Comments | jacquelinetm: Enlighten me, please

jacquelinetm

Enlighten me, please

Sep 06, 2008 17:23

I've been thinking a lot during the past five to six months. I even quit smoking cigs during that time... with no aid from "stop smoking" products. What's strange is that it wasn't difficult for me... even as a heavy smoker for 27 years. I also quit taking Xanax with, surprisingly, no horrible withdrawal symptoms. I haven't been this clean ( Read more... )

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thunderpuddle September 9 2008, 01:39:33 UTC

I want all of you to tell me how you made it when you went though grief and/or depression-- or something so traumatic that you would consider it life-altering. I need to hear how others have coped.. I want to learn more about what we all have gone though.I've had level times, and down times, for as long as I can recall (back to maybe five years old). I had terrible problems and anxiety all through school, and the depressive portion got worse somewhere in there. I may have been about ten. For many years I just sort of became completely solitary. There was a period of time in highschool when I, for the most part, refused to speak ( ... )

jacquelinetm September 13 2008, 03:34:24 UTC

I'll be starting "grieving counseling" soon, which I'm looking forward to, since I seemed to have the motherload of breakdowns when my mom died. Time will heal me... I know that... just wishing that it would come sooner than later.

I know that everyone loses someone they love and I don't think that I'm in any way in an isolated position that no one else has ever suffered through... I just want anyone that reads this reply to know that I feel for their losses also. I feel for anyone that loses a pet, also... pets are family and the loss of one is very traumatic... very devastating.

I love you and thank you for your helping words. :)

thunderpuddle September 9 2008, 01:51:51 UTC

I found comfort in sobriety, oddly enough.

I don't find that odd at all, really. There are two effects of tossing your brain into the trash. One is escape, which can feel nice at first. The other is a complete loss of control. I don't mean in the "go out and drink half a keg of beer" party sense. I mean in the sense of not being able to manage to steer your own life away from the cliff. That doesn't feel so nice at all. Which drives some people to keep going for the escape route. Other people drift into it so slowly they don't realize it's happening. You don't seem like the type of person who enjoys protracted out-of-control crazy very much. On the far other end of the spectrum, some people find abstinence quite liberating. It's not that unusual.

jacquelinetm September 13 2008, 03:43:44 UTC

Substance usuage/abuse can be used to "not care", which is very tempting when placed into a situation that is so overwhelming that one's psche becomes fractured/damaged because of not being able to "deal" with the situation .

But, it only prolongs the reality of what's going on, but it seems like substance abuse is such a quick fix that even if a user realizes the long-term result, the "quick fix" will make them not care about that soon enough.