So my musings..

[jade_fire]

I've been inspired! A friend of mine is working on bettering herself. I want to do that too. With all the positive that has been going on in our lives as of late I notice myself looking at the negative in myself and hating what I see. I don't like the person in the mirror -- I'm closer every day to a weight I swore I would never allow. I hate

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[scatterbrain___]

I wonder why it's so hard to just STOP eating so much? Why is it SO HARD to get up and do something? I think we need to explore WHY it's so hard for us before we can actually do something about it. I mean it'd be the easiest thing in the world to drink 8 glasses of water a day. It'd be easy for us to wake up 2 hours earlier and go walking in the mornings. It'd be easy for us to NOT have those cookies at night, or that second bowl of cereal, but unfortunately, it's NOT easy. I don't know about you, but I always feel guilty the next day. Wtf is wrong with us? I think it's because we're scared of failure! I know that if I don't see instant results, I get depressed and give up 3 seconds later and binge eat for a week. Not a good cycle!

[jade_fire]

I'm with you. I've got so much riding on my ability to loose so much in a short time, that its just too much pressure and I just stop caring for a bit... then I feel guilty and I get depressed and then the cycle starts all over again. It was a lot easier when I didn't even realize it was happening. My thing in HS was two gym classes (mandatory) and a weekly PT (mandatory). I also had to walk across campus because we weren't allowed to leave property without permission. Now? I don't have to do any of that. Its a choice, and so I have to think about it, and that makes me less likely to do it. I did get up at 6 today though, and then fell asleep watching the news and went back to bed for another 45 min. I did make my salads and made enough to have them for the whole week. Now lets see if I actually eat them...