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Mom's Cancer, My Weight Loss Surgery, Mary's Movie and More

Sep 13, 2007 02:20

It's been harder and harder to write as time goes on and the challenges pile up one after the other. I have loved this journal, loved writing to all of you, sharing my life with you and peeking in on yours. I miss this. I miss you ( Read more... )

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metamorphmuse September 13 2007, 09:28:04 UTC

Good luck with your WLS!!!... It's something I considered myself long and hard about as well. Decicded to have one more go at it the normal way, but I have mad props for anyone having the courrage it takes to take that leap. The WLS these days are better then the old days. How much are you hoping to lose (or is that too personal?)

I'm down 44 since May... still a ways a head for me but I'll get there.

Awwww your going to Artfest one of the years I decided not to go! I might change my mind closer to Aoril though if I can buy someones spot.

jacqui September 13 2007, 10:20:52 UTC

Hi Honey, Thanks so much. I already had one weight loss surgery, a gastric bypass about three or four years ago? Turns out, no big surprise, that a lot of my surgeons patients are coming back now to have the gastric band added. In fact I don't think he does many of the gastric bypasses because he likes the bands better because they are adjustable and so many of the people who had the bypasses are gaining some of their weight back. I lost 135 pounds and still wanted to lose fifty more, which would have been totally unrealistic taking me down to a 0 body fat percentage, but a gal can dream. I've gained about sixty pounds back, (Doesn't that suck?) and am dealing with so many shame issues about this. All the way down I got compliments that I didn't think I deserved so I would give my surgeon all the credit because honestly it wasn't anything I did, other than make the choice, take the risk, and learn how to eat differently, but when I inevitably started to gain the weight back I was so disappointed and sad because it's not like I've ( ... )

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jacqui September 14 2007, 06:47:22 UTC

That's one of my bigger concerns here, keeping this damned weight off, and somehow getting away from what seems to be a pretty big sugar addiction. I was pre-diabetic before my last weight loss surgery and things improved really quickly for me, blood sugar wise, afterwards, blood pressure too. I was able to get off both meds. I also noticed when I was doing Pritikin that tons of people who were Type 2 Diabetics were able to get off insulin. Good luck sweetheart.

Hugs,
Jac

crazycrone September 13 2007, 10:06:10 UTC

Whew! Life's a bitch all right. Sending soothing vibes your way.

jacqui September 13 2007, 10:26:10 UTC

It can be, but thank God/dess I'm a glass half full kind of gal -- always hopeful. Hope you're doing well Sweetheart. I've missed you.

Big Super Loving Hugs,
Jac
XOX

blueberrymoon September 13 2007, 11:00:28 UTC

Oh my, what an entry ( ... )

jacqui September 13 2007, 11:34:34 UTC

Thank you Sweetheart. Of course I'll support her in doing whatever she wants and whatever makes it easier for her. I understand. It's just painful.

I'm sorry about your Daddy, but what a beautiful way to honor his memory and take care of him and his wishes.

I hope I will fly through it. Hey, I'll bookend it with you. Here's to time speeding by and my being on the other side of this experience writing back to you again.

Love you,
Jac
XOX

borninjeans September 13 2007, 11:40:39 UTC

I'm just a random visitor but I was in a whiny mood today and this was like a much needed slap in the face. I can't remember when I last read an entry with the naked soul all exposed, brutal and honest. It's given me perspective, something I tend to forget caught up in 'me, me, me world' (even though I'm old enough to know better).
Thank you, really. Hope your surgery goes well. And may there always be good fortune in your life.

jacqui September 14 2007, 06:53:09 UTC

Oh what a sweet soul you are. Thanks so much. BTW no one is random here, nothing is really random anyway. I think we're all connected, all meant to stumble into each other. I'm glad something I wrote was helpful to you. That's one of the goals in doing this, other than to memorialize moments in time, I want to connect with people, give them a mirrored glimpse of themselves, and hopefully make people laugh through their tears.

I'm wishing you good fortune as well. Come back any time.

Big Loving hugs,
Jac

Wow phoenixferg September 13 2007, 11:54:01 UTC

You've been really busy, huh? I'm so glad you were able to comfort that girl, if only for a little while. No doubt she'll always remember you. You probably made as much as an impact on her life as she did to you.

Re: Wow jacqui September 14 2007, 06:55:31 UTC

Yeah, busy and overwhelmed. I wish my friend who is so angry with me for having to disappear for a few weeks would understand this. Thank you for taking the time to read this and comments, it was a generous and loving thing to do.

I remember the people who helped pull me out of my wrecked car on the freewar and I think of them and send out loving energy to them, so yeah, I hope she would remember a stranger who came out of nowhere to offer her some love and kindness : ) Thank you for noticing.

Big hugs for you,
Jac