Moving Through Grief

Jun 09, 2008 21:36

I’ve been wanting to write, missing it, but every time I think about sitting down to begin I get bogged down in narrative and the exhaustion that accompanies me through this grief. All of these thoughts and the heavy sadness that sits on my chest like a sharp rock waiting for me to take a deep enough breath, or accidentally stumble across the ( Read more... )

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colubra June 10 2008, 08:05:45 UTC
Jacqui:
I'm so sorry people seem to discount you losing your mom just because she had a good run. Just because she had a good, long, full life doesn't change that you miss her presence in your own life. People do you a disservice to act as if it should somehow change that loss.

Also, I wanted to say that the portrait of your childhood home up there was really well-written and evocative.

Hang in there; I know you have all the strength you need.

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sashti June 10 2008, 08:27:32 UTC
Sorry to hear about the passing of your Mother Jacqui.

Very big hugs to you.

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alfur June 10 2008, 09:40:39 UTC
It means so much to me that you- when you have the strength to- take us on this journey if only for a brief while. I was thinking as I read this that even more for you- the adopted child- losing these people would mean so many intense things- for so many reasons- because you can't see simple genes play out in yourself or your children. I look at my body as it gets older and I see my father's body- my voice sounds more like my mother's etc. But you have a legacy that is different- one that I believe in so many ways is stronger and more precious. It is something that is so evident- the nature in which we are bound to others- in the way you speak of this love that you shared- a partnership and a bond that makes me happy. Happy because its beautiful to hear of love that is true and you've truly had it and still do. xxx

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blueberrymoon June 10 2008, 11:23:10 UTC
You write so beautifully about such hard and painful things. Each day that passes will lead you to a better place. I understand that you know this, but reading this entry, I am compelled to put some words of comfort down. xo

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mvmontgomery June 10 2008, 13:55:43 UTC
There is nothing like the pain one experiences when losing their last parent. I mourned for my mother many months. Don't try and escape it - it's a necessary thing to go through, but do what you can to help yourself through it. I still think that after you have sorted everything of your mother's out, that you and Beau should go to Maui and chill out there and do some snorkeling.

If you need anything, call me. I'd love to come over and make you some food. I just finished my intermediate course in raw foods and would love to experiment on you with yummy vegan raw dishes filled with healing life force.

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