... some other time... =)
Ever since my sister and I were little girls we've shared a room. When we both moved out of my mom's house and got married... we still managed to live only 5 minutes away from eachother. We have our fights... which are not that often... after each fight one of us will call the other as if no fight ever occured. Mostly because of our forgiving personalities and then because my mother raised us to be loving towards all our sibilings... we are all we have.
So then what is this all about... well my only sister is moving to Michigan and I live in California... yes a few hours by plane and sure only about a 30hr drive... but for me it is heart-breaking. Did I think we were going to live 5 minutes away from eachother for the rest of our lives? YES, I DID!! Is it realistic... NOT really. DID I think our kids would grow up together...??? OF COURSE... OK I don't have kids yet but you get where I am going with this. I will definitely miss my neices... they are my heart and my little angels. I will also miss my brother in law... but my sister... I will not know how to funtion without her close to me??
My sister is the eldest... and when my mom died... the crown was passed to my sister... to be the "queen of the family"... but how can the QUEEN leave her kingdom? I also am spoiled because I've been for the most part always surrounded my siblings, aunts and uncles... and little by little we all are moving on with our adult lives. It brings on a nostalgia that is hard for me to overcome. It makes me want to go back to when I was a 5yr old little girl clueless about the world and its many problems... I feared very little because I was naive to it all. I never thought that at 32 I would not have any parents. So I realize... I am not getting younger and I can't worry about things forever... (although it is in my nature to worry) But... what cant I say.. if I can not OVERCOME the NOSTALGIA... I have to EMBRACE IT!
The other night four of us siblings were sitting around after midnight... making up the playlist for my sisters farewell party... and... we listed around 100 songs. All the songs that reminded us of eachother or of our "youth". (Ok I still consider myself to be young but my sisters an old hag!! LOL... Just Joking!!) The songs brought on so many warm memories and so many happy times. I will keep those in my heart forever. I will embrace the bitter-sweet memories.
It is late so I will have to edit... some other time... =)