[8/10] Implied Consent
Ehh sorry I've been busy!(chyeah, playing Ragnarok Online and reading fanfics).
Halfway done through the finale for this fic~~~.
Author's Notes below. <3.
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Selca 8: Reset
You drink your beer and you see them sitting on the couch across you. Jaejoong is obviously drunk with his hand on Jessica and Jessica leaning on his arm. She is looking down with her gaze concentrated on his hand, and you are distressed as you look at them. You miss her smile and you miss everything about her, though she is just within your reach.
The hands that used to touch you and give you sensations that you have never felt before are now confined in someone else’s. You look at her face and you look at how beautiful she is again. She is pretty and you eventually acknowledge the fact that she finally has her own prince, which was something you wanted before you found out your own feelings for her.
You take another sip of your drink and you can feel your head hurting already. Eventually you fall asleep and luckily, this party was in your dorm.
You smile inwardly as you dose off to your slumber. At least in your dreams, you can only see her with the person you want to see her with the most. You.
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You feel a cold object sitting on top of your head as you wake up. You then try to see what it is but a hand catches yours, preventing you from touching it. You open your eyes and Taeyeon greets you with a gentle smile with Tiffany looking at you on the side. You are in your room covered with a blanket and your head is hurting from your hangover.
“Get some rest today.” Taeyeon tells you with a warm smile on her face. You then try to sit up but they stop you from doing so.
“Just take a nap for a few more hours, please Yuri?” Tiffany says while they try to push you down to the bed again.
You breathe out from the pain that your body feels and you breathe out while you close your eyes. You want to see her, despite of the fact that she hates you.
“I’m going to get you some soup.” Taeyeon stands up and exits. Tiffany then takes her place and she places her hand on your shoulder.
“Take care of yourself. I understand that you are worried and hurt about her but please do take care of yourself.”
You faintly nod and you want to cry. You miss her again and you want her to be taking care of you. Taeyeon then comes back with your soup and you feel sad for being so helpless in front of them. You take the soup from her, and she gives you a warm smile in return.
“Yuri-ah, stay strong. Hwaiting.” She says in almost a whisper. You weakly smile as you blow a spoonful of your hot soup.
“Go get some rest after you finish, okay?” Taeyeon smiles again while brushing off your fringe. You then become glad you work with such good people.
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You open your eyes and you look at your watch. It is already 9 AM and you are becoming to feel sweaty under your sheets. You feel better than the day before and you decide to go to the restroom and freshen up. As you open the door, you see her looking through the stack of DVDs next to the T.V. and concentrate on going to the bathroom as you know that you do not want her to look at you with such a groggy look on you.
After your shower, you come back and she is looking intently at the screen, obviously trying to ignore your presence. You sit near her and you try to watch the movie with her. To your stamina allows, you constantly find yourself having the urge to hug her and bring the past back. You miss her fingertips that you used to kiss, her blush that she would constantly hide from you when you said something sweet to her, you miss every little bit of her that you find boldness from yourself that you never thought you had, a few moments ago.
“Jessica…” You say as you wrap your arms around her from behind. Her temperature is slightly colder than yours, indicating that you still have your fever.
She tries to struggle by moving your arms away from her but you are too strong for her. Her actions hurt you and you begin to shed your tears.
“I love you.” She stops and you put your body closer to her. “I love you so much that I can’t stand a day without you. Please…come back.”
She does not move or even utter anything and you know that you are losing her. Your head is throbbing from your fever and your heart is bleeding from what is happening. You cry while you hold her and she consoles you by holding your hand and lightly brushing it.
Eventually you lose your energy and you cannot move your arms. Your eyes are beginning to feel heavy and you feel yourself being moved.
“Babo…” she gently tells you.
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You wake up and you see Yoona sitting on the other loveseat across you. You have a blanket over you and she is nowhere to be found.
“Yuri, you really got it bad for her huh? Honestly, I never really thought that I’d see the day.” She tells you with a smirk while flipping through the channels. Eventually she has found something that catches her attention and she puts the remote on the table. “Man, this girl, she looks like Seohyun I swear.”
You look at the television screen and you see the girl’s resemblance to Seohyun. The girl is in the show that Tiffany was watching the other day, with celebrity couples getting married, and doing various missions as they pretend to be a couple. Yoona’s expression seems to change whenever the girl would smile at her fake husband.
You start to become nauseous again so you sit back on the couch where you are while looking at the television show.
“How are you holding up with the whole Jaejoong and Jessica thing?” She asks you while the show goes to commercial break.
The silence is filled with sounds from the television while she waits for your reply.
“Don’t worry, nobody’s here besides Seohyun but she’s taking a shower.”
You chuckle at Yoona.
“I’m surprised that you’re not showering with her.”
“Yeah I know, I’m actually surprised that I chose you over her.”
You let out a small laugh. Moments like these were the reason why you still regarded her as your best friend, despite of the fact that the two of you share quite different personalities.
“Hang in there, everything will get better.”
“Thanks.”
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Three days has passed and you have not seen her at all. Tonight, Tiffany and Taeyeon are sleeping overnight for vocal practice while Yoona and Seohyun went home for a brief holiday. You already finished your dance practice earlier during the day, and you had nothing else left on your agenda. You are now lying on your bed while thinking about your debut that will be happening in two months time. They have not finalized any of the members for your group nor have they given out the name. You think about the things that will happen and you cannot help but to feel slightly anxious about it.
Minutes pass and it starts to rain. You hear footsteps coming from the door but unfortunately, your eyes are too heavy to bother with who it was.
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You hear vibrations coming from your phone and you see the wind coming from the rainfall getting stronger. Thunder sounds from outside that you become startled by how sudden it is. You then check your phone lazily as you see that you have just received a text message from Yoona.
She broke up with Jaejoong.
Your lips quiver from the message and you feel out of breath. You feel as if you are choking as your heartbeat starts to beat irregularly. This was news that you have been hoping for ever since you have heard of them dating.
Another boom of thunder sounds and you hear a faint sound of someone crying. You sit up on your bed and you get out of your room to hers.
You realize that it would make perfect sense for her to be inside. Nobody was supposed to be home when you fell asleep, and you had no idea of her whereabouts initially.
You open the door and you see her sitting at the edge of the bed while hugging a pillow. She is crying and she looks at you for a second before looking away. You understand that she is scared of the thunder, just like how you first night that you held her in her arms as the two of you slept. She needed you, and this time, she needs you again.
You go to her and you kneel in front of her. You take the pillow away from her arms and you can see her tears flowing from her cheeks.
“Jessica…” You tell her as you begin to feel hurt. The fact that she is crying makes you hurt as well.
“Jessica, please, I’m sorry.” She cries while you hold her in your arms. You understand well that you are not the cause of her hurt but you feel responsible for it.
She cries louder and she hugs you tighter.
“I’m here, please don’t cry.” You say while you try to calm her down. Her breathing eventually becomes slower but she has no plans of letting you go. “I’m here now. I promise I won’t leave you.”
During the hug, you feel pain in seeing her cry and you feel her warmth against yours. Her body fits perfectly onto yours and you know that you are calming her down. Eventually she takes a deep breath and then you start to release your grip. But unfortunately she stops you by repositioning your body onto hers and hugging you tighter than before.
“No…”
You do not say anything but you brush her hair in response. You give her a kiss on her forehead and you stay with her.
“Let’s go to sleep?” You smile at her and she weakly nods at you in response.
You lie down on her bed with her using your arm as her pillow. You look at her sleeping peacefully in your arms.
You then feel that things have gone back to the way they used to be again, and that somehow, things have reset.
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So...did you get diabetes? xD <3. Do keep in mind that...this story's not over yet.
I can see that some people are happy because drama came in but I can also understand that some people find the drama incoherent and somehow fabricated to give life to the story. I'd like to say that I did not plan on making it the latter at all. Incoherent, contradicting, frustrating are all flaws of the human psyche and well, in this story, this is exactly what I am trying to get into. Linking it to downfall, sure the feelings are way off and perhaps obsessive to some degree but I seriously think that if I were to accurately depict how a person would act, given the same factors as yulsic in both of the stories, it would be like looking for the loch ness monster. There is no "right" way of showing itbecause everything is relative to an extent. My truth can be different from your truth, and jessica's reasons for her actions may be different from how Yuri perceives it(which is also your point of view). So I would like to present the fact that Jessica MAY be only doing certain things to receive certain outcomes. She says it's because what they are doing is wrong, but is this the whole truth? Maybe, maybe not.
Also, you may think that yuri should have done x, jessica should have done y but keep in mind that irrationality makes someone human. I stand corrected with all the comments given to this fic so far, and I would like to challenge you to go against my thinking. Doing so will perhaps help me revise the upcoming chapters, and of course I will mention you when I do my author's note in the end of this fic.
I understand that they are a bit out of character, but has it ever occured to you that perhaps their assumed characters are just masks that they hide under? I'll let you decide.
Teaser for next chapter: Jae is a tool. Nuff said, son. If I raped you last chapter, then I'm murdering you in the next.
And.you.will.enjoy.it.
then you will go WTF.
Halfway done through the finale for this fic~~~.
Author's Notes below. <3.
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Selca 8: Reset
You drink your beer and you see them sitting on the couch across you. Jaejoong is obviously drunk with his hand on Jessica and Jessica leaning on his arm. She is looking down with her gaze concentrated on his hand, and you are distressed as you look at them. You miss her smile and you miss everything about her, though she is just within your reach.
The hands that used to touch you and give you sensations that you have never felt before are now confined in someone else’s. You look at her face and you look at how beautiful she is again. She is pretty and you eventually acknowledge the fact that she finally has her own prince, which was something you wanted before you found out your own feelings for her.
You take another sip of your drink and you can feel your head hurting already. Eventually you fall asleep and luckily, this party was in your dorm.
You smile inwardly as you dose off to your slumber. At least in your dreams, you can only see her with the person you want to see her with the most. You.
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You feel a cold object sitting on top of your head as you wake up. You then try to see what it is but a hand catches yours, preventing you from touching it. You open your eyes and Taeyeon greets you with a gentle smile with Tiffany looking at you on the side. You are in your room covered with a blanket and your head is hurting from your hangover.
“Get some rest today.” Taeyeon tells you with a warm smile on her face. You then try to sit up but they stop you from doing so.
“Just take a nap for a few more hours, please Yuri?” Tiffany says while they try to push you down to the bed again.
You breathe out from the pain that your body feels and you breathe out while you close your eyes. You want to see her, despite of the fact that she hates you.
“I’m going to get you some soup.” Taeyeon stands up and exits. Tiffany then takes her place and she places her hand on your shoulder.
“Take care of yourself. I understand that you are worried and hurt about her but please do take care of yourself.”
You faintly nod and you want to cry. You miss her again and you want her to be taking care of you. Taeyeon then comes back with your soup and you feel sad for being so helpless in front of them. You take the soup from her, and she gives you a warm smile in return.
“Yuri-ah, stay strong. Hwaiting.” She says in almost a whisper. You weakly smile as you blow a spoonful of your hot soup.
“Go get some rest after you finish, okay?” Taeyeon smiles again while brushing off your fringe. You then become glad you work with such good people.
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You open your eyes and you look at your watch. It is already 9 AM and you are becoming to feel sweaty under your sheets. You feel better than the day before and you decide to go to the restroom and freshen up. As you open the door, you see her looking through the stack of DVDs next to the T.V. and concentrate on going to the bathroom as you know that you do not want her to look at you with such a groggy look on you.
After your shower, you come back and she is looking intently at the screen, obviously trying to ignore your presence. You sit near her and you try to watch the movie with her. To your stamina allows, you constantly find yourself having the urge to hug her and bring the past back. You miss her fingertips that you used to kiss, her blush that she would constantly hide from you when you said something sweet to her, you miss every little bit of her that you find boldness from yourself that you never thought you had, a few moments ago.
“Jessica…” You say as you wrap your arms around her from behind. Her temperature is slightly colder than yours, indicating that you still have your fever.
She tries to struggle by moving your arms away from her but you are too strong for her. Her actions hurt you and you begin to shed your tears.
“I love you.” She stops and you put your body closer to her. “I love you so much that I can’t stand a day without you. Please…come back.”
She does not move or even utter anything and you know that you are losing her. Your head is throbbing from your fever and your heart is bleeding from what is happening. You cry while you hold her and she consoles you by holding your hand and lightly brushing it.
Eventually you lose your energy and you cannot move your arms. Your eyes are beginning to feel heavy and you feel yourself being moved.
“Babo…” she gently tells you.
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You wake up and you see Yoona sitting on the other loveseat across you. You have a blanket over you and she is nowhere to be found.
“Yuri, you really got it bad for her huh? Honestly, I never really thought that I’d see the day.” She tells you with a smirk while flipping through the channels. Eventually she has found something that catches her attention and she puts the remote on the table. “Man, this girl, she looks like Seohyun I swear.”
You look at the television screen and you see the girl’s resemblance to Seohyun. The girl is in the show that Tiffany was watching the other day, with celebrity couples getting married, and doing various missions as they pretend to be a couple. Yoona’s expression seems to change whenever the girl would smile at her fake husband.
You start to become nauseous again so you sit back on the couch where you are while looking at the television show.
“How are you holding up with the whole Jaejoong and Jessica thing?” She asks you while the show goes to commercial break.
The silence is filled with sounds from the television while she waits for your reply.
“Don’t worry, nobody’s here besides Seohyun but she’s taking a shower.”
You chuckle at Yoona.
“I’m surprised that you’re not showering with her.”
“Yeah I know, I’m actually surprised that I chose you over her.”
You let out a small laugh. Moments like these were the reason why you still regarded her as your best friend, despite of the fact that the two of you share quite different personalities.
“Hang in there, everything will get better.”
“Thanks.”
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Three days has passed and you have not seen her at all. Tonight, Tiffany and Taeyeon are sleeping overnight for vocal practice while Yoona and Seohyun went home for a brief holiday. You already finished your dance practice earlier during the day, and you had nothing else left on your agenda. You are now lying on your bed while thinking about your debut that will be happening in two months time. They have not finalized any of the members for your group nor have they given out the name. You think about the things that will happen and you cannot help but to feel slightly anxious about it.
Minutes pass and it starts to rain. You hear footsteps coming from the door but unfortunately, your eyes are too heavy to bother with who it was.
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You hear vibrations coming from your phone and you see the wind coming from the rainfall getting stronger. Thunder sounds from outside that you become startled by how sudden it is. You then check your phone lazily as you see that you have just received a text message from Yoona.
She broke up with Jaejoong.
Your lips quiver from the message and you feel out of breath. You feel as if you are choking as your heartbeat starts to beat irregularly. This was news that you have been hoping for ever since you have heard of them dating.
Another boom of thunder sounds and you hear a faint sound of someone crying. You sit up on your bed and you get out of your room to hers.
You realize that it would make perfect sense for her to be inside. Nobody was supposed to be home when you fell asleep, and you had no idea of her whereabouts initially.
You open the door and you see her sitting at the edge of the bed while hugging a pillow. She is crying and she looks at you for a second before looking away. You understand that she is scared of the thunder, just like how you first night that you held her in her arms as the two of you slept. She needed you, and this time, she needs you again.
You go to her and you kneel in front of her. You take the pillow away from her arms and you can see her tears flowing from her cheeks.
“Jessica…” You tell her as you begin to feel hurt. The fact that she is crying makes you hurt as well.
“Jessica, please, I’m sorry.” She cries while you hold her in your arms. You understand well that you are not the cause of her hurt but you feel responsible for it.
She cries louder and she hugs you tighter.
“I’m here, please don’t cry.” You say while you try to calm her down. Her breathing eventually becomes slower but she has no plans of letting you go. “I’m here now. I promise I won’t leave you.”
During the hug, you feel pain in seeing her cry and you feel her warmth against yours. Her body fits perfectly onto yours and you know that you are calming her down. Eventually she takes a deep breath and then you start to release your grip. But unfortunately she stops you by repositioning your body onto hers and hugging you tighter than before.
“No…”
You do not say anything but you brush her hair in response. You give her a kiss on her forehead and you stay with her.
“Let’s go to sleep?” You smile at her and she weakly nods at you in response.
You lie down on her bed with her using your arm as her pillow. You look at her sleeping peacefully in your arms.
You then feel that things have gone back to the way they used to be again, and that somehow, things have reset.
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So...did you get diabetes? xD <3. Do keep in mind that...this story's not over yet.
I can see that some people are happy because drama came in but I can also understand that some people find the drama incoherent and somehow fabricated to give life to the story. I'd like to say that I did not plan on making it the latter at all. Incoherent, contradicting, frustrating are all flaws of the human psyche and well, in this story, this is exactly what I am trying to get into. Linking it to downfall, sure the feelings are way off and perhaps obsessive to some degree but I seriously think that if I were to accurately depict how a person would act, given the same factors as yulsic in both of the stories, it would be like looking for the loch ness monster. There is no "right" way of showing itbecause everything is relative to an extent. My truth can be different from your truth, and jessica's reasons for her actions may be different from how Yuri perceives it(which is also your point of view). So I would like to present the fact that Jessica MAY be only doing certain things to receive certain outcomes. She says it's because what they are doing is wrong, but is this the whole truth? Maybe, maybe not.
Also, you may think that yuri should have done x, jessica should have done y but keep in mind that irrationality makes someone human. I stand corrected with all the comments given to this fic so far, and I would like to challenge you to go against my thinking. Doing so will perhaps help me revise the upcoming chapters, and of course I will mention you when I do my author's note in the end of this fic.
I understand that they are a bit out of character, but has it ever occured to you that perhaps their assumed characters are just masks that they hide under? I'll let you decide.
Teaser for next chapter: Jae is a tool. Nuff said, son. If I raped you last chapter, then I'm murdering you in the next.
And.you.will.enjoy.it.
then you will go WTF.