I want to be cool too...or well, see just how cool I am...

[jaded49]

you all know the drill. Comment anonymously and tell me exactly what you think. Or...you know what...you don't HAVE to make it anonymous. You can even own up to it if you love me! but just do whatever you want.

Comments

[anonymous]

You're a cool and awesome and I absolutely love you!!!!...but seriously, don't know what I'd do without you sweetie ^_^ you're the best!

[anonymous]

I hardly know you but I hate everything I do. most people recieve a fair chance from me and I listen to what they have to say- but you make it impossible to keep my attention with your over used explanations. You need to be yourself, Erica Parson. That's who you are and sooner or later you're going to have to "own up to it." Stop trying to lie your way into empathetic arms of people who will too soon forget you exist all over again and leave you with another empty feeling. You hurt like the rest of us. Give yourself a chance and stop trying to be everyone else for a change.

[jaded49]

I just want to know what you think I have lied about, and what over used explanations I have given. What exactly about me isn't me...since you claim I am not myself. And if you say I hurt like the rest of you, then why is it that everytime I do "own up to it" then I am just a poser or a lier? Who exactly else am I trying to be? and just who are you, to think you have the authority to be able to say these things?

[anonymous]

first of all- you clearly gave everyone the 'authority' to say these things. ["Comment anonymously and tell me exactly what you think"]

By saying you hurt like the rest of us, I simply meant no 'pain' or 'emotion' you are enduring or ever will endure is worse than everyone elses; but when you own up to it, you take it to such extremities that it ends up nothing more than an irrational idea that, for some reason or another, you have it worse than anyone else.

When you own up to something- that means you're saying its yours. No one elses. You own up to things that just aren't you; which then places the idea in peoples minds [such as my own] that you are, not only a liar, but a poseur.
which ultimately brings me to my last point- who exactly are you trying to be? You really should consider letting yourself exist. Don't take everything as if its a gun shot.

and if you're going to be someone else, try a little harder to smear the seams so no one notices your all to faceless life.

[jaded49]

so what exactly is it that I own up to that isnt me? and you sure are a brave person to be able to say all this anonymously. Why do you own up to all these things and say who you are? (besides the fact that I said you could do it anonymously)

[anonymous]

You have no sense in yourself so you seem to always latch onto topics like sex because that's what you think other people find interesting or something. It doesn't make you any more interesting. I'd actually like you to be Erica Parson then maybe I could say I know you.

[jaded49]

maybe that is who I am. Have you ever thought about that? Sex is not the only things I talk about. but if you think that I have no sense, and just latch onto topics, then you're right. You don't know me at all.

[anonymous]

I only had like 2 classes with you, besides seeing you at lunch, and I have to kinda agree with these other peoples. You'd always act depressed or sumthing to get attention but then two seconds later after everyone was around you you'd flirt around with sum guy or sumthing, then when they stopped paying attention to you you'd pretend to be mousy again or sumthing.

[jaded49]

It wasn't because I was not being me though. I was going through some terrible things. Sometimes being around my friends was the only thing that would make me feel better. Then my mind would get back on other things and I'd feel down again. I was depressed. all I did was sleep back then (when I wasn't at school...and a lot of times when i was).it's not an act. none of you people ever know that until you ask. It isn't pretend. and the flirting at lunch thing was all over done because I was trying to make someone jealous. that's just a thing people do when they are hurt. They don't want the person who hurt them to know that you are hurt.

[anonymous]

I think you should say what you were going to say arin...

[lindsey730]

mmmhm, I sure should.